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Dream Interpretation / Re: Lightning strikes
« Last post by Tony Crisp on Today at 11:51:59 AM »
Elena – I guess you looked at the entry ‘Lightning’; so I will try to open it up for you.

The house is actually yours, but is about attitudes or views of life you fail to recognise as yours probably because you don’t want to face what they indicate. The people and your friend are also aspects of yourself - See - and read 1 and 2 of

You are terrified of the intense emotions you are repressing, and these shows as lightening strikes: “Sometimes information leading to a realisation builds up over time, but in a flash is put together forming a new, perhaps life changing, insight. The build up toward a change in life style or direction might similarly occur, and so may be depicted by lightning. It is the build up of tension, whether of insight or emotion, and its sudden breakthrough into consciousness that lightning represents. It represents sudden and disturbing change or release of emotions or sexuality.”

The friend left her husband and took her kids back to her home. So you are feeling, usually unconsciously, that you are tempted to leave your husband. Her silver accessories may relate to gifts given by a husband, and of course attracts the lightening/the breakthrough to realising the new you.

The repulsion you feel for your husband is a sign of difficulties caused probably by feelings that have built up that only break through on occasion. They could be from childhood traumas or things that have built up between you. If you want to keep your marriage get help to talk and heal it. If not, then the lightening has already begun the huge change in your life.

“An Old Mans Thoughts
Love and attraction for a partner are full of strange feelings. These feeling are made weird largely by the ideas and feelings we have inherited from our culture – love for ever lasting; the Right one; Soul Mates – and other strange ideas.
From the view of Spirit that I have tried to look at life from, we are all whole and have no need of sexual partners or marriage.

“..for people will neither marry nor be given in marriage; they will be like the angels in heaven.” Matthew 22:30

But life in the body is a different matter, and because the physical world is all split into dualism/opposites, and because we are mammalian animals who have only recently attained a measure of self awareness, we have  millions of years of instinct in us to seek a partner.

That means we find self awareness very stressful for we are bombarded with our instincts to have sex, and at the same time have personal awareness built out of cultural beliefs which in many women are twisted into huge romantic dreams. WOW!!! It is the way it keeps us looking.

In human life our unbalanced life, caused by believing and feeling that we have to have a partner, makes us constantly search for a man/woman. That is fine and natural, but it is turned into a bloody mess by our amazing romantic fantasies, or by neurotic tendencies caused by the misplaced sexual urge. For as far as I understand from three or four partners, and several love affairs, and from looking at people’s dreams of love, the thing we are really seeking is our own wholeness. See or
Of course traumas we  received as a baby or child screws us up in relationships sometimes for a lifetime. See

So we can make do with a decent partner because it takes the edge off the search for wholeness. If we get too deep into believing we have found it in marriage, it tears us apart when it ends. But if you adjust your feelings to see a partner as a good friend and sexual partner without getting yourself screw up by jealousy or feelings about cheating, or all the other things people even commit suicide over, you are onto a good thing.”

Dream Interpretation / Lightning strikes
« Last post by Elena on February 22, 2018, 01:16:12 PM »
hello Everyone. Hello Tony

I would like to ask for some help to interpret a dream that i had recently.

I am in some house that is not mine and I've never been to before. There are other people as well. But its more knowing that they are there, rather then seeing them and who they are. Suddenly the lightning starts striking. And it comes inside the house. Through the roof and the walls. We are trying to hide, but its not just striking anywhere, its specifically going after people. I'm terrified. I suddenly see my friend there with her son (in waking life this friend just left her husband and took her kids back to her home country) I scream to her that she needs to hide. That moment the lightning strikes my 2.5 year old daughter. And she is gone. I scream and cry and try to find her but she has disappeared, the next moment I see the lightning goes for my mom and she also disappears (she is my mom and my husband at the same time in this dream) The lightning keeps striking looking for us, my friend and I try to hide, and I suddenly realise that it only strikes people that have metal on them,  silver jewellery particularly. I try to tell my friend to take off her accessories, but she can not hear me... and then I wake up.

