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Questions about dreams / What can I do if I keep having nightmares?
« on: March 16, 2019, 10:09:16 AM »
Nightmares are often expressions of fears we have not faced or have not admitted to while awake. The dream will usually give a clue to what causes the fear. If the dream includes a child, for instance, then it may be a fear or trauma you developed in your childhood. If the dream includes an animal it may be related to your powerful urges such as sex or anger. If it shows darkness, then the fear might be about what is unknown or imagined. Look at the nightmare in this way to start with, to define, if only vaguely, what the fear might connect with. Then imagine yourself in the action of the dream and slowly meet, or move toward, whatever or wherever the fear emanates from. Use the techniques described in the sections in Techniques for Exploring your Dreams and the section above dealing with recurring dreams. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/masters-of-nightmares/

Remember that whenever we dream its images are not like real life, because a dream is nothing like outer life where things could hurt you, but is an image like on a cinema screen, so that even if a gun is pointed at you and fired it can do no damage – except if you run in fear; so, all the things that scare you are simply your own fears projected onto the screen of your sleeping mind. In the early days of moving pictures, a film was shown of a train coming fast toward them; the viewers all fled in terror, fearing the train would crush them. That is exactly the same response if you are terrified of any thing you dream of.

Many dreams lead us to feel an intensity of emotion we may seldom if ever feel in waking life. If the emotions felt are frightening or disgusting we call the dream a nightmare. Scientists find this definition too vague and so use two categories to define different types of anxiety dream. The first definition is ‘REM anxiety dreams’, and the second is ‘night terrors’. The REM anxiety dream is one that occurs during REM (rapid eye movement) activity, in other words during a normal dreaming period. These are reported to occur most frequently during the last part of the sleep cycle – that is, just prior to waking. One usually remembers the imagery and feelings of these dreams clearly. Night terrors occur during the first two hours of sleep, mostly in stage four sleep – See: science sleep and dreams – and the dreamer has either no recall of imagery at all, or it is a single impression such as a physical sensation of heaviness or difficulty in breathing. After waking from such a dream experience, the person feels disoriented for some time afterwards. See: night terrors; the first example in abreaction is an example of a night terror.

One of the common features of a nightmare is that we are desperately trying to get away from a situation; feel stuck in a terrible condition; or meet fear or disgust in almost overwhelming degree, so that on waking we feel enormous relief it was just a dream. Because of the intensity of a nightmare we will remember it long after other dreams; remember even if we seldom ever recall other dreams. We may even worry about what it means for a long period of time, perhaps even years. Many people, on waking find the feelings, or sometimes even the imagery, continuing for some time. So for instance they may feel so much fear they have to switch all the lights on in the house.

A little Kuwaiti boy survived the Iraqi invasion of his country and was living without his father, a prisoner of war. But a recurring nightmare, of Saddam Hussein stabbing his brother to death, was prolonging the trauma.

One night he had a different dream: This time he carried the knife, becoming a hero who kills his nemesis. The emotional weight he carried disappeared. Altering recurring nightmares may hold a key to recovery for many victims of trauma, says Dr. Deidre Barrett, a professor of behavioral medicine and hypnotherapy at Harvard Medical School. Barrett spent a month in Kuwait City after the Gulf War training other therapists to treat post-traumatic stress disorder.  She says, “Just changing something in the dream gives people such a sense of mastery in controlling things.”

“Just that sort of dramatic sense of confidence he had in a dream carried over into his waking life.” See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/secrets-power-dreaming/

More than one in 20 adults in the United States say they have disturbing dreams, and more than twice as many children have nightmares. Trauma victims, whether students who witnessed the Columbine High School massacre, ethnic Albanian refugees or people who have been raped or attacked , often immediately have nightmares that recall their experience.

As so many dreams have been investigated in depth – using such varied approaches as hypnosis, exploration of associations and emotional content, and LSD psychotherapy, in which the person can explore usually unconscious memories, imagery and feelings – we can be certain we know what nightmares are. They arise from many causes.

Unconscious memories of intense emotions – such as those arising in a child being left in a hospital without its mother. Many people who have been trapped in an awful situation, whether that is a dreadful marriage, a political or war prisoner, or a life situation one yearned to get out of, frequently dream they are back in the situation unable to get out.

Intense anxiety produced – but not fully released at the time – by external situations such as involvement in war scenes; sexual assault – this applies to males as well as females, as males are frequently assaulted; being attacked and ones life threatened; involvement in a natural disaster such as flood or fire; car accident, etc. The nightmares of Vietnam veterans has been extensively studied for instance. Their nightmares closely parallel their actual combat experiences.

Robert Van de Castle reports a slightly different source of nightmares. This has to do with guilt or future threat. He gives the example of Czech refugees who escaped to Switzerland during the Cold War. They managed this by saying they were taking a holiday, that was allowed, but not returning. The penalty for non-return was several years imprisonment. When one hundred of these refugees were interviewed, fifty six percent said they dreamed about being back in what was then their Soviet dominated homeland and unable to escape. Apart from the possibility of guilt, this is the same as 1. Sometimes this form of nightmare shows itself as a terror of being discovered as the perpetrator of some awful crime such as a murder.

Childhood fears and trauma such as loss of parent; being lost or abandoned; fear of attack by stranger or parent; anxiety about own internal drives. These fears or trauma may arise from having experienced a difficult birth – See: the account of his nightmare given by Leon under active imagination; being put into hospital or some other form of separation from ones mother; or living continuously in an unloved condition.
Many nightmares in adults also have a similar source as those listed in number 4, namely fear connected with internal drives such as aggression, sexuality and the process of growth and change – such as a youth meeting the changes of adolescence, loss of sexual characteristics, old age and death. So this is fear of the future and imagined events.

Serious illness shown in the dream symbols and Precognition of fateful events.

Possibly genetic influence in formation of character. Research has shown there is evidence that ones basic disposition is genetically determined. In a small percentage of people this means they are born with an anxious, shy characters that in our society often leads to depression. Other research, by Ernest Hartmann, determined that a small percentage of people had what Hartmann called ‘thin boundaries’. These people have a life long disposition towards frequent nightmares. It seems likely that the two pieces of research overlap. Perhaps Hartmann was not aware of the genetic research, though he does say there is perhaps a genetic basis for the tendency. See: https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/night-terrors/ .

Threats to self esteem. We may either be faced by, or fear, the loss of something important to us, such as the failure of our relationship, loss of a child, being seen as stupid at work, or not coping with life in a way others approve of. Many professional people I have spoken to report dreams in which they experience themselves involved in some sort of critical situation at work. For instance a regular radio presenters nightmare is they dream the equipment fails, the CD player refuses to work, or they miss their prompt. Sometimes a deep sense of inadequacy haunts a person. This may be in terms of their sexual performance, their physical attractiveness, but may not be based on such obvious factors. In some cases it is rooted in their general but unconscious assessment of themselves measured against others. This may arise out of a family attitude of inferiority, or something like premature birth, where the baby/child feels some steps behind others, or is led to feel so by an anxious parent.

