Dreamangel - Thank you for writing back.
I want to tell you a story from my own life - but of course it is partly your own story too. It happened by using LifeSteam.
"I was like Atlas, supporting a world upon my shoulders and arms. It was so heavy I swayed and stumbled, and eventually was crushed - falling over - lying on my back, arms and legs wide. My hands went back and tried to lift up this world but failed. Then they went into a prayerful position, high up, and afterwards seemed to spin the world up above my chest, then take it upon my shoulders again and gradually rise. I seem to remember that flickers of strength or energy had gradually arisen from within me to enable me to lift the world. Now my right hand began to swing round and round, fast and faster. My left hand joined in and I understood that I was whirling this world faster and faster. Suddenly, and with a mighty effort, out rushing breath, and a sense of finality, I let go and the world swung into space - in orbit. It was here that I saw it as a creation drama, and felt from within that all such dramas have great inner meaning.
Now I stood facing the Light, hands together at the level. I felt my wrists were chained, and I held them up to God, the Light, to be freed.
It was then as if God said, “Tony, you hold up your arms to be freed, but you have never been chained - only by yourself.”
“It took almost three months for me to really begin to really understand what that was about, because a lot of our problems express as dreams or dream symbols. So one day when I was describing the experience to a friend I suddenly realised what it was saying. Before starting LifeStream I had felt very ill, but also ill at ease with myself.
At that time, although I had not been brought up in an actively religious family, I had lived by a strong religious code. I dealt with difficulties in my marriage and myself by applying the rigid morals I used to guide my life. I disciplined myself to live the sort of life I felt God called me to live. That was the world I had created. I had made a world so rigid and heavy to bear that my religious beliefs had crushed me and made me ill. Through opening up I was beginning to throw off that old way of life and the restrictions I had placed upon myself. I had begin to develop a sense of meeting life face to face, instead of creating a God in the mould of my own narrow conceptions. I had begun to feel a communication with life itself within me, and truly it was saying -’Tony, I have never chained you.’”
Tony