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Dream Interpretation / Re: supermarket
« on: Today at 10:18:09 AM »
Voodoo Doll - Many people do not realise that they have an inner father equally as powerful as an external father. You have taken in millions of bits of memory, lessons learnt, life experiences along with all the feelings or problems met by loving and living with your father, and they are what makes you the person you are. This is true even if your father was never there for you – you still have all the memories of him not being there for you filed under ‘Father’. The memories and experience we gather unconsciously change us and are not lost. It is part of you and is symbolised in dreams as a person or event. Such an inner father can appear in dreams because you are still deeply influenced by what you hold within you.

So whatever you gained by living with your father is active in this dream. But you have wants of your own, showing that you are becoming more independent from his influence. You chose food, which in dream language means a wide range of life experience for you to have. So don’t deny yourself a very full life, and don’t be scared of the dark parts of your life – everything is of value – obviously you didn’t let the dark put you off.

“I felt that if we have the courage, we are a firmament of experience. By exposing ourselves to experience, and allowing ourselves to really feel the pleasure, the torment, the passion of what we meet, we are feeding the essence of our being, Life itself. But we are more than a mouth, we are also a way of gaining insight, of integrating experience, and that is the real food for our essence.”


Dream Interpretation / Re: eggs and a microwave
« on: August 17, 2017, 01:02:15 PM »
Voodoo Doll – I get an impression that the president of your country has a strong influence on the way you make decisions. The eggs – your potential – he pointed out were destroyed. The others remained intact, showing that you have some choice in what you do with your potential. See

An oven is a cook’s tool kit, so what you do or fail to do with the oven have bearing on how you care for your basic needs. The reaction in your penis might be because you have power over what you do with it – but to find out try using

 When the image of the president reappears you felt anxious again. When you think about a friend or a person you know, you are only taking in your thoughts, impressions and feelings about them. So many people do not realise that they have an inner person equally as powerful as the external person you know. You have taken in millions of bits of memory, lessons learnt, life experiences along with all the feelings or problems met by meeting or living with them, and they change you and make you the person you are. The memories and experience we gather unconsciously change us and are not lost. It is part of you and is symbolised in dreams as a person or event. Such an inner person can appear in dreams because you still carry the memories or impressions of them, and so they influenced what you hold within you. Use Being Person again to clarify.


Greetings / Re: Hi everyone
« on: August 17, 2017, 11:02:58 AM »
Ayhanykaya – Thank you. I like to think I have linked the old methods with modern observation,  but most of what I learned came from entering the dreams at the level they occur – that is, millions of years ago before language and intellectual interpretation arose. See and

I would love to hear what you have learnt.

My changes in understanding are all summed up in


Healing Dreams / Re: giving birth - very detail-rich dream
« on: August 14, 2017, 02:05:23 PM »
V -The process of growth is not a straight climb upwards, but a process of meeting the feelings, fears, truamas the are blocking you, your creation. See

Also maybe


Dream Interpretation / Re: Got Suffocated in my Dream
« on: August 13, 2017, 10:27:43 AM »
Yokesh – First, you didn’t take notice of your intuition form your instincts – see

The clouds represent blockages in the way your life energy works. Such blockages often result in depressive or non functional ways of feeling. Suffocation often reflects the way you relate to your environment, either in a relationship or work or family. It depicts feeling you have no personal space or opportunity to express. It can also show great anxiety.

Your attempt to wake up seemed to bring about sleep paralysis - Many people experience feeling paralysed while they are partially awake but dreaming. This may be due to the fact that voluntary movements are inhibited during periods of the dream process. All brain signals to the voluntary muscles are stopped. Therefore if we become slightly awake and attempt to move at that time we feel paralysed. This is not sensed as a problem if we are unconsciously involved in a dream. While dreaming another level of will takes control of the body, the Life Will, so any sounds or movements made are not from ones conscious will.

The problem you experienced is because the Life Will makes movement that are attempts to lead you to self understanding and healing. But virtually everyone blocks these movements because a long time ago our ancestors lived in trees, and the movement would lead to death. So the important fact about dreaming is that all the signals for movement while we dream are sent by the sleeping brain to the muscles but are blocked by a part of the brain called the pons. But this block can be bypassed by having a passive attitude while awake by using

While your dream experience was scary, it was an attempt to bring to awareness the things we have not allowed to become conscious.