Recurring nightmares – that is, those that happen again and again, weekly or even more frequently, and have the same basic plot. These are of course the same as ordinary nightmares. Their recurrence however is something to consider. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/recurring-dreams/ .

Example of 1: I am a detective following clues regarding some sort of crime. They lead me in a large cellar, and within the cellar I come across the entrances of two tunnels. These are nearly the size of underground train tunnels, and are side by side leading away into pitch blackness. I decide to explore the tunnels and start to walk into one. I was overwhelmed by terror, as if the very darkness of the tunnel was a living force of fear that entered and consumed me. I screamed and screamed, writhing in uncontrollable fit like contractions. Nevertheless a part of me was observing what was happening and was amazed, realising I had found something of great importance. Andrew P.

Because Andrew explored this dream with me, I know the darkness was depicting fear he experienced while a 9 year old in hospital. He was given a rectal anaesthetic because he was about to have a nose operation. He fought and begged for the nurses to stop, but to no avail. This led to a very real feeling that humans were terrifyingly dangerous animals who would not respond even if you were on your knees begging. So trauma was the fear in the darkness.

Example for 2: ‘A THING is marauding around the rather bleak, dark house I am in with a small boy. To avoid it I lock myself in a room with the boy. The THING finds the room and tries to break the door down. I frantically try to hold it closed with my hands and one foot pressed against it, my back against a wall for leverage. It was a terrible struggle and I woke myself by screaming.’ Terry F.

When Terry allowed the sense of fear to arise in him while awake, he felt as he did when a child – the boy in the dream – during the bombing of the second world war. His sense of insecurity dating from that time had emerged when he left a secure job, and had arisen in the images of the nightmare. Understanding his fears he was able to avoid their usual paralysing influence

Example: I was alone in a house and asleep in bed. Something materialised or landed on the foot of the bed. It woke me a little and I felt afraid. I had the feeling it was some sort of entity materialising and coming for me in some way. It moved up the bed a little. I felt paralysed, partly by fear but also as if the ‘thing’ was influencing me. This made me more afraid of it. Then it moved up higher, not on my body but on the bed. I was very afraid and struggling against the paralysing influence. I managed to shout at it – I will destroy you. I will destroy you. As I shouted I pushed at it with my hand. This felt to me as if I were going to will its destruction and use my hand to smash it. I still felt a little uncertain of the outcome but I was very determined to fight it. At this point I woke up or was awakened by my wife. She asked me what I had been dreaming. Apparently I had been pushing her and shouting that I would destroy her. David

David explored his dream in depth and describes his insights as follows –

I started by considering the recent nightmare of the ‘thing’ at the foot of my bed. Gradually I began to feel tense throughout my body, with difficulty in breathing. The ‘thing’ seemed at first to be a woman’s vagina. There was a little feeling in this but not much. Then it slowly grew in intensity and I realised the ‘thing’ was death. Recently it is obvious from the mirror that my body is going through another period of rapid ageing. The dream was a dramatic representation of my feelings about this. Death was gradually creeping up on me, gradually overwhelming me and I was fighting it. As the session deepened I saw that in my feelings I felt that death had put its finger on me.

The touch of death was like a disease though. Once touched the disease was incurable and gradually took over one’s body. I could hardly breathe as I experienced this, and I understood the sort of emotions that might lie beneath asthma attacks. This struggle with death went on for some time. It was not terrible but was felt strongly. I also recognised that my wife Deb, has similar feelings about her ageing, and is communicating to me that her body is dying and unclean, especially her genitals, and this is off-putting. I see that when I shout I ‘I will destroy you!’ in a way it is my fear of being destroyed that is behind the emotion.

I began to wonder what to do about the situation. The feeling was that death was claiming me. So I wanted to face the truth about death, whatever it was. I wanted to walk right up to it and look it in the face and know whether death meant a final end. If it did I would rather know. As I approached death like this by imaging walking toward the THING, my feelings went through an amazing transformation. All the tension left me. I felt good, positive and with a sense of hope about life and death. This was so surprising and sudden I wondered what had produced it. I needed to be aware of how this change had occurred. So I retraced my steps to look at death and try to understand why it had lost its power of fear.

At first I saw that my tension and sense of death being or giving a disease was due to a view I had of it. When we look at the world only through our senses, death is obviously a terminal sickness that claims everyone. Someone said on TV the other day – Life is a sexually transmitted disease that produces a 100% mortality. Seen in this way death is the rotting corpse, the skeleton. The path to it is disease or breakdown. But in looking it in the face I saw another view of it. I saw the dead body, the corpse, the skeleton, as a form left behind by the process of life. When I looked at myself to see what ‘David’ is – I cannot separate myself from the process of life. That process leaves behind shells, bodies, tree trunks, but it goes on creating other forms, and I was one of them. See – https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/secrets-power-dreaming/ 

 

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An hallucination can be experienced through any of the senses singly, or all of them together. So one might have an hallucinatory smell or sound. To understand hallucinations, which are quite common without any use of drugs such as alcohol, LSD, or cannabis, one must remember that everyone has the natural ability to produce such images. One of the definitions of a dream according to Freud is its hallucinatory quality. While asleep we can create full sensory, vocal, motor and emotional experience in our dream. While dreaming we usually accept what we experience as real. An hallucination is an experience of a ‘dream’ occurring while we have our eyes open. The voices heard, people seen, smells smelt, although appearing to be outside of us, are no more exterior than the things and images of our dreams. With this information one can understand that much classed as psychic phenomena and religious experience is an encounter with the dream process. That does not, of course, deny its importance.

Example: ‘I dream insects are dropping either on me from the ceiling of our bedroom, or crawling over my pillow. My long-suffering husband is always woken when I sit bolt upright in bed my eyes wide open and my arm pointing at the ceiling. I try to brush them off. I can still see them – spiders or wood lice. I am now well aware it is a dream. But no matter how hard I stare the insects are there in perfect detail. I am not frightened, but wish it would go away.’ Sue D.

Sue’s dream only became an hallucination when she opened her eyes and continued to see the insects in perfect clarity.

There are probably many reasons why Sue should experience an hallucination and her husband not. One might be that powerful drives and emotions might be pushing for attention in her life. Some of the primary drives are the reproductive drive; urge toward independence; pressure to meet unconscious emotions and past trauma and fears – any of which, in order to achieve their ends, can produce hallucinations. An hallucination is therefore not an ‘illusion’ but a means of giving information from deeper levels of self. I call the Waking Lucid Dreams because visions are actually the dream process breaking through into waking awareness. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/the-waking-lucid-dream/

Many people have hallucinations and find them a great addition to their senses and their understanding if themselves and the world. But a great number of people who experience them are terrified and experience a mental breakdown. I want to make clear that when they express so devastatingly, it is because the person has  lived with tremendous tensions and conflicts and has never learned to deal with them, so enormous inner pressure builds up and they burst through one’s defences like a dam bursting and a flood occurs. See Relax (With all the links, the way to see them is to copy and paste them in a search box on this site - not in the Forum.)