I don't know if its related but before going to sleep my husband and I had sex and I felt repulsed by him. I wanted to stop. But i didn't say anything. This happened a couple times in the past but I was pregnant back then.
Dream Interpretation / Re: A Combat Mission-Imported from Comments
« Last post by Tony Crisp on February 21, 2018, 11:52:14 AM »
Alex - It feels like a battlefield inside us as we are ‘fighting’ to get well. Here is part of the battle –

Then we were walking to Friends House from the other direction. Marie Barakan, who was also Liz and other women, were holding my hand. I felt we had a lot of love for each other. I was trying to explain the reason for waiting - about the cricketer having to wait for exactly the right moment swing his bat, otherwise his stroke fails. She had other ideas which I forget. We all went into the foyer of Friends House (Quakers) to get married. She handed in tickets. We got to the door to the meeting room. Two powerful men acted as receptionists. They took the tickets but said that there was only a ticket for one person. Marie went to the left into the meeting. I asked the man to allow me to exit out of the revolving door to Euston Road. I did this and found a battle going on, bullets flying, and people dead in the street. I lay beside a dead body pretending to be dead in case I got shot. A soldier, possibly American, a big man who had no fear of the bullets, came up to me as I lay face down. He told me I had an alien clinging to my back. I thought of this something like a limpet clinging to my back where my back pain is, with roots into my body. This was a creature from space. He put a knife under its shell and removed it from my body. But something of it remained and he spread a thick layer of peanut butter up the spine. This acted as a sort of poison to the alien.

As you can see, I was scared of the battle, but the Big Man was another thing I needed to build into myself.

Yes, for it took several times even marching up to the front line before I managed to go ‘over the top’.

As for destination, it is an eternal journey. We find healing on the way, but it is about growth as a person. That is the amazing part – “the Divine in nature”.

Here is some more links that might be interesting - - - -

Dream Interpretation / Re: A Combat Mission-Imported from Comments
« Last post by Tony Crisp on February 21, 2018, 11:49:29 AM »
Tony – I read your response and am excited to begin familiarizing myself with some of your links you’ve referenced. Thank you for sharing your story with me! It sounds like the Battlefield theme was present in your dreams as well. Very interesting.

It feels to me that my unwillingness/fearful apprehension to go back into Battle is a direct reflection with where I’m currently at with my willingness to face my traumas. Would you agree?

One of the biggest obstacles I had to overcome was finding out that healing was a process and not a destination. I had convinced myself around the age of 23 that my symptoms would be resolved during the next therapy session, only to find that they did not. After hearing from others about the value dreams hold in healing, I began my own dream journal. I too have had some incredible experiences that I can only describe as being Divine in nature. Encouraging me that the future held healing.

Dream Interpretation / Re: A Combat Mission-Imported from Comments
« Last post by Tony Crisp on February 21, 2018, 11:48:23 AM »
Alex – I too struggled and even fought to find a way out of the misery I lived in. I can only share some of what I found that may helpful.

In 1900, Charles Richet a French physiologist gave information by saying, “The living being is stable. It must be so in order not to be destroyed, dissolved or disintegrated by the colossal forces, often adverse, which surround it. Everything in our universe strives to reach a state of Homeostasis or equilibrium. This principle applies to single individual entities to massive complex systems either metabolically, physically, socially or psychologically, even spiritually. By an apparent contradiction it maintains its stability only if it is excitable and capable of modifying itself according to external stimuli and adjusting its responses to the stimulation. In a sense it is stable because it is modifiable – the slight instability is the necessary condition for the true stability of the organism.”
It took me a long time of searching to find, in my own way of life, the wisdom in those two statements. It took me even longer to learn how to apply that in my life. When I did an extraordinary process revealed itself.
I have written elsewhere about suffering depression and terrible exhaustion in my twenties and how I found my way out of it. And it was through dreams and life’s little secrets stated above that it was done.
In searching for relief from misery I tried many different things, relaxation, yoga, meditation, fasting, and diet among them. They promised to be helpful but something was missing that I only began to uncover when I started teaching relaxation/surrender. Some of those classes I taught were huge back in the sixties and seventies. To help people I would wander around the class and lift an arm or leg of some of those lying quietly relaxed. I moved the limb to let the person have an enhanced awareness of their relaxed condition. What amazed me was that often the arm or leg was so rigid with tension it was hard to move. If I let go the limb would remain suspended. On asking the person how they felt they would say, ‘Fine. Really relaxed.’ They didn’t know they were carrying enormous tensions.