Dream Interpretation / Re: Sweet smell
« on: August 13, 2017, 08:58:56 AM »
If that is the Anna I know, it is Great to see you here again.

But Mikey, Anna is so right, but see


Dream Interpretation / Re: Dream About Death in Person
« on: August 10, 2017, 11:17:07 AM »
Yokesh – “Do not judge, so that you will not be judged, since you will be judged in the same judgment that you make, and you will be measured by the same standard you apply.”

A quote from the Bible, but it is fantastic psychological wisdom. My mother said to me with great force, for she was speaking out of her anxiety because she thought I had been lost, “You hurt me. Now I am going to hurt you!”

Then she did something to me that hurt so much that I cut off from her emotionally at five years old. My unconscious decision led me along a path of years of personal suffering. Then, at 46 I learnt forgiveness. At the time I was experiencing such torment that I used LifeStream to see if I could find a way through. Here is what I wrote at that time:

“But then I saw the hell I had created out of my own pain and devastation; I had smashed my own children. I could feel the guilt and burdens of that. I wanted to say to them, “Look, you don’t need to punish me, or be angry with me, because I have suffered enough already.” I also thought my mother suffered enough as well. I don’t need to hate her anymore. Then sweet forgiveness came. Prior to that I was resisting ever wanting my sexual problem healed. It was a weapon I could hit women with, and use to be miserable in the world. That is, to punish the world. But when I could forgive my mother I could also forgive myself and the world. What a relief it is to forgive oneself, and out of that find peace and forgiveness of others. I could see how many people unconsciously create their own state of depression in an attempt to hit back at the world. Forgiving oneself wipes that away. It took me several days to find the courage to make love though. But I have felt easier since and I watched to see how I now relate to this area since forgiveness and the hate campaign has been released.” 

Judging oneself is a form of personal torture. It took me year to be able to use LifeStream in that way, and of course you need to develop ego strength to be able to face what is revealed about oneself.

As for meeting death, I had a long fascination and relationship with it. I was born prematurely in the 1930’s – the doctor who delivered me threw my lifeless body to one side and said to my mother, “Why attempt to give life to this premature and tiny baby? It will be difficult to rear, more prone to illness, and it will be harder for it to cope with life. It isn’t breathing at the moment, so forget it and try again for a healthy baby. Leave it.”

Reliving my birth – yes we have memory of such things – again using LifeStream – I faced death and struggled to live. Death is with us always, as is Life. Here is an account of the best meetings-

Here the first good meeting, experienced during a Seed Group.

Of a sudden 
I see the face of Death. 
I hear its voice. 
I know it - 
For we have met 
Often and always. 
Death has the features of 
A child I made cry; 
The profile of 
My loved woman; 
Your countenance. 
Have I known you? 
Then I have known Death. 
Have I betrayed any? 
Then I have betrayed Death. 
And its face is beauty 
For it is all things - 
Undressed of flesh, 
Unclad Life - 
Without the garment 
That our selfhood is. 
And the waters in me rose 
To tears. 
Bathing me in regret 
That I had 
So often 
My love 
For the 
Naked Beauty.


I was alone in my house and asleep in bed. Something materialised or landed on the foot of the bed. It woke me a little and I felt afraid. I had the feeling it was some sort of entity materialising and coming for me in some way. It moved up the bed a little. I felt paralysed, partly by fear but also as if the ‘thing’ was influencing me. This made me more afraid of it. Then it moved up higher, not on my body but on the bed. I was very afraid and struggling against the paralysing influence. I managed to shout at it – “I will destroy you. I will destroy you”. As I shouted I pushed at it with my hand. This felt to me as if I were going to will its destruction and use my hand to smash it. I still felt a little uncertain of the outcome but I was very determined to fight it. At this point I woke up or was awakened by my wife. She asked me what I had been dreaming. Apparently I had been pushing her and shouting that I would destroy her.