Given such names as mediumship or mystical insight, in some cultures or individuals, the ability to hallucinate is often rewarded socially.

Example: I waded into the lake and suddenly realised that something strange was happening. Visions occurred stronger and stronger the further one went into the lake. I also realised that all the others had been in the lake and immersed in the visions. As I pressed on I knew that most people became so involved in the visions they lost grip of their purpose to walk on. I had the visions, but found I could maintain the decision to go forward – i.e. most people lost sight of physical surroundings and became absorbed in the visions. I somehow had an ability of seeing the visions and the physical world, of working in the physical world, at the same time and had an understanding of what the images symbolised. The end was a vision on my right of a huge and splendid mountain range, with snow. It shone with light. I knew it represented eternity. Yet I pressed on to get the water. I felt I would from now on always have a vision of the mountains with me, along with the wonderful feelings it produced.

Drugs such as LSD, cannabis, psilocybin, mescaline, peyote and opium, can produce hallucinations. That is because they allow the dream process to break through into consciousness with less intervention. If this occurs without warning it can be very disturbing. The very real dangers are that unconscious content, which in ordinary dreaming breaks through a threshold in a regulated way, emerges with less regulation, and without the safety factor of calling it a dream. Fears, paranoid feelings, past traumas, can emerge into the consciousness of an individual who has no skill in handling such forces. See Shaman

Because the propensity of the unconscious is to create images, an area of emotion might emerge as an image such as the devil or a dream scene. Such images and the power they contain, not being integrated in a proper therapeutic setting, may haunt the individual, perhaps for years. Even at a much milder level, elements of the unconscious will emerge and disrupt the persons ability to appraise reality and make judgements. Unacknowledged fears may lead the drug user to rationalise their reasons for avoiding social activity or the world of work. See Waking Lucid Dream

 Example: “When Leary exclaimed that the experience of the mushrooms had changed his world, he was not exaggerating. Nearly everyone who has taken the psychedelics will grant the same. The psychedelic experience will certainly be qualified and regulated; it may prove too dangerous for general use; other and better ways to the mind may be found. But nothing on earth can contradict or minimize the opportunity it offers to explore the very citadel of meaning, the human mind.” Quoted from LSD Psychotherapy.

Example: Her constant wetting herself, which had been with her every day for several years, stopped after the second LSD session, a very violent one, in which she became disoriented and called continually for her mother. But then she went on to a great deal of  character change. She had been a thoroughly dull and boring person, a narrowly moralistic, unimaginative child. She stank of urine most of the time. She was a “straight A” student in school. During treatment she changed so that everyone, relatives and friends, as well as her mother and herself, noticed it. It wasn’t so much “spectacular” as it was profound and convincing. She was by no means free of problems, but became so free and creative and so much more outgoing and generous, that it was clear her behavior was springing from something spontaneous within herself.

If you are going to use such drugs you should either be raised in a culture holding information about their use, or at least educate yourself in how the dreamworld works, and learn to explore your dreams before taking the big plunge.

See: Healing Cancer Using Magic Mushrooms – LSD Psychotherapy –  Shaman –  What we Need to Remember About Us – Life’s Little Secrets – out of body experience – Integration – meeting oneself

Carmine from USA says – Do we really need researchers to tell us about the effects of these substances? Surely many tribes/civilisations throughout the world have told us of these things for centuries. How clever these scientists have been to report other peoples findings and claim that they have “discovered” these properties. People have used these substances since well before any documented evidence and in the past they have been derided as being dangerous and unpredictable  by ‘reaserchers’. Now, we have suddenly discovered that they could be useful. One word – Leary. Another word – imprisonment. Are we gonna arrest these researchers and treat them in the way Leary was? Nothing new, just another example of standing on the shoulders of giants. In the year 2013 isn’t it a bit embarrassing that we’re still paying no attention to wisdom that has been handed down to us for many, many years?

See: Answer to Critics; Talking with the dead; esp and dreams; out of body experience.

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Many of us get stuck in life situations from which we may never emerge. The situation might be one of never establishing a full and satisfying sexual relationship; constantly feeling hurt by the actions of others; existing in a state of depression or anxiety; forever having to seek activity or company to deal with ones own inner emptiness; experiencing enormous jealousy or anxiety in a relationship – the list could be endless. Orthodox medicine, recognising how difficult it is to help people move from such mental emotional prisons has turned to chemical attempts to shift the person’s inner state. Overall this sometimes seems to aid, but is not a universal answer to the human condition. There is however a self help path we can take that can radically change such situations. The first step is to recognise how we personally hold such inner conditions in place. Maybe we might even ask the question as to why we maintain such an awful relationship with life. The answer to that question might very well reveal the most powerful process that freezes us in our difficulty.

Example: I had an insight that I had got into a negative feedback loop. Because I had got stuck in this feeling of failure and ageing without any creativeness, I feared I was stuck there in reality, which produced the certainty I was stuck, which produced the inability to move out. We feed back to ourselves images of failure and feelings of unattractiveness, and all the other negative feelings we all meet during the week. Instead of looking at them and seeing them as passing feelings, we take them as impressions of reality and drown in them. We accept them as true and start to live them. When that happens we see conformation for the negatives and so it goes on.

I tried to find the way out of this loop. The only way out I could find was the realisation that the loop has no end, like the figure eight. There is only one thing to do, stop it playing. Grab it and stop the crazy record or habit carrying on.

To help with this, to help grab the thing and kill it's influence over us, we obviously have to realise it is untrue. If we still believe the loop that is playing is a truth, then we only strengthen the action. So for its cessation we need to realise that our sense of self is a constantly moving fragile thing that has no stable reality. We aren’t ANYTHING – stable, so how can we be a failure, or a success, or great, or of no account, or any thought or feeling? No thought or feeling represents our reality. No feeling, or sense of ourselves, is anything more than a sense, a feeling, it is not US. So how could this feeling represent some sort of permanent personal reality?

See Conditioned Reflexes or Responses - https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/conditioned-reflexes-or-responses/ and https://dreamhawk.com/inner-life/habits/

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Dream Interpretation / A 'wormhole'/imploding vortex portal' dream
« on: February 27, 2019, 01:04:39 PM »
Bible Liberation Movement
Hi Tony, just wondering if you could shed some light on a 'wormhole'/imploding vortex portal' dream experience I had. This is my first wormhole dream experience and it occurred this morning. I can't recall the circumstances exactly but there was a being or entity that created what I can only interpret as an 'implosion' that appeared in the floor in front of where I was standing and then grabbed me and pulled me in. I was holding my breath and decided to breathe and realized I could breathe while traveling through this vortex/portal/wormhole. Then I woke up so have no idea where I was going but it was definitely inter-dimensional. The being reminded me of the creature in the water tank in the movie Dune...but I also recall it being or having features of an elephant. I've been writing about 'chaos' the 'void', the 'unknown' and eclipses over the last few weeks and even had a couple of eclipse dreams in the last month or so. Before the wormhole dream occurred I was focusing on connecting to a friend and directed my focus to my heart. That is the only thing I can think of that I did before falling asleep and having this encounter with the 'being' or 'spirit guide' and being pulled into a wormhole or imploding vortex portal.


