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Title: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Clarity on April 27, 2015, 02:15:35 PM
I am in a man's home.  He is a middle-aged man.  It is a somewhat large home, spacious feeling.  My son, Gregory (or, is it my brother, Martin?) is here with me.  I have the sense that the man is a relative, maybe (only I do not know such a person in real life).  It seems we are visiting for dinner.  I have the sense that Gregory-Martin is an adolescent/child.  He is in the bathroom taking a bath.  I go to check on him.  It is a very large bathroom, with large open space.  I discover that Gregory-Martin’s head is open on each side.  It is like a big fish gill or flap on each side of his head.  I “think” this is because he has been picking at his scalp.  It is like there are large gaping sores, which I “think” need stitches.  END.

A few comments:  I am a 49 year old woman.  My son is 27 years old and has two children of his own.  There have been many dreams where I see an animus figure that is some admixture between my son, and my brother, Martin, as this dream shows.  Martin is not an active part of my life and is a year older than myself.  My son is a part of my life, of course, but we live four hours apart, so do not have regular contact.  I bring these points up, as I think the image of the adolescent in the dream has more to do with some inner animus aspect than with either Gregory or Martin.  These flaps on the side of the head are not bleeding, though the hair on his head does seem thinner in these areas.  Nor do I actually see the adolescent picking at his scalp.

Oh, one more thought:  I put the word think in quotation marks, because I try to separate what the dream itself is giving me from the thoughts of my dream ego.

Thank you for any suggestions,

Clarity
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: - anna - on April 27, 2015, 10:35:35 PM
Clarity – The conscious attention a woman has to give to her animus problem takes much time and involves a lot of suffering. But if she realises who and what her animus is and what he does to her, and if she faces these realities instead of allowing herself to be possessed, her animus can turn into an invaluable inner companion who endows her with the masculine qualities of initiative, courage, objectivity, and spiritual wisdom.  Quoted from The process of individuation  by Marie von Franz in "Man and his Symbols" by Carl Jung.
See http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/archetype-of-the-animus-jungs-view-of-the-male-in-the-female/

Your dream creator knows that you have to give your animus problem your conscious attention when you enter the bathroom to check on Gregory-Martin.

I wonder what you associate with this combination of brother and son. Perhaps you can use
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/acting-on-your-dream/#BeingPerson and/or
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/practical-techniques-for-understanding-your-dreams/#TalkingAs to get a better feeling of these aspect of yourself?

I see “them” as a combination of a part in you which is repressed/denied  - "Martin is not an active part of my life" – and a part of you that you are still in touch with.

The bathing I see as a ritual which is – among other things - getting you ready for the adding and/or deepening of your “feeling function” instead of relying on the “thinking function” of your dream ego only.

And so what your dream also reflects is that it will be helpful to approach certain areas of your life with less thinking – “the hair on his head does seem thinner in these areas” – and more feeling; to “breath in emotions”; to breath in LIFE and allow it to rush through “your gills of perception”.
See http://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/lifes-little-secrets/

I wonder why your dream ego thinks:  “I “think” this is because he has been picking at his scalp.  It is like there are large gaping sores, which I “think” need stitches.”

Could it be that the symbol of your brother is related to criticising? Could it be related to persecution? Hurting you and/or your ways of thinking (your beliefs) and the need for healing/forgiving it?

Anna :-)


Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Tony Crisp on April 28, 2015, 08:23:15 AM
I would like to also direct you to read http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/brain-levels-and-dreams/ It might explain the gills in a different way.

Tony
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Clarity on May 01, 2015, 02:24:53 PM
Anna Wrote:  I see this middle-aged man as a symbol of potential and so of what you can “grow into”, once you have dealt with the second part of the dream.
It is a potential that is still unknown to you, reason why you perceive him as “I have the sense that the man is a relative, maybe”.

Well, I agree that I am the bridge between these two aspects or levels of my inner masculine/animus. 

When I say that I perceive him as a relative it is precisely because he does feel familiar and known to me, as a "relative" customarily is.  The feeling energy of the dream tells me he is a professional, intelligent, astute and mature man.

There is, however, something to be said about my not seeing him as "my partner" - and that may well have to do with the work I continue to do with lesser developed aspects of myself, as seen in the Gregory-Martin image.

I did also have a feeling energy or sense that there was something womb-like in connection with Gregory-Martin, that the unconscious was indeed giving me a developmental reference.  So, what Tony offered helped here.

