GreenTara - Obviously the Big One kills the smaller guy, because this sirt if death - for example when we entered our teenage years, in a sense the teenager killed the child. But the dream awareness sees death very differently than the human- body-mind. Death transform because og growth. Nothing in the universe dies, it is transformed into another expression.
Each of us are immersed in a ‘river’ of constant change. If you think about it you have been carried, pushed, impelled by this current as you were moved through babyhood, childhood, teenage and adulthood. And as we passed through these changes we died to our old self in order to change to the new. It is the current of Life. This current then carries us on through old age and through the gates of death. All the time we are faced by decisions, and each decision directs us on a different path, helping to create our future. And this is a force of growth and change; and is fought like hell by many as we are afraid of such changes, especially getting old and facing death.
Also you say you wouldn't do that - "It doesn't sound like something I would do.Not even to another human being let alone to something that is so huge and enormous." But a modern view of the personality says that our mind is made up of many modules which are quite distinct. These modules, such as the sexual drive and the ability to speak, usually function in a way which is reasonably integrated. But many areas of dissimilarity are evident if we closely observe the workings of our own responses to life experiences. Because we each hold certain ideas about ourselves – our self image – things we do which do not express this self image may shock or even frighten us. Actions arising from a module of oneself which does not express our accepted self image, may give rise not only to fear, but also a sense of evil, or being possessed by evil.
Quotes - "God was singing it, on the radio. Then the surface shook again, and I knew it was only a great skin covering the one life. No one, nowhere, no time, sang who did not sing as God. No one danced, or fucked, or shit, or did up their shoelace, except that one life did it."
"At the surrender of my sexual feelings it had come out of me quite spontaneously, “God - fuck me!” I was a bit shocked, but let it go, but couldn’t really understand why I had felt - thought - this. Now, in the session, the masturbation had only satisfied a part of the passion. My legs went wide open and I began to cry out - in my mind - “God, fuck me. Please, fuck me. I must have a fuck.”
The next is from a man who really let go - "This developed into animal growls of rage. Images and feelings began to come into this. I was a primeval beast