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Dream Interpretation / A Beautiful Garden
« on: February 26, 2019, 10:31:37 AM »
This is a dream I had a few months ago but I cant figure out what it means. It felt like such a powerful dream. I cant link anything from my life to this dream I was wonder if you guys would be kind enough to help me out here.

In my dream I am in this beautiful garden. This garden looked so perfect and untouched like I was the first person to come across it. There were tons of trees, bushes and grass all around. I was surrounded by plants. There were hundreds of  bright colored lilies all over the place in all different colors like purple, orange and red and pink. There were also roses in my dream but this one rose stood out. It was a blue rose. I wanted to pick the rose because it was so pretty and I had never seen a blue rose but I decided  not to because the garden was perfect & I wanted to leave the garden as it was.

While walking around the garden two animals(a snake and a frog) showed themselves to me kind of like they wanted their presence to be known. The thing is they weren't green they were a vanilla white color and they had these crystals all over them that made them sparkle when the sun hit them.

Ideas anyone??!??!  Everythingsmagic

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Questions about dreams / Can I be Hurt or Die in My Dreams
« on: February 13, 2019, 10:27:24 AM »
You cannot be killed in a dream. All you can experience is the anguish and perhaps fear of dying, but in dreams you cannot die – or drown, or burn or any other threatening thing. We make the mistake of taking our very real values from our outer life into our inner life of dreams.

Because whenever we dream its images are not like real life, because a dream is nothing like outer life where things could hurt you, but is an image like on a cinema screen, so that even if a gun is pointed at you and fired it can do no damage – except if you run in fear; so, all the things that scare you are simply your own fears projected onto the screen of your sleeping mind. In the early days of moving pictures, a film was shown of a train coming fast toward them; the viewers all fled in terror, fearing the train would crush them. That is exactly the same response if you are terrified of any thing you dream of. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/masters-of-nightmares/

Here some examples to show the difference when you take fear into your dreams, and when you do not.

Example: I am usually in a house or something, with these spirits that are trying to attack me. Sometimes I see a ghost in my dream, it looks just like what you would think a ghost would look like, with a perfect face. Sometimes they attack me physically, cut me, or throw my entire body around. I have even been in rituals in the dreams with a feeling of something more, like demonic. It is terrifying, it is so real, I have a hard time coming around after, it shocks me for hours at times, depending on the dream.

Example: I was getting ready to leave and this dark haired guy told me I couldn’t leave, I felt scared and was going to leave anyways, he pulled out a pistol and shot me in the stomach, I fell down, but there was no blood. The thoughts in my head was, “OH NO”. Next thing I remember is that I was still on the floor in the same place and I got up and I remembered being shot but I didn’t seem to have any pain or blood and was moving normally etc. I started looking for a way to leave I was sneaking around trying not to get noticed so that I could get out of there w/o the shooter guy seeing me.

The interesting thing in the second example is that even though she could see no hurt came from being shot, yet she was still scared of the guy with the shooter. And it is overcoming such fears that can release you from terror and hurts that haunt us. But here are some dreams where the dreamer feels no fear.

Example: The mobile home was so large the edge of it was over the ridge I was walking. There was no space to duck down to avoid it. I looked to my left and there was a sheer drop for about 200 feet. This was like the face of a massive dam in shape. I jumped down and as I was falling and falling I wondered how I was going to land. Would I smash to bits on the obviously hard ground below? I didn’t have any great fear about this. So it wasn’t a nightmare or anxiety dream. I never seemed to resolve this question because suddenly I was on the ground without any sign of hurt or even a bump.

I was in a large motor vehicle with perhaps three or four other men. The vehicle was like a very large lorry or removals van. We were driving along an unpaved road in slightly mountainous or rugged countryside. As we were driving along we became aware of a huge vehicle trying to overtake us. This had caterpillar tracks on each side of it like some tanks. It was immensely wide and going very fast. We pulled over as far to one side – the left – of the road as we could to allow it to pass. But as we did so we got too near the edge of the road and went over a precipitous drop. Quite a long period of the dream was taken up with the experience of falling. We seemed almost to go into freefall, a weightless state, because the fall was so long. It was long enough for me to think many thoughts about death, whether death would be instantaneous. I was not aware of any sense of fear or terror, simply an awareness of falling and what it might mean. Then we had crashed and I was still alive. I then had a memory of standing at the bottom of the huge drop waiting for someone.

As can be seen, when there is no fear there is no hurt or terror. Also even when there is terror in the dream there is no hurt. Like the computer game, you can get up again and continue the game – of life – until you learn to overcome your fears and go up to the next level of the game.

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Questions about dreams / What does the animal in my dream mean?
« on: February 10, 2019, 12:34:00 PM »
The fact is that as humans we are mammals, and so have built into us many of the feelings, fears, longings and reactions that other mammals have. We also have all the whole levels of evolutions of animals built into us in the levels of our brain. So in our dreams we frequently express our fears, longings and reactions in the images of animals. See Levels of the Brain

As a baby you were a small vulnerable animal, with all the natural instincts to feed, to survive, and to bond with your mother. When you were in your mother’s womb you started off as a bundle of cells; these gradually became a fish like creature with gills, and then onto a mammal form. It shows that we have all the animals built in us. So the animals we dream of are parts of our wholeness, and unless we are reared by humans who teach us to speak we remain an animal. See Animal Children But as people educated in the modern paradigm, many of us are totally out of touch with the animal that we are, and have never been able to raise it to love and protect us, and instead are often frightned of it when it appears on their dreams. As a child we are often told not to do things – such as do not get angry, or told to be nice to everyone, but the intuitive animal side of us feels and act on its superior insight – that would allow them to mature with our animal self intact so we grow up repressing it, and often miss the natural curiosity of our inner mammal. But also the animals in our dreams may seem to turn against us and attack us. But in the images of our dreams that is understandable, for when we are frightened or stressed our own body turns against us producing toxins that can cause grave illness. So please see Norman Cousins; Dreams are Like a Computer Game; Archetype of the Paradigm,

What many people find is that they are frightened of their dream animal, or have never learned to help it evolve into the human world. This means that many people have a great lack in themselves and in their dreams they have to meet and work with the animal in them. The animal you dreamt is a wonderful and massive symbol, and apart from any personal associations we have with it can be a link with the animal we all are. I often say to people you ride on the back of an ancient beast. The ancient beast is our body, and our conscious self is the modern and recent rider of it. Some ‘riders’ do not understand their animal needs – and the fact that we have several levels of brain that are independent of each other proves this. Yet our conscious self is only a tiny part of us and we have a massive background of life behind it. There are some very deep connections we have with dream animals. the following examples show something of this:

Suddenly I in my dream I had inwardly become a dog that barked. In fact the bark woke me up and I was aware how the dream dog was myself, and it was me who barked. My soul had experienced the condition of a barking dog. Just as suddenly as the bark sounded from me, I knew that the homosexual desires shown in the session were not psychologically caused, but arose from this dog nature in me.

