The mans dream was from 1982 taken from a dream journal he kept. The comments below are his own.
On working on the above dream, the cut off legs are the ghosts or habit patterns of the many times I have cut off my sexuality because of the misery it caused. But the acceptance of the sex impulse - the brothel - and acceptance of my own twisted self or injury, a healing or ease comes about. This is the young woman with the scar. She is my feelings self - therapy murder because, when I could find no cure, I decided to “cut it off” - like a surgeon would to a gangrenous leg.
I worked on the therapy murder more fully and came to a really powerful experience of it befitting the strength of the dream. In it I was looking at the sickness of sexuality in our society - the brothel - and saw how as a nation we don’t want to admit it as sickness. We accept the strip shows, pawn shops, prostitution, rampant homosexual activity, as parts of our permissive or accepting society. It’s suave to accept. But we accept because we don’t want to take a look at ourselves as individuals, individuals who make up this group. We would rather blame it on to somebody else - it’s then - the youth - the crux - the coloureds. Well it is, isn’t it? We still have the ghost of the middle class, or upper class ideal of the English culture and family life of loving devotion and romance. We've got it, but at what a terrible price - prostitution, pornography, strip clubs.
And the murder is me trying to heal myself, trying to conform to a society that is flagrantly sick. I thought I was sick. I’ve got a healthy alive sexuality, but because it doesn’t conform to the English middle class norm, I’ve being trying to cure it.
And this leads into our political attitudes - I felt power in their unadmitted sickness, that produces more and more young men and women who are non-functioning human animals, incapable of a sexual relationship and so moving toward homosexuality. Incapable of having a family, of working, of producing a situation in which there is a work ethic in education - but no work for the people it trains.