Explored my dream in depth and describing my insights as follows – 
I started by considering the recent nightmare of the ‘thing’ at the foot of my bed. Gradually I began to feel tense throughout my body, with difficulty in breathing. The ‘thing’ seemed at first to be a woman’s vagina. There was a little feeling in this but not much. Then it slowly grew in intensity and I realised the ‘thing’ was death. Recently it is obvious from the mirror that my body is going through another period of rapid ageing. The dream was a dramatic representation of my feelings about this. Death was gradually creeping up on me, gradually overwhelming me and I was fighting it. As the session deepened I saw that in my feelings I felt that death had put its finger on me. The touch of death was like a disease though. Once touched the disease was incurable and gradually took over one’s body. I could hardly breathe as I experienced this, and I understood the sort of emotions that might lie beneath asthma attacks. This struggle with death went on for some time. It was not terrible but was felt strongly. I also recognised that my wife has similar feelings about her ageing, and is communicating to me that her body is dying and unclean, especially her genitals, and this is off-putting. I see that when I shout I ‘I will destroy you!’ in a way it is my fear of being destroyed that is behind the emotion. 
I began to wonder what to do about the situation. The feeling was that death was claiming me. So, I wanted to face the truth about death, whatever it was. I wanted to walk right up to it and look it in the face and know whether death meant a final end. If it did I would rather know. As I approached death like this by imaging walking toward the THING, my feelings went through an amazing transformation. All the tension left me. I felt good, positive, easy to breathe and with a sense of hope about life and death. This was so surprising and sudden I wondered what had produced it. I needed to be aware of how this change had occurred. So, I retraced my steps to look at death and try to understand why it had lost its power of fear. 
At first I saw that my tension and sense of death being or giving a disease was due to a view I had of it. When we look at the world only through our senses, death is obviously a terminal sickness that claims everyone. Someone said on TV the other day - Life is a sexually transmitted disease that produces a 100% mortality. Seen in this way death is the rotting corpse, the skeleton. The path to it is disease or breakdown. But in looking it in the face I saw another view of it. I saw the dead body, the corpse, the skeleton, as a form left behind by the process of life. When I looked at myself to see what ‘Tony” is - I cannot separate myself from the process of life. That process leaves behind shells, bodies, tree trunks, but it goes on creating other forms. I am Life. 

The disease is caused by seeing oneself as a body that is bound to die. The cure is to realise that you are a product and expression of Life. See

Dream Interpretation / Re: Demon,labyrinth
« on: August 10, 2017, 09:51:18 AM »
Yoma – The first part of the dream is about how we get lost in life, bewitched by the many thing people take to be important for their wellbeing. So your dream suggests you are immersed in the strange maze of life experiences and are trying to protect the best of what you are. But life is often difficult to find the meaning, the right approach that can lead you to finding the answer.

For the maze can represents the circuitous and often confusing route you take to greater maturity. In this sense the maze represent an attempt to find your way through conscious thoughts, opinions, doubts and childhood traumas fantasies and beliefs, to an experience of your fundamental nature. See and

Perhaps because we are all dual beings, the balance between the dark and the light, you have somehow achieved a balance that enables you to escape from the traps you set up for yourself – for we face ourselves with problems in everyday life, and in the inner world of dreams. Overcoming them develops strength.

The second part is interesting because of the name Azazel. Are you deeply immersed in Bible study? If not, you must have heard the name at some time, for Azazel is the Hebrew name for a fallen angel, meaning ‘to be cast out’.

Again you manage to deal with the threat, but I suggest you read the real translation of Genesis to understand what casting out means. See

But to give you a taste of it:

The word translated ‘serpent’ is Nahash. The word for snake in Hebrew is sheretz. Nahash is a special word that does not refer to a snake at all, but to a force or process. It means evolutionary energy, or energy which tends to individualisation or selfhood. A whirlpool is simply water. But it is water drawn by an energy circling toward its centre. This circle of force draws things to its own centre – to its own self. In the previous notes it was said that three basic states underlay all existence. The first is the Unknown God – neither light nor dark, male or female, nor any opposites. From this issued the Word, or Elohim, the creative activities which caused a separation to take place. Thus the Light-consciousness, and Dark-unconsciousness, came about. These are also known as the centrifugal and centripetal forces.