I do not see the animus as either/or, as in a potential I am growing into, but as a wholeness.  The animus includes all the flavorings of the masculine my life has known.  He has been shown to me in many varied colorings/dimensions through my dreams, from sage to beggar and from hoodlum to hero, etc. 

Indeed, I am working on improving my relationship with this part of myself.

The good thing about the work with the animus is that once one has developed a good relationship with their unconscious, and has been years in the process, much of the work continues rather autonomously.  Meaning the unconscious itself continues to seek its own integration with the self/Self.  We need only be loving and compassionate (which includes deeply felt and experienced understanding) witnesses/partners. 

The information on the four types was extraneous for me, as it is something I am quite familiar with ... along with our task of individuation.   So, I had to weed through all of that to see what you might be offering that was new.

Just so you know, in case I might continue to share dreams here, I am many years practiced in working with dreams.  I have an electronic dream journal that is over 500 typed pages long. 

I used to share on dream forums all the time, earlier in the process.  I generally do not any longer, as I do not feel a need for it.  Once in a while, however, an odd dream will want a little more attention.

Clarity
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Clarity on May 02, 2015, 02:25:19 PM
Hi Anna,

No, I do not understand your attraction factor and what it means to you when you say it "runs much deeper."   Would you explain this to me?

I do understand the mirror factor.  However, in my way of approaching things, I think it very important that if and when I offer an interpretation to another, I do so as objectively as possible, without projecting my own individual issues/fantasies onto the other dreamer. 

Clarity
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Tony Crisp on May 03, 2015, 10:07:14 AM
Clarity - Everything runs much deeper as far as life is concerned.

The human personality – the You that you call yourself, with a name, is only a tiny thing. It is moved and tossed around by all manner of drives, ambitions, emotions, fears, temptations, worries, love and desire with its pains and hopes; it is something we take so seriously and get carried away into awful situations.

I think you can see that all the time you are moved - literally - by forces and motive you only have a little awareness of. You are moved when you breathe even during deep sleep - your heart beats and digestion continues. You may feel that they are simply automatic life functions - but yet they all show enormous wisdom.

 Dr.Walter Cannon describes in his book The Wisdom of the Body this: 

Many years ago Murphy and I observed with X rays a curious phenomena after the first part of the small intestine (the duodenum) had been cut across and sewed together again. Although peristaltic waves were passing routinely over the stomach, the sphincter at the outlet (the pyloric sphincter) held tight against them, and only after about five hours did it relax and permit the gastric contents to enter the injured gut. The interest here lies in the relation of the delay to the process of healing; according to surgical observation, about four hours are required after an intestinal suture for a plastic exudate to form and make a tight joint. It was after the proper time had elapsed for that process to come to completion, therefore, that the chyme from the stomach was allowed to advance. Similar results were obtained when the section and suture were made further along the alimentary canal. 

We also make the mistake that the mother 'makes' the baby. But it is the amazing life functions that form it - the mother has the task of leading the baby to self conscientiousness. So we are all largely unaware of what we are and the wonder of Life. See http://dreamhawk.com/interesting-people/animal-children/#Program which explains that we are even unaware or our own becoming.

Tony
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Clarity on May 03, 2015, 01:48:12 PM
Tony - Thanks for this, but I really am quite aware of the miracle of "life"/process of "Creation" and that there exist forces and influences which affect us that the majority of the human population are very little aware of. 

Profound and many are my experiences with life, but I've no need to showcase them here to justify/prove the depths of my understanding. 

Indeed, sadly, many go to their grave having never consciously beheld the wonders there are, because they live more like conditioned automatons, in awareness of only a very narrow sliver of the wholeness that actually they are - that we all are.

More to the point though, my question to Anna was about her attraction, specifically, to me/my dream and how it runs deep.

Clarity     
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Clarity on May 03, 2015, 02:16:33 PM
Anna - I am surprised that you are unwilling to respond to my genuine question.  I sincerely wanted to know.  It may have led to an enlightening discourse. 

For the record, a more honest feedback from me about my feelings when you "entered" my dream is that you did treat it as if it were your own.  You used my dream to your own ends.  And you made a sweeping generalization about me when you went on to preach and lecture to me as if I was a beginner.  I felt disregarded as an individual . 

Clarity 
 
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Tony Crisp on May 04, 2015, 08:48:27 AM
If that is really so, you would have learnt some humility and compassion for others. Which is the basic we learn when exploring the wider world.