I can now see that some of my sexuality arises not from love, but from the drives of this dog part of me. Similarly, much of my aggressiveness has come from this source. But this is still too new for me to see any deeper into these parts of my nature, and what subtle influences they have on my inner and outer life.

Here is another dream that allow dealing with another issue is equally showing how we and the animal are one in our dreams.

Example: I am sitting in the hotel staff room eating lunch at a large dining table. One by one I am joined by perhaps a dozen women. The atmosphere is pleasant, easy and light hearted. I enjoy the feeling of being the only male among a dozen attractive women. Then I notice a strange thing. One by one all the girls around me turn into cats, but carry on laughing and talking as if nothing is happening. I find this interesting and not alarming. I am aware each girl turns into the sort of cat that is right for her – a vivacious redhead becomes a purring orange tabby; an aloof, slightly superior lady becomes a Siamese; the only ex-girlfriend of mine present becomes a black witches familiar. I remember turning to my left and asking: ‘Tell me Rebecca, how did you do this?’ The Rebecca cat giggles with a human voice and says: ‘He doesn’t have a clue, does he?’ As I look at the Rebecca cat I realise she still has her human eyes. This I realise is true of all the cats, they have human eyes in feline faces. As I realise this one says: ‘I think he’s beginning to understand now’ and laughs. Paul C. Teletext.

Depending upon how the animal in your dream is presented, and what it is doing, dream animals represent your fundamental drives such as the fear reaction, anger, need for food, urge to breathe, sex or procreative drive, parental urges, drive for recognition or dominance in groups; survival drive; love of offspring; spontaneity; home building. They depict these drives perhaps stripped of their social forms of expression.

Example:I see tiger/lion in my dreams for at least once in a month, Whatever the stage is, I find one thing is common in my dreams that first I spot them somewhere and I’m not frightened of them at all; but after that suddenly they follow me, chase me (by running fast) and then at the moment they going to attack me I wake up.. And this is done by a single tiger or a lioness… I am dreaming this from the past 6, or more than 6 months, and it’s getting serious. Please help. Take care.

Fear changes the whole dream, because nothing can hurt you in your dreams; you cannot even die in a dream. Of course you can experience feelings of dying, but then you are fine. The tiger/lion is a part of you and your fear turns it into a threatening thing. The tiger/lion keeps coming because it wants you to learn not to be afraid of yourself – for all things in dream are simply images you create – everything in dreams is all you. So when you are no longer afraid the tiger will become a friend and will give you great strength. But many people have a very different relationship with their dream animals.

Example: My dream was not frightful. My Bear dream and I were walking, he put his nose in my hand and nuzzled, we walked home, I went up to my door and Bear went next door and rolled around in the neighbors driveway and rested.

Example: Then in my next dream I had my new pet tiger, the same one I had taken from the zoo, and I was caring for it in my backyard and me and the tiger were both really happy. Then in the last dream I remember, I had to try and hide my tiger so that nobody would know I had it, but unfortunately the neighbours spotted it and reported me as the thief of the tiger from the zoo, and a strange man came and took the tiger. I tried to explain that someone gave me the tiger, but he wouldn’t listen, and I lost my tiger, and was completely devastated and humiliated because I was in the media for stealing the tiger.

As such the animal can portray your relationship with the fundamental life processes in you. Dreams depict these processes as intelligent and responsive, not just as chemical actions and reactions as modern medicine so often does. Therefore your conscious attitudes influence these fundamental living processes in you – processes that maintain health, digest, beat your heart, rebuild damage and fight infection. Negative feelings or attitudes can cause these ‘animals’ is you to despair or lose motivation, and thus lead to depression or illness. Remember that in looking at the animal in your dreams you are yourself an animal. You as a person are a tiny spark of consciousness, a little bit of self awareness riding an incredibly ancient animal you all your body. Remember that your body has formed from cells and genetic information that has gradually developed over millions of years. It holds that information in it unconsciously. The animal in your dreams depicts this ancient wisdom and how you relate to it. It shows you how you are dealing with the urges in you that are natural, but might need to be helped into modern life or transformed in some way, not killed out, maimed or tortured. Please read https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/secrets-power-dreaming/ and https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/features-found-on-site/- https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/avoiding-being-my-own-victim/

There is more - http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/questions-you-asked/#FaceFears


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Dreams themselves are an altered state of consciousness. The term – ASC – refers to a significant change in what is considered a normal waking awareness. Therefore a dream is an excellent example of an ASC. For instance in dreams or in a state where the sense of self is diminished, people can sometimes do or experience things they cannot in ‘normal’ waking consciousness. Problems can be solved in an intuitive way; perception is heightened; some people look ahead to future events, or experience a view of things far distant from their physical body; there is also the possibility of generally impossible healing processes released in the body; memories of early childhood or even life in the womb are more readily accessible in a dream or ASC state than in normal life. Of course, it has to be said that although such things are possible, the run of the mill altered state in dreams of fantasies, has little or nothing of these splendid possibilities. Therefore part of the study of ASC’s is to discover how we can, as humans, learn to use our own potential more adequately. See:esp in dreams; the definitions of dreaming under Freud; out of body experience; dream yoga.

The strange or unusual phenomena met in ASC’s are no longer seen as something simply believed by the gullible. Researchers have been able to witness or record many of them, but there is still no commonly held theory to explain the more radical phenomena such as extraordinary healing or separation of ones self awareness from the body’s location. For instance the yogi Swami Rama demonstrated an altered state in the laboratory conditions of the Menninger Foundation. While wired to record alterations in brain and body he held his right hand in front of him palm up, and while observed by several scientists, caused the left side of his hand to turn bright red, and the right side to become ashen grey. The measuring instruments showed that he had managed to create a temperature difference of 10 degrees Fahrenheit between the two sides of his hand. In explaining what he does, yogi Rama says that ‘All of the body is in the mind, but not all of the mind is in the body.’

A dream itself IS an ASC. In most dreams however, we do not often demonstrate such radically altered talents. Nevertheless, there are differences we can all note. Foremost is the fact that with eyes closed we have managed to create an apparently real world surrounding us which is purely personal and not witnessed by other people in the same room. In this world of our conjuring we feel ourselves completely involved, capable of experiencing all the emotions and responses we would feel if in fact the events we meet in the dream occurred in the waking world. If we make love in our dream we not only feel real passion, our body may also produce all the signs of actual love making, such as ejaculation, that would occur if one had a physical partner. Technically this ability to see a dream as an external reality is called hallucination. Occasionally this occurs while we are awake or using a drug.

Although dream hallucination is taken for granted, it has enormous potential. In our nightly dreams we often touch only a tiny part of this potential. This is understandable if one considers that in the sexual dreams mentioned our body fully takes part in what is being dreamt. This could mean that if we dreamt of our body being hot on one side and freezing on the other, there is the likelihood that we would, like Swami Rama, produce a marked difference of temperature on the opposite sides of our body. In fact people who have learned biofeedback techniques can do this in some measure.

Making one part of our body hot and another cold may not be of great practical benefit, although it probably has a marked healing effect if the extra blood is directed to sick parts of the body. Supposing however, we could dream in a way enabling us to see what was happening in our body, to recognise signs of illness and heal them. This would be a wonderful addition to our natural healing process. This is not a fantasy, it happens with a few people, and understanding the process can help us conscious work with it. Similarly, people have learned to work with the dream process to ‘dream’ traumatic episodes of their birth, babyhood or childhood. In doing so they uncover the powerful reactions that were experienced or decisions made which have subsequently influenced their lives negatively. They also manage to meet the person or baby they were at that period of their life, and help it integrate more fully with the present situation. See: Lucid Dreaming; lucidity – awake in sleep; dream yoga.

 Realistic Time Travel
Although we are often not in the habit of believing that we can usefully interact with a dream image – which in our culture is frequently seen as ‘only imagination’ – we can nevertheless produce powerful personal changes in this way, and there are plenty of examples in psychology and in everyday life of the power and reality of such interaction. In computer use for instance, it is now commonplace to have an image on the screen that connects us either with information stored on the hard disk, or will evoke a programmed response linked with the image. So by moving our cursor to an image and clicking on it we can start a program such as a word processor; or we can cause to be displayed information such as a book, music or a photograph, that is stored on the hard disk. In a similar way, by learning to use an ASC, such as the dream state or a condition in which you are engrossed in a directed fantasy – such as meditation or prayer – and by using a dream image in such fantasy, you can evoke responses from parts of you usually inaccessible. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/altered-states-of-consciousness/

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Dream Interpretation / I don't want to lose Him
« on: February 04, 2019, 08:46:15 AM »
Hello Tony,
I hope you are well, that you are happy and healthy and enthusiastic about things ahead.
I am in a long distance relationship now; it's been over three years. I have been able to be in the same town as the man I love over the past two years, for months at a time. I just returned home two months ago after a 6 months period in the same town. These 6 months were beautifully punctuated by weekends together and seeing each other a couple of times a week for drinks or movies or an activity.
He is a filmmaker and so am I. During one time, I felt that he had been having a story with one actress (who used to be a friend of mine but whose selfishness made me step back and away from her)... I still am unsure what the nature of the relationship was...there were fights, passionate fights, and he would tell me 'we appreciate each other'...

The actress from his last film has been imposing herself, travelling with him to festivals, which he used to do alone. Her intention was to get close and ensure that he picks her once again for his next film. Which he did, based on 'she is showing so much enthusiasm, I have never seen such dedication'....I didn't interfere with that decision, although he had said another actress had done much better in the casting than this returning actress.

In my dream last night, I wake up, and am enthusiastic to find him; he was supposed to sleep over. I look for him, and it seems he left already. For some reason my mother is there and tells me she's been up before "Friday the 1st" what a strange way to give time / refer to midnight!

And in the dream, I'm upset, wondering why my mom was here, and thinking well, he obviously won't stay if she's around.
Then, we are at a bar, a busy bar at night. His friends are there. It’s his crowd. He’s there and he still hasn't greeted me. The new actress is walking out to smoke? While the older actress is walking in. they greet, the older actress comes to him places her hands on his face to kiss him and he places his hand between their lips. I am trying to take a good look and figure out what is there between them. I am peeking from behind a pole. I am unsure... I am upset he hasn't greeted me.

Sitting across him at a long table full of people, I lean over and whisper in his ear that I am very sad he left and didn't stay at my place till morning. I have to whisper because our relationship is 'secret'. Initially, he didn't want a certain community to know about us. He did introduce me to his cousin, his friends, etc... And then I have ended up seeing them less and less. The actresses don't know about me. For sure, the older actress doesn't know about me. And I asked him if the new one did....and he didn't answer.
I dreamt of the new one. I am co-screenwriting with him the next film she will be acting in. In the dream, she needs my help and as I am walking with her to help her out (we are on a film set it seems) I wonder to myself 'does she know who I am'.... I told him about this dream but he never answered.

We won't see each other before July. It’s pretty far. I don't know what attitude to take. I don't know if I should be blunt; I did write him a couple of weeks ago and ask him 'have you met someone else?' because during our skype chat he seemed not so enthusiastic to see me... and I wrote that to him too. He said he was feeling sick, and had a stomach virus. Which he had told me....but I didn't think that would prevent anyone from smiling or being happy to see someone they love.

My grandmother who is 96, now bed-ridden and in pain, smiles when she sees me.

I really love this man... I don't want to lose him. It seems I push men away and scare them... although that didn't seem to be the case in our relationship. He was calling me long-distance, and texting me all the time and now all I get is 'I'm tired / I am going out / I am going to eat ' as a response to when I text him. He replies and takes leave. Sometimes he takes leave from the morning, will write me saying 'have a nice day'.

Just giving you the emotional context, so would appreciate you telling me what these dreams are....premonitions? Jealousy? Or something else? I know you are busy but this would be really precious. I cannot seem to open up about all of this to any one person
Tank you Tony

Take care, May

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Greetings / View of My Book Lucid Dreaming
« on: January 23, 2019, 01:40:43 PM »
LUCID DREAMING

Sleep is a strange country. In it we lose our sense of self. Or dreams take us into realms of extraordinary experience in which we are still largely unaware. But throughout history there have been individuals who have described a different meeting with sleep. They wake up in what is usually a dark, unconscious world. Or in the midst of a dream they realise the situation and relate to the dream in a new and dynamic way.

 Exercise Two – Waking up to Now

This exercise involves taking in a more total experience of where you are and what you are experiencing, and doing this several times each day.

For instance you may be barely aware of your body for most of the day. Or you may be so focussed on what you are thinking, working on or worried about, that you are unaware of subtle feelings or what is going on around you. So take a few moments to notice what is happening in your body. Are you tense or relaxed? What is your posture expressing? Move from that to noticing what you are feeling. On a scale of ten is your mood low or high? Notice what is on your mind. Then, staying generally aware of your body and mind, take in your surroundings. Listen to the sounds and feel the atmosphere. Notice how you relate to the people around you and the world in general. This can be done in any situation, even in the midst of talking or being involved. Aim is to do this at least four times each day. As you do it ask yourself if you are awake or dreaming, or are you lost in the whirl of events and impressions?

This needs to be done until it is habitual. If it is a habit, then it will transfer into your dreams and lead you to ask the same question – am I awake or is this a dream? If you are dreaming and you become lucid, the question then becomes - am I lost in the whirl of events and impressions of this dream?

The next exercise starts an even more penetrating type of awareness that will begin developing your ability to gain insight into your life and dreams. This is fundamental to real lucidity. Remember that these exercises develop enormously advantageous life skills and lead to lucidity, so do not hurry through them.

Exercise Three – The Dream Home

Using the technique in the previous exercise, sit somewhere comfortable in your home. Take time to find somewhere that you most like, and where you are most comfortable. Sit and look around, but not in any critical way. If possible see it as if it were new to you, and notice what impressions you have. See if you can sense what the atmosphere of the place is. Do not read on until you have achieved something of this.

Now look around you as if you were in a vivid dream. Remember that a dream is a full surround virtual reality. All of its features are reflections of who you are and what you feel. This is proved conclusively by lucid dreamers being able to be any of the characters or objects in their dream, and even transform them. Similarly, you have transformed your surroundings in some degree. Even if you are in a hotel room you have probably put personal possessions around you, and changed it from how it was when you entered. So what is your home saying about you? What of you is it reflecting?

The following description a man gives of returning home when he was in a condition of lucid awareness gives a graphic example of this.

When I walked through the garden gate I noticed things about the garden I had never let myself see before; the untidiness and absence of care were no longer hidden by veils. The track I had worn across the small front lawn particularly caught my attention. It was there because I used it as a shortcut instead of walking around the path. But then I arrived at the door and knew suddenly that it was all me. The door was me, and every scratch on its paint was a part of my life, reflecting who I was. Opening the door I went into myself. The door and garden had already shocked me with my lack of attention to outer details. Now, inside the house, the same things showed themselves in the state of my house, depicting my inner health. But I also saw the beauty of my children, and how, despite my self absorption, I had helped make a warm home for them.

At this point do not fret if your response is not as pronounced as that quoted. It is enough to look around and let your feelings and thoughts respond spontaneously. This is not an exercise in concentrated thinking or analysis. It is an opening to spontaneous or intuitive responses. It is a way of penetrating your usual way of seeing things or responding to your surroundings. The shift is brought about by looking at the outside world as a reflection of yourself. Your home surroundings are particularly useful as they most reflect your qualities. But they must be looked at as if in a dream, with the question: What do my surroundings depict of myself? The question, if used frequently, becomes a catalyst promoting new perceptions.

So use the exercise frequently, and as you gain results from looking at your home, turn your attention also to your relationships, to work, or to any other aspect of your life such as your clothes.

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Dream Interpretation / Felt Guilt About Another Man In Bed With Me
« on: January 21, 2019, 10:26:49 AM »
Hi there, I am so sorry to bother you but I found your website this morning, after trying to find how I could comment to get a response, and couldn’t. I resorted to finding you on Facebook. If this is not appropriate please tell me how I can comment on your website.

Now to the reason why! Last night I had a strange dream and I have been trying to work it out but I can’t. I dreamt that I woke up in a bed with my ex husband, my youngest daughter (20), but was shown as her younger self, and another man, who I was cuddling. The man left giving me his phone number which he wrote on my wrist. I thought I had got away with this man being in my bed without them seeing. But my daughter woke up and looked at me in disgust, my husband said I can not believe you did that...he then went on to try it on with me, which I declined.

Then when speaking to friend I was upset that this man had not called to which she responded you were supposed to call him. And I did he seemed very kind but I do not recognise him. Just for some background info, me and my husband of 33 years split last year, no-one else involved, just that we had grown apart and didn’t want the same things. I live 1000 miles away from him and my family now. My youngest daughter and myself are very close but do not see each other very often. I do have dreams I often remember but usually can work them out. I hope you can help. But again if this is not the appropriate avenue I apologise. It’s just left feeling a bit odd this morning.

Love and light. Amanda

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Dream Interpretation / Master Dreamer who is Both Female and Male +
« on: January 19, 2019, 01:57:49 PM »
 This morning at about 3am I was woken by an amazing dream, probably one of the most amazing dreams of my life. It started while I was asleep but led into lucidity. I was in a spare piece of ground which was on the corner of a walk I lived in after the war. It had been a house but when I knew it had been demolished and the ground was flat and slightly overgrown. There were stairs leading down to what must have been a basement. But I, with indeterminate gender, was sitting in the middle of this place with several others in the area. It was somewhat private as my memory is that it had a twelve foot wooden fence around it.

I was sitting with a great book in my lap, and I knew or was informed in some way that the book was special as only a few were available, and I had the book through an amazing sequence of coincidences. In fact the book had been promised to a man for his birthday, but had given up his right to it when he found out I had requested it or sought it.

At first I didn’t know much about the book, but was constantly informed by an immediate intuition what I should do with the book. I had it open to a page and I was told that I could go in any direction, so I took one of the sentences in the book and said it – I want that. And now as a woman I admitted to myself that I wanted to have sex with a very attractive young man who was looking at me. I had only just thought this when the young man, seeing my interest in the book, came over and we started talking. Subsequently we did have sex.

And that was my introduction to the power of the book. At this point I began to wake and a very distinct voice spoke to me telling me that I could follow the directions or suggestions in the book, or choose to strike out in any new direction by making a decision to do so. Or if I was uncertain then I could stick my index fingernail into the edge of the closed pages and open the book at random page. He told me that this might be difficult because the book had not been used and it needed effort to pull the book open to each new page; not that I had any awareness of it.

At this point the man who was instructing me became very real to me although an invisible presence. I started to think and visualise what I would like to do. I saw myself walking up to a stranger and asking them if I could talk with them for a while, explaining that it was because of an unusual dream I had experienced. But then I realised the power of the book and thought I would like others to be able to use it.

After I had made that decision the man now told me – I was now a man – that he would give me the book. It seemed necessary and he asked me to hold my hands ready and he put it in my hands, explaining that this was The Book of Life – my life or whoever used the book. He intimated that it was not an external book but in giving it me it had become conscious and I had been in possession of the book, that in my own mind it could be also called The Book of Decisions. And at some point I was told that if I approached a person or an opportunity and they were not interested or they said no, then I should not pester them or keep trying but walk away – unless there is a very different approach that worked.

Then all sort of wonderful things happened, although I cannot recall the sequence of them. For instance he said that I had made a choice of my partner, R. And the quality of our love that had survived things that many other relationships would have been shipwrecked by anger, jealousy and bitterness, but was a source of great creativeness.

Then slowly his voice no longer seemed to be an external voice but was a part of my being, a sort of higher awareness. I was directed to ask myself where I had got the book in the first place, and saw myself back in that spare ground standing on the steps down to a basement, running away from my friend Eddie. He had a small chrome plated revolver with at least one live round in it and was pointing it directly at my face. I cannot remember being terribly afraid, but I did feel awful with him pointing a gun at me. And it was then I made a decision – that I wasn’t aware of at the time – that I would never taunt anyone like that. And that decision was a shaping influence in my life. (The business with the revolver actually happened, though I had forgotten until asked the question).

From that a whole sequence of decisions was seen. I saw how I made a decision to stay with my first wife Brenda when another woman came offering to be my partner – and then again when I was asked by S if I wanted to go with her. I decided I couldn’t leave my children. It was a hard learned lesson. And yet when I walked out on my family with Brenda years later I did it easily – but faced years of terrible guilt. So, the lesson that was learnt was to meet the consequences of the choices, and in meeting the awful pain instead of running away, it always leads to some level of an enlightening experience. Running away presses one deeper into pain that is hidden and can lead to illness.

As I was experiencing an overview of my life I could see that who I was had been shaped by the choices I made.

I had a distinct feeling that if I showed the book to others it would bring in a new chapter of my life, with a lot more contact and opportunity. It felt a real dawning after a long night of my life. In fact it felt like culmination of my life.

I saw that after that we could live anywhere we chose in a beautiful location with plenty of room. And then came the question I had on my mind for ages – can I ever escape from being trapped in the discipline of working every day to deal with all mail I had to answer. I was shown the misery I had caused many people in the past, sometimes over lifetimes, and I was assured that the work I am doing is a recompense, a burning out of that darkness, and when it is finished it will again be a new day dawning.

Oh yes – another question on my mind was who am I – what is behind me or my actions. How this came about was that the voice was clear in me – my own inner voice but with much authority and conviction. I had struggled with this question for days, and the voice said to me, “Are you ready to see this?” I answered yes and was told to now wait and watch. And there it was – the darkness, the void that is everything and yet is nothing. I had been created once more out of this everything and experienced a new birth. And it was explained that I had known it since I was a teenager, and had never fully accepted it – or at least never really understood its place in life. I had always felt it was a far distant thing, not an ever present daily experience. Yet now I could look back on my life, and I realised that we became what we are by our choices. Our choices materialise a potential that is within the darkness. That is a great secret. A secret I had realised many years ago and are still trying to live.

See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclo…/edgar-cayce-philosophy/

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Dream Interpretation / A Trip Into Being Worthless
« on: January 18, 2019, 10:31:18 AM »
I was in a coach with several people, Sara, Tony someone who was cutting out model airplanes from green metal, others in the background. We were on a long journey to Woolacombe in North Devon. When I spoke as the coach I was able to transport myself and others to places they wanted to go, I had lots of space inside me, and comfortable places to be for people.

I then spoke as the green metal that was being cut and moulded into shapes of airplanes and a helicopter , as the helicopter I could rise above the ground of the coach and get an over view of what was going on.
The metal making represented both my parents, who had passed onto as my amazing strength, which they had learnt from their life experiences. My mother had grown up from the age of 11 years in an orphanage seemed to be able to do anything without asking for help; she worked full time  as a cook would  make clothes, bake wedding cakes for neighbours , gardening, run the house, without washing machine or fridge. I was told that she was a well read woman though I never saw this; she must have done this between shifts at work.

My father was like a rock, not so noticeable in his skills but I sense that he could handle life. Tony was also a part of me that had strength to look within myself for knowledge. The helicopter could also go within not just above, because then it connects with the inner world. And Sara was another part of me who had to find the strength to cope with what life brought along, in a way not allowing her emotions to drive her.

Woolacombe was a place of security, and of becoming a parent.

Sara’s mum who was at Woolacombe was a difficult part for me to own, In fact I said, “I Can’t face this.” But as I allowed myself to become her I felt no sense of worth, as if I wanted to curl up and retreat, but staying with this dreadful feeling, Tony asked if I could find something good within myself and what name I could give her as that part of myself. I gave her the name Beryl and I suddenly had a shift and burst of emotions, feeling the wonder of myself having a mothers love. From that I experienced a beautiful feeling of a flower opening, such a shift of feeling, with the petals reaching out, unfolding in a natural way, then a sense of being a seed in my belly and a larger flower coming out from my heart area.

What this dream has left me with is a sense of love that I can allow to flow through me, that if I look at that love, it flows from me with a real feeling of value within myself. I look forward to seeing where this new sense of self takes me. 

What I also became aware of from this dream was of how much strength I have within myself from becoming the different the people in the coach. This dream has given me a really big inner shift. Beryl has been a part of me for a very long time, which led to feel that I had no worth – I was worthless.

Brenda

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Dream Interpretation / Meetings a Man in My Dreams
« on: January 15, 2019, 07:22:13 AM »
I ran across your site while looking for an explanation as to what has been happening to me.  What I'm experiencing, in fact, isn't on any of the websites I've found.  Perhaps you can help me - I could be calling my experiences a dream meeting when in truth, they may be something else. 

Years ago, I dated a guy and we used to have dream meetings frequently (as you describe them.)  Things didn't work out but since the last time I saw him, I've had (and I assume he has too) numerous dreams in which him and I talk.  In these dreams, we are both in a white, cloud-like room, standing face to face, and talking.  This is what my dream meetings are - they do not have any symbolism, vague meanings, etc. 
Anyway, the last one I had (of any significance anyway) my ex-boyfriend  told me (in the dream) that he was divorced.  The next day, I jumped on the net, looked at the local court's website and found what he told me to be true. 

Am we having dream meetings or are we having something else?  There's no doubt in my mind he's having the same experience.  Is there a way to stop them?  Is there a way to encourage them?  Not sure which way I want to go on this. 

Thanks for your time, 

Nicole 

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Dream Interpretation / I Don't Know Where I Am Going
« on: January 09, 2019, 10:03:57 AM »
I had a dream that I was wearing a curious dress; it was made up of patches of fabric with different sizes of the same pattern which was checked, someone was looking at the dress with amusement. I first looked from their eyes; I had never seen anything like it, made from different pieces, but not the normal shape of a dress, so I was trying to make sense of it but could not.

I then became the dress itself and talked as if I was just the dress. As the dress I felt I was made up from pieces of different pieces of fabric; I liked the dress it amused me and I felt unusual.

Tony invited me to speak from each piece of the fabric; the first piece was big squares and I realised that it was a part of me that lives by rules. Striped suits came to mind which was something that I saw in the behaviour of someone I was on a training course with who was very conventional and lived by the rules. I was irritated by his attitude, but what the dream showed me was I also have that attitude in my beliefs of how relationships are, very black and white and right and wrong ways if being in a relationship. Rules that I had within me.  From the background I came from.

I next spoke from another piece of the dress fabric, this piece was a small check printed pattern, as this piece of fabric I felt very different I felt excited, like life was an adventure full of possibilities, my body felt more upright.
 
Then there were the threads that held the pieces together, which brought a memory of knitting a coat made of squares. I had made this coat in real life and it was something that I felt could help me hold myself together, as I was living through what seemed like an ungrounded life,  so the thread felt important.

I seem to be looking at life in a different way since this dream, I have been meeting  young women who are reaching out to life, one who is aiming to be a fire woman , another a professional make up artist who can also, work with people with disfigurements. This faced me with how I have had a limited idea of being of what being it is to be a woman, a wife and parent. Strange because I had this dream despite me learning skills to grow into something more than what I thought I was.

So, it's like life is growing me past my limits. I don't know where this is taking me, but as we have shared before - wWe don't know where we are going ha, ha.

Brenda

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