One caused all things to expand from a centre, the other to draw in to the centre. Nahash is the in-drawing energy or whirlpool that causes men’s spirits to have a personal centre that gives individuality. The power of Light is the opposite, it universalises.

One other point is that whereas thinking and willing were united in the Adam (not an individual, but all humankind) – now they are separate.

Now the activity leading toward selfhood in the human spirit was so subtly a part of its nature, that unlike the other activities that had been expressed outwardly as the evolution of vegetables and animals, it was difficult to stand aside from it. The mineral, animal and vegetable forces had not involved mankind so strongly. They had been objectified easily.

(V. 1 to 6 ‘And he said unto the woman, Yea, hath God said, Ye shall not eat of every tree of the garden? And the woman said unto the serpent; we may eat of the fruit of the trees of the garden: But of the tree which is in the midst of the garden, God hath said, Ye shall not eat of it, neither shall ye touch it, lest ye die: And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die. For God doth know that in the day that ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil. And when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree to be desired to make one wise, she took of the fruit thereof, and did eat, and gave also unto her husband with her; and he did eat.
We have already dealt with the above words.
Now that the human spirits could follow their own feelings, from the forces that caused human spirits to have individual existence there arose a question. It entered their consciousness asking, “Did Elohim really mean that I should not totally experience material existence? Surely, if I entered the sphere of opposites I would gain knowledge and experience from it?
And the divine wisdom in men warned them of the consequence of this, saying, you must not centre your consciousness in matter, for by that you will die to your cosmic awareness and have only consciousness through physical senses.
But the forces of individuation, flowing into matter, seemed to say that if they allowed their being to enter into and experience physical life, how could they lose their eternal consciousness? Instead they would gain knowledge of the opposites, of the paradox that Elohim knows.
Then the desires for this fired their will, for many spirits wished to know life in physical realms; to experience fully the knowledge of time and space, of the incompleteness of being just male or female, of looking out through the senses of a physical body, and knowing the feel of winds and water, separation and aloneness. Thus came about the fall of the angels, and many spirits fell into life within a physical body.

(V. 7 & 8 ‘And the eyes of them both opened, and they knew that they were naked, and they sewed fig leaves together, and made themselves aprons. And they heard the voice of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day: and the man and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God amongst the trees of the garden.

The word translated ‘naked’ – ‘aroom’, really means blindness, deprivation of light. The words ‘sewed’ and ‘fig leaves’ are from ‘va-ithepherou’ and ‘aleh thaench’. These mean to produce, to give birth to a – covering of sorrow or sobbing. Aprons – ‘la-hem’ – means strife or contention, when its roots are analysed. Tree – ‘etz’ as already said, is physical substance.

And the spirits of humanity who involved themselves in matter knew the life of the body. Having turned from the one will to their own desire, they realised how utterly naked of any personal wisdom they were. Having turned from the cosmic wisdom that had guided them, they found no light of their own to lead them. And shame and sorrow was born in them by their act, and among them contention already arose due to their disunited will.

And as the light of their cosmic awareness waned, the presence of Elohim was yet with them. But through their shame they turned from it to the consciousness of the bodies they had made for themselves.

That was the fall. See


Dream Interpretation / Re: Dreaming of spiritual entities
« on: August 09, 2017, 11:56:55 AM »
Yoma – What most people fail to realise is that they/we exist within confines of a physical body, but we are in essence everything. See

Also, you are demonstrating abilities that are unusual for a young person – but that is okay, you must have worked hard to earn them. The existence as a shadow like being shows you entered what I describe as The Fifth Dimension of human experience – see

Of course we are all immortal, but it takes the ability to ‘go beyond’ our normal sense impressions to realise it. See

It is indeed a part of your nature, helping others. It is great that you realise that now – but daily life with it physical work must go on, with its share of stress. Also the things you realised in your dream need to slowly integrate with your life in the body. For you have the gift of seeing the real nature of people and helping them in the dream/inner life. See

The second dream is where you realise the gift of seeing the real nature. The mentor is perhaps your own central spirit speaking to you and encouraging you. We are all spiritual entities - some have grown beyond our own level, and may help us. But there are also god beings of different types. No dou9nbt you will meet them in your own life journey. Please read