"Thanks for this, but I really am quite aware of the miracle of "life"/process of "Creation" and that there exist forces and influences which affect us that the majority of the human population are very little aware of. 

Profound and many are my experiences with life, but I've no need to showcase them here to justify/prove the depths of my understanding. 

Indeed, sadly, many go to their grave having never consciously beheld the wonders there are, because they live more like conditioned automatons, in awareness of only a very narrow sliver of the wholeness that actually they are - that we all are.

More to the point though, my question to Anna was about her attraction, specifically, to me/my dream and how it runs deep."

Thanks for your understanding.

Tony
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Clarity on May 04, 2015, 01:21:03 PM
Indeed, humility and compassion are important.  I am reminded of these from time to time.  Now is not one of those times.  I have also learned that honesty is important.  And far more noble than bowing down in subservience to any ideal of another is being true to one's own self and one's feelings.  I actually have a very strong moral identity, Tony.  And I do see that it bothers you that I was offended by Anna's manner.  I also see that you are playing savior for her.  For what it is worth, I have perused the forum (just a very short bit, mind you) and see where Anna has refused to answer the inquiries of at least two others in a very short amount of time.  I guess ignoring others is considered kind treatment here.  It is like relegating others to the status of a poorly treated black man who must search in the mud for whatever tidbits he can find, because he is not good enough, or "as good as" to be served and fed like the regulars. 

May you and your following here have a good day.
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Irina on May 04, 2015, 02:19:46 PM
Thank you Clarity :)

 I totally agree with your opinion .
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Tony Crisp on May 04, 2015, 03:14:44 PM
Clarity - WOW - you assume so much about me. My remarks were not about being anyone's saviour but because most of your post have quite a critical feel.

 "And I do see that it bothers you that I was offended by Anna's manner.  I also see that you are playing savior for her.  For what it is worth, I have perused the forum (just a very short bit, mind you) and see where Anna has refused to answer the inquiries of at least two others in a very short amount of time.  I guess ignoring others is considered kind treatment here.  It is like relegating others to the status of a poorly treated black man who must search in the mud for whatever tidbits he can find, because he is not good enough, or "as good as" to be served and fed like the regulars." 


Tony

Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Irina on May 04, 2015, 03:19:46 PM
Anna, let me tell you something, you are very negative person, I do not know if  you're able to realize it. I wonder how still no one spoke to you about it .
I'm a very sensitive person and when I read any written text, book, comments  and so on I can feel the vibration of a person  who wrote it. All your comments  carry negative vibrations, even if at first glance they seem to be positive advice.
You can write whatever you want, but even with out reading your text I can immediately feel the vibrations with which it was written.
And you will not be able to hide it, because it's real you.
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 04, 2015, 03:36:43 PM
Tony:  The evidence is in the material of this thread.  Any can read it and see that it is true that you are stepping in where I was addressing Anna who first addressed me.  No assumption needed for that.

Anna:  I am not trying to get you to "react," only to respond.  You may do so as thoughtfully as needed.  I asked you a sincere question which you refused to answer for no apparent reason.  You were so full of words when first you responded to my dream, why suddenly did you go silent?

I am not being critical.  I simply am a direct person.  I find it is much better and more efficient than "beating around the bush," as they say.

Clarity
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 04, 2015, 03:38:47 PM
Irina,

I do try to be an honest person.

Clarity
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Tony Crisp on May 04, 2015, 03:42:51 PM
Yes of course I was stepping in, in exactly the same way I stepped in a while ago and told Anna that if she didn't stop criticising Irina I would delete her membership.

And if you do not stop making this forum into some sort of contest I will do the same. The forum is about peoples dreams and not choosing sides.

Tony

Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 05, 2015, 01:26:41 PM
Yes of course I was stepping in, in exactly the same way I stepped in a while ago and told Anna that if she didn't stop criticising Irina I would delete her membership.

And if you do not stop making this forum into some sort of contest I will do the same. The forum is about peoples dreams and not choosing sides.

Tony
Hi Tony,

I truly was not instigating a competition.  It seems more likely that due to my perceptive skills I honed in on a problem that already exists here.  I simply cannot allow mistreatment of myself, here or elsewhere.  I do understand more clearly now, but being of humility and compassion should never mean that we allow ourselves to be walked on.

Clarity     
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 05:56:07 PM
Yes of course I was stepping in, in exactly the same way I stepped in a while ago and told Anna that if she didn't stop criticising Irina I would delete her membership.

And if you do not stop making this forum into some sort of contest I will do the same. The forum is about peoples dreams and not choosing sides.