Are you relaxing or suppressing?
It took me a while to realise what that indicated. You could relax surface muscles and feelings, but a mass of tensions were unconscious. Later I learned that such tensions had often arisen from difficult or traumatic past experiences, still locked in the body and emotions. By using relaxation techniques such as dropping the tension of the voluntary muscles or meditating on positive things those inner tensions were being pushed back into the unconscious – undealt with. When left at that point, relaxation and meditation were a method of suppression and control, not of healing.

With shock I realised this was true of many things that were supposed to be helpful, such as meditation and positive thinking. What they often did was to calm surface feelings by controlling thoughts and body. They did not deal with the real difficulties that had been pushed into the unconscious. Their purpose was to quieten the conscious mind and the voluntary movements of the body, not release unconscious tension.

I went on an almost fanatical search for what could be done to change that – to release the unconscious problems. The clue was, as Richet says, that ‘the slight instability is the necessary condition for the true stability of the organism.’ I gradually realised that to really adjust to the many knocks and changes we meet in life, our body and mind need to be capable of a type of ‘instability’. It needs to be able to move, to express freely, and to respond automatically or spontaneously. Yet all our cultural training and habits are about control and suppression. Governments also sometimes give huge threats to the people if they do not conform. All in all, we have in many ways been trained to be sick – as I was myself. And, amazingly, my doctor, to deal with depression and physical but undiagnosable pains, was telling me to take a drug, a tranquiliser, to maintain the status quo.

I gradually found a way through dreams. I had been dreaming for some weeks that I was marching with troops to the battlefront. Then one day I dreamt of being in the trenches and going over the top as the bullets were flying – something I had been scared of previously.

Then having sat for months dropping my aims and beliefs, one night after going to the toilet, I was just getting back into my bed and I heard a disembodied voice say to me, “You have asked how God touches the human soul. Now watch closely.” A couple of days later, having realised all that, I got together with three friends – Mike Tanner, Sheila Johns and Chris Stevens at the Kingston Club/Ashram in Combe Martin, Devon – to experiment with how to allow this process of self-regulation to express. How did you give your being freedom to express spontaneously so it could rid itself of what it held unconsciously?

To sum up we found these things helpful – and

Dream Interpretation / A Combat Mission-Imported from Comments
« Last post by Tony Crisp on February 21, 2018, 11:45:58 AM »

The other evening I had a dream. I went on a combat mission and we were seeking out the enemy. The Platoon leader was feeling confident with the initial successes, but there was the potential that the enemy was only establishing the conditions in order to lead us into an ambush later on. In the dream I was scared, and was hiding underneath a couch at one point firing back. I made a funny comment about the “tet offensive.” The mission ended and I finally found the time to take a shower. As I was taking a shower the steam that was let off from the water rose through the ceiling of the shelter I was in, but I was fearful that it would give away our position to enemy mortar and artillery fire. The dream transitioned into me hovering above the ground with my military uniform name tapes being blank, only to appear with my name on them when I was on the ground. I was with a Platoon of Soldiers in a garrison (non-combat) formation and we were making plans to go back out for the final combat mission. As mission preparations/rehearsals were taking place I began feeling immense fear to go back out. I was fearful for my own safety in battle. I pulled my First Sergeant aside to speak with him, almost wanting to tell him that I didn’t want to go back out. Out of fear of the upcoming mission. I asked the question if it was worth it (or something along those lines). A Soldier near me said that “it was worth dying for.”