This dream was you exploring, but you were locked in symbolic meaning. It might help to read  - but do not hurry to read everything – you have enough to do - also Dream images are like icons on a computer screen - you have to ‘click’ on your dream images to make them come alive. Thinking about them doesn’t work. You need to open yourself to the magic of them. See  :) :)


Dream Interpretation / Re: Dream About Death in Person
« on: August 09, 2017, 11:03:42 AM »
Yokesh - I have to repeat this - Whenever we dream its images are not like real life, because a dream is nothing like outer life where things could hurt you, but is an image like on a cinema screen that even if a gun is pointed at you and fired it can do no damage – except if you run in fear. So all the things that scare you are simply your own fears projected onto the screen of your sleeping mind.

So you cannot die, drown or be shot in nay way that will hurt you. But of course, dreams are created by your fear, beliefs and imagination, so you can experience fear, pain, dying, but you wake – maybe shaken by the emotions you are capable of – but really none the worse.

The images you saw of Death are all stereotypes – stock images – we use when we meet the feelings we have of death. You were not really scared of dying, unusual.  But it is the commonest interest on this site – we get the highest number of hits for any single subject - dreams-about-dead-people 6,519 Views. The next is Bear - 6,418 Views per week.

If you challenge the stock images of Death next time, ask It – for death, like God, are not male figures, but are universal experiences – to show you its face behind the symbol displayed to you. Like any dream symbol, if you do that you will enter into an amazing experience.

You dream seems to be a way you are sniffing around Death, trying to find out what is really going on. Keep sniffing – noses are great to find out what is a fraud.

But of course you ‘die’ many times in life as you grew out of ‘skins’ that were too small for you – the childhood you had to die to give birth to the teenage you; and the same for the adult and middle age and old age versions.

If It was actually taking your life, it is because you are about to go through another growth process. See -


Healing Dreams / Re: giving birth - very detail-rich dream
« on: August 07, 2017, 01:56:28 PM »
V – WOW – You went for it – so many symbolic meanings, but let’s start from the beginning.

To start with it is not natural to have a painful birth – See -

Having dream babies is natural, because you are a woman; it is about your wonderful power of creation. But what I see is that those drives need not be expressed through producing a physical child. It is innate in women to dream of being creative and giving birth in their dreams. So I believe that such a dream baby is a very real part of you – though an inner and not an outer part.

You can be creative in many different ways without having to give birth to a physical baby. But your dream baby represents a new aspect of you trying to emerge and be cared for and developed. It can be in music and the arts, in caring or interests of any sort. So watch out for emerging new aspects of you. Also, I have never seen a dream baby cry – talk straight away certainly,

The period is another sign of your fertility; perhaps as it is the second dream baby that you remember, there may be other babies – a flood of personal growth. If you are in tune with your inner life, then such changes happen often. Each of us are immersed in a ‘river’ of constant change. If you think about it you have been carried, pushed, impelled by this current as you were moved through babyhood, childhood, teenage and adulthood. And as we passed through these changes we died to our old self in order to change to the new. It is the current if Life. This current then carries us on through old age and through gates of death. All the time we are faced by decisions, and each decision directs us on a different path, helping to create our future. And this force of growth and change. And is fought like hell by many as we are afraid of such changes, especially getting old and facing death.

Delivering your baby directly to your home, in dream terms says that home is what you have created with your life and are comfortable with. So your new aspect is already in you ready to get on with your everyday living.

Also, if there was no man involved in the dream you experienced a virgin birth. This represents the human soul or psyche and its possibility of dropping pre-conceptions, thus attaining an inner virginity and through that being receptive to the unseen or unconscious side of self. When we experience this personally, the child we conceive is the union between the receptive conscious self and your forces of Life in you. This receptivity and virginity of mind leads to the birth in oneself of a force or activity that gradually transforms and enlarges ones life and experience. See  -

The lady with you is an inner person, and you use her image to remind you of a feelings state. When you think about a friend or a person you know, you are only taking in your thoughts, impressions and feelings about them. So, many people do not realise that they have an inner person equally as powerful as the external person you know. You have taken in millions of bits of memory, lessons learnt, life experiences along with all the feelings or problems met by meeting or living with them, and they change you and make you the person you are. The memories and experience we gather unconsciously change us and are not lost. It is part of you and is symbolised in dreams as a person or event. Such an inner person can appear in dreams because you still carry the memories or impressions of them, and so they influenced what you hold within you. But it is important remember that Dream images are like icons on a computer screen - You have to ‘click’ on your dream images to make them come alive.
Thinking about them doesn’t work. You need to open yourself to the magic of them. 
To make them into the wonderful gateways they are you may have to learn certain skills. And what’s in it for you?