Tony
Hi Tony,

I truly was not instigating a competition.  It seems more likely that due to my perceptive skills I honed in on a problem that already exists here.  I simply cannot allow mistreatment of myself, here or elsewhere.  I do understand more clearly now, but being of humility and compassion should never mean that we allow ourselves to be walked on.

Clarity     
In the interest of providing some clarity to any who may follow after, reading this thread, a key player in the exchange here has gone back and wiped clear tracks  of their involvement (deleted posts)...and, further, altered what contribution they left remaining.  This person, Anna, is apparently an assistant of some sort to Tony.  How or why he would choose her or allow her to remain providing advice to others when her integrity and behavior is questionable, begs an answer.  As I doubt a reasonable answer is forthcoming, this is a forum where, presently, I doubt whether or not I will remain.

Clarity
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: - anna - on May 06, 2015, 07:33:16 PM
The world you see merely reflects your own internal frame of reference—the dominant ideas, wishes and emotions in your mind.

"Projection makes perception".

Anna :-)

Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 07:43:52 PM
The world you see merely reflects your own internal frame of reference—the dominant ideas, wishes and emotions in your mind.

"Projection makes perception".

Anna :-)


Of course you would now say that, Dear Anna. 

Now that you have deleted roughly 1/4 of your posts both from this thread and the entire forum.

What transpired here was not in my imagination and evidence of your behavior even prior to my arrival and posting here is contained in the words of Tony himself.  Surely, I did not make up Tony's words for him...


 
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: - anna - on May 06, 2015, 09:23:34 PM

Tony and I let go of that past and now we are very dear friends and co-workers.

Anna :-)
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: - anna - on May 06, 2015, 09:28:08 PM
Posted by: IamClarity
« on: Today at 07:43:52 PM »
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What transpired here was not in my imagination and evidence of your behavior even prior to my arrival and posting here is contained in the words of Tony himself.  Surely, I did not make up Tony's words for him...


And I do wonder why you would want to hold on to our past.


Anna :-)

Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: - anna - on May 06, 2015, 09:35:51 PM

And this past

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I “think” this is because he has been picking at his scalp.  It is like there are large gaping sores, which I “think” need stitches.  END.

Anna :-)
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 09:38:32 PM

Tony and I let go of that past and now we are very dear friends and co-workers.

Anna :-)
Posted by: IamClarity
« on: Today at 07:43:52 PM »
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What transpired here was not in my imagination and evidence of your behavior even prior to my arrival and posting here is contained in the words of Tony himself.  Surely, I did not make up Tony's words for him...


And I do wonder why you would want to hold on to our past.


Anna :-)


You just do not stop do you, Anna? 

Because "you" ask, it is because earlier this day "you" made a post in the Greetings and Introduction Section, introducing yourself in a role with Tony, which you promptly deleted after I mentioned here in this thread that you were some sort of assistant to Tony.  You did identify yourself as being in such an association with him.

I am not sure what other past "you" are referring to...

But I do see that you show a little more of yourself each time...

Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 09:39:29 PM

And this past

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I “think” this is because he has been picking at his scalp.  It is like there are large gaping sores, which I “think” need stitches.  END.

Anna :-)

Do you want to tell me what you imply/project by this, Anna?
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 09:41:31 PM

And this past

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I “think” this is because he has been picking at his scalp.  It is like there are large gaping sores, which I “think” need stitches.  END.

Anna :-)
Who now is trying to get a reaction out of who?  Oh, wait, you deleted that post, along with hundreds of others on this forum.
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 09:54:58 PM

Tony and I let go of that past and now we are very dear friends and co-workers.

Anna :-)
Posted by: IamClarity
« on: Today at 07:43:52 PM »
Quote
What transpired here was not in my imagination and evidence of your behavior even prior to my arrival and posting here is contained in the words of Tony himself.  Surely, I did not make up Tony's words for him...


And I do wonder why you would want to hold on to our past.


Anna :-)


You just do not stop do you, Anna? 

Because "you" ask, it is because earlier this day "you" made a post in the Greetings and Introduction Section, introducing yourself in a role with Tony, which you promptly deleted after I mentioned here in this thread that you were some sort of assistant to Tony.  You did identify yourself as being in such an association with him.

I am not sure what other past "you" are referring to...

But I do see that you show a little more of yourself each time...