Just a little background.. I have been on a nearly four year healing journey in order to heal from a dissociative disorder, which I attribute to childhood trauma. It’s limited my ability to fully engage in life in that I don’t feel much emotion/connection. I sense that the trauma I experienced occurred very early on in life in addition to multiple adolescent and adult traumas. I’ve been working diligently to get to the root causes of my problems.
Dream Interpretation / Re: Surviving Drowning - Imported from Comments
« Last post by Tony Crisp on February 20, 2018, 11:08:10 AM »
Bine – Facing scary funfair rides in dreams shows that you are not backing off from scary situations. That your Grandmother also did the ride suggests you come from a long line of tough or courageous women. WOW.

However you have to face the test/tour alone. In dreams you are being tested to see if you can pass on to deeper experiences. It is like when as a child you were dependent on your mother, and as you grew in confidence you became a little more independent; so in a way not a test.

Of course you really faced your fears and became frightened of everything. But dreams are about homeostasis/self regulation and growth. For each of us are immersed in a ‘river’ of constant change. If you think about it you have been carried, pushed, impelled by this current as you were moved through babyhood, childhood, teenage and adulthood. And as we passed through these changes we died to our old self in order to change to the new. It is the current of Life. This current then carries us on through old age and through the gates of death. All the time we are faced by decisions, and each decision directs us on a different path, helping to create our future.

The life process behind dreams constantly wants you to grow, so your dream was pushing you to face the next stage of growth. But of course, those who cannot face the challenges life and dreams confront them with cannot take the next step.

For you the next step was going on the boat, then the canoe, a definite move toward fuller independence. You managed that, but past memories made you feel insecure. Most of us have heard of Post Traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), it is a condition where memories that are now old are still influencing one to cause emotional upset. They are deeply buried memories that are stored in our body. Such memories are frequently revealed by dreams. But they are often prevented to be able to express their passionate content, because most of us are scared of deep emotions or passions. But somehow you went on into the deep water despite your fears. Amazing!

By ‘giving up’ your struggle to survive drowning – something in dreams that is no danger at all – you passed onto a huge realisation, you entered another dimension of your consciousness. To deepen what you learned – a trick dreams do in case we missed learning it – you cycled through it again and again. Control and letting go of control also relate very fully to what we know about ourselves. This is because with too tight a control on what we allow ourselves to feel or experience we build a barrier against the re-experiencing and healing of old painful events, and also for the arising of new aspects of our potential to emerge.

To save a lot of writing I would like you to read and consider - - -


Dream Interpretation / Surviving Drowning - Imported from Comments
« Last post by Tony Crisp on February 20, 2018, 11:07:19 AM »

Last night I had a very long dream. Actually only about half of the dream was about drowning, but I hope that I can still get an answer.

I dreamt it was the future and that I once had a husband that I really, really loved, everything was perfect. Well in the dream, that was a couple of years ago, because he died. I don’t know why, and I remember absolutely nothing about him, only that we were happy. This is where the dream actually starts, and what I just mentioned is memories of me in the dream. I am with my family and the family of my dead husband on a tour to an amusement park I have been to in real life (really fun place actually) There is this kind of helicopter, the creepiest thing in the whole park. Half of the time you are upside down and spiralling around in weird patterns while being very far from the ground. I don’t know but maybe about 100 meters. It also goes so fast that you can’t move at all.

Well, I finally got my guts together and tried it this winter. In the dream my grandma who normally hates that kind of stuff offers to go with me and I gladly accept because I’ve tried it lots of times before and am not scared. I should maybe mention that the reason that we are on the trip is to forget about my dead husband and try to finally have fun again. Well, when we get to the helicopters and sit in the seats I realize I forgot something and get off. When I get back the helicopters already started and when my grandma comes down she is to my surprise completely unaffected by the tour, but calmly refuses to go again with me. I decide to get on alone. When I sit in the seat I realize that I have my bag on me, and that I should hand it to my family. I get back on the seat, and before I get the belt on it starts. I panic and my hands won’t do as I want them to. I realize it is too late and that I should grab something, so I cling to an iron bar a hope for survival. I was really scared; it felt so real, the gravity shifting places and the knot in my stomach. I wear this weird dress kind of looking like a wedding dress with real roses in pink and violet sewn on various places on the skirt. When I turn upside down I get the skirt in my head everything whitens and when I come to my senses I lay on the ground, everyone is worried and looking at me.