Maybe -

“9 months it would have taken me to give birth to another baby.” V, you are still thinking in terms of having a physical body. But basically in dreams you do not need a body; you are a shape shifter, can predict the future and are out of space and time. While in the dream state you are in a totally different environment – you are amazing – but what you believe conditions what you experience. See -

Trust the baby is alright – unless you fear otherwise. Because in this world you create your own heaven or hell.

The boy you will have to find out for yourself – it is magical what you can experience – a synthesis of so much so difficult to describe, but you can experience, as above – clicking on.

Babies in dreams do not need to breathe – in reality they have no physical body – nor do you. The V baby is actually created by you and Life so it is you – for you are life for you are alive – an amazing miracle of life – we all are.

The boy you met was probably the baby boy also – kids can grow up so quickly in heaven/the dream world.

A lot reply, but it shortened even so. I hope to makes sense.  :)


Dream Interpretation / Re: Dream About Execution
« on: August 06, 2017, 11:46:01 AM »
LP – The execution – you were fighting against it. But in a way you were planning to ‘end your life’ with your husband, and dreams very often show such changes very graphically. (By the way, thanks for the excellent information).

But death in dreams is not the same as death in the body life. In dreams it is simple the end of one way of life blending into a beginning of another. Whenever we dream its images are not like real life, because a dream is nothing like outer life where things could hurt you, but is an image like on a cinema screen that even if a gun is pointed at you and fired it can do no damage – except if you run in fear. So all the things that scare you are simply your own fears projected onto the screen of your sleeping mind. So we cannot drown, so we can breathe underwater, we cannot die, although we can feel the fear and even pain of death. So next time you can try letting your dream self be executed. It might be the start of a new life.

The religious side of your dream may be more important than you realise, because religious beliefs are often generations deep, and so might be influencing your ability to live your own life. You might be able to define this by using

You cab of course use it to define every other part of the dream, lettuces for example. I don’t know what you associate with them. But the space age tube hints that it is what you see intuitively of your future. See


Dream Interpretation / Re: holding a baby - relief from sciatic pain
« on: August 06, 2017, 09:44:56 AM »
Good Luck!!!

Dream Interpretation / Re: holding a baby
« on: August 04, 2017, 07:30:21 AM »
Mikey - "I have been struggling with sciatic nerve pain recently of which it is not the first time in my life.  Anyhow, any input you have is greatly appreciated."

Sorry, I overlooked this important message.

About forty years ago I suffered such pains and hadn't been able to sleep for three nights. On the last night I got out of bed about 2am, and as always when I am in difficult I used LifeStream to see if it would help. After about two minute of practice a memory of something I had read ages ago popped up. It was something I had read about such pain - it was that the nerves, and especially the sciatic nerve, is covered with a sheath. The sheath is built by the action of the B vitamins in our system. The sheath can degrade, and when it does we suffer pain.

I realised I had some Brewers Yeast tablets in the house, so searched and found them. I took a number of the tablets, but as I chewed them I felt tremendous hunger for them and took another handful, and then another. I then went to bed, and within 15 minutes the pain had gone and I slept. I took the tablets - much less the next few days, and the pain never repeated - but I keep Brewers Yeast tablets in my house, and take them occasionally.


Dream Interpretation / Re: fruit tree
« on: August 03, 2017, 08:51:04 AM »
Voodoo-Doll – It is a time of great fruitfulness for you. Things you had wanted to happen are now ripe and happening.

Not only that, but you are able to profit from the change in your life – for you are catching the fruits of your efforts. The pomegranate is a sign of great personal fertility for you as a woman. It shows your femininity is ripe and ready to be used.


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