I see you have re-posted your greeting, but I personally have no interest in reading it again.  I am not sure what your statement is, but you sure are turning the forum into quite a parade of yourself.
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: - anna - on May 06, 2015, 10:00:50 PM
 

:)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 10:09:46 PM


:)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)
Capturing it for posterity before it also gets deleted.
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: - anna - on May 06, 2015, 10:29:59 PM
I like to thank you Clarity for "wrestling with me". It does take courage to go that path and I did learn a lot from it as well.  :)

http://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/lifes-little-secrets/

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Life’s simple secrets are that your being knows how to deal with the things you carry in you that have harmed you, creating despair, emotional darkness and even physical pain. The process of life in you is also part of the life on this planet. It can read the signs of change and will ready you if you let it.

We are a culture trained to need experts and to pay them; such experts are greatly needed, but our greatest expert is our amazing and wonderful process of life. To let it heal us it needs to be released from its years of restraint, of suppression, and being pushed into unconsciousness.

The simple secret is that inasmuch as we can allow our being to do its own thing occasionally – to move, cry, shake, discharge, laugh and cry or sing spontaneously – to that degree life in us keeps us balanced and healthy. Most ancient cultures had situations in which this was allowed.
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: - anna - on May 06, 2015, 10:36:10 PM

After our first "meeting" I had a dream which I thought was quite interesting:

I see the upper part of a cage in a white sky, I do not know how large it is, for I only see the upper part.

In it are two white doves flying and I understand that they can still fly - even when they are caged - because the cage is moving in the sky.


Anna :-)

Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 10:56:43 PM
It is a beautiful dream image, Anna. 

It immediately made me think of the following, which I will guess you may be familiar with:
Quote
Caged Bird
By  Maya Angelou   


A free bird leaps
on the back of the wind   
and floats downstream   
till the current ends
and dips his wing
in the orange sun rays
and dares to claim the sky.

But a bird that stalks
down his narrow cage
can seldom see through
his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and   
his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings   
with a fearful trill   
of things unknown   
but longed for still   
and his tune is heard   
on the distant hill   
for the caged bird   
sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn bright lawn
and he names the sky his own

But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams   
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream   
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied   
so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings   
with a fearful trill   
of things unknown   
but longed for still   
and his tune is heard   
on the distant hill   
for the caged bird   
sings of freedom

Copyright © 1983 by Maya Angelou
.

In your dream image, the cage is of no restraint to the doves.  It is as if the doves bear their history (chains of the past) as an emblem of from where they have come, but soaring beyond those limits life imposed.  Indeed, we were made for eternity...

And I am sure I do not need to tell you that the doves are symbolic of the human spirit, Spirit itself, peace, love, hope, messages, promise for new life, holiness, etc.  Dove is one of my totems.

Clarity
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: - anna - on May 06, 2015, 11:01:18 PM

No Clarity, I did not know the song, and yes it is a beautiful song. Thank you for sharing.

I do not "have" a totem animal, but I do have a dear connection with a dove singing. It always reminds me
of something Familiar which is beyond words.

Anna :-)
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 11:24:15 PM
It is a poem, actually.  Maya Angelou is an African American poet and writer.  I am not an African American, but I am moved compassionately toward their historical experience here in the U.S.
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: Irina on May 06, 2015, 11:26:11 PM
Thank you again Clarity  :)
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 11:28:51 PM
You are welcome, Irina.

Clarity
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 11:32:43 PM
A post script:  It would appear that I have many totems, as they are called.  I do not mind the word/symbol "totem," but I rather behold this phenomenon as my connection to the natural world/animal kingdom.  I have been blessed and helped by their archetypal energy.
Title: Re: Fish Gill-like Flaps on Head
Post by: IamClarity on May 06, 2015, 11:45:22 PM
On another note:

I have made a sort of "totem" of my young masculine image.  What I did is to honor the dream by forming a clay bust of a masculine figure with a large gill/flap on each side of the skull.  The finished product presents a primitive appearing man, which fits with the primitive development aspect of seeing him as adolescent/child like in the dream.  The older gentleman that I describe as a relative feels as an inner guide - who led me to attending to my Martin/Gregory.

Martin does not represent a critical aspect.  He represents an aspect that needs my love, attention and understanding (like I give to my son) in order to experience healing.  Martin is an aspect that was abused and neglected as child, that struggled under the weight of a heavy-handed (iron-fisted) father image - and was not well enough respected by older brothers.

I have focused much on healing the feminine aspects of myself, but not enough on healing the masculine aspects.

I remain a work (of art) in progress.

Clarity