Some days pass, and I am constantly scared of everything. Then we go on this fishing trip on a long boat in a lake. The boat is way too big for the lake now that I think about it… well the weather is amazing, no wind, sunny and a blue sky. I’m wearing the same dress again. I suddenly panic, thinking I am at the helicopter again. I try to calm myself down, but when I look down I don’t sit in the boat but in a little canoe. In my panic I don’t really understand what happens, but I think big waves tilts the boat and I fall into the water. It is not icy and not warm, just a little cold. My sense of direction totally leaves me and I try to swim up, but I hit the bottom. I try to get up but it’s useless. It feels like my lungs burns and then I give up. I sink to the bottom and lay there for a second. But then I get this crazy idea, I start to listen. I hear birds, and start to swim against the sound. In that tiny period of time I felt calm, strangely. The same thing happens, everything whitens and when I come to my senses I am lying near the lake on the ground and everyone is looking worried. I don’t really remember the next part clearly, just that I get home and the days seem to “circle” with the same things happening, and me getting constantly scared of everything. I also remember looking in my old diary from when I was a kid. It’s filled with colours and when I look at it, I feel like I was someone else’s diary, not mine. Even though it was me who wrote it. Well the days just continue to circle and then I wake up.

Sorry if my English is incorrect, it is not my native language. I have dreamt of drowning many times before, but not like this. I really can’t figure what the dream means, and I would appreciate an interpretation.
Dream Interpretation / Re: Marrying Myself
« Last post by Tony Crisp on February 20, 2018, 09:18:52 AM »
Miemoo – Marrying yourself is the end game – but usually it is the masculine side of yourself you marry in order to become a whole person.

“When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner as the outer, and the upper as the lower, and when you make male and female into a single one, so that the male shall not be male, and the female shall not be female: . . . then you will enter [the kingdom].” Quoted from ‘The Gnostic Apostle Thomas’

Sometimes marriage refers to what our energy or drive is uniting us with – such as a new business venture or creative scheme. So what feeling or state of mind where you hoping to unite with?

Marriage is about penetrative sex with the opposite gender in order to produce offspring. If such a union does not take place between a man and woman there is no marriage and so no need for divorce. But although the point of marriage is procreation, in dreams the creation of a child still takes place as many woman and men have dream children – which are the birth of a new part of oneself. It is a bringing to consciousness of a new part of you that has been developing but remained previously unexpressed. Such births need to be honoured even though there is no physical sign of a child. So the new dreamt baby is a vulnerable part of you that needs care to grow and become a real part of your waking life.

So I wonder whether in future dreams you will create a new part of yourself. But in the dream you hadn’t actually got married; so time will tell where you go now. But your feelings all show a readiness for marriage. See

Dream Interpretation / Marrying Myself
« Last post by miemoo on February 19, 2018, 10:43:30 PM »
I know that this dream is really important but I can't quite unlock the meaning. Tony, your interpretations always help so much with my personal growth.

*It was the day of my wedding. The venue was stunning, it was the afternoon and the sun was shining. I was dressed and ready and waiting for my groom, I felt really at one within myself. The guests started to arrive and there was a real party vibe, I wasn't hidden away as is traditional I was with my guests mingling and talking. As the time passed, I had a sense that the groom was running late. I didn't worry too much at first but then I had a knowing that he wasn't going to show up. I called him, and I could tell from the tone of just the way he said 'hello' that he wasn't coming. At first, I felt so much sadness and I wanted to cry. Then I started worrying about what I was going to do. The emotion passed through me really quickly and I felt this resolve to turn it around. I knew that I was going to be ok. I knew what I was going to do. I didn't want to waste this beautiful occasion and all the effort that everyone had put in so I decided to marry myself!
I was waiting for the right moment to tell the guests. Meanwhile, the party was ramping up, the sun was going down and people were dancing. The vibe was so beautiful, people didn't seem worried that there was no groom but I thought: 'they must be wondering what is happening'. I was rehearsing my vows to myself in my head - trying to work out what I might say. That's where the dream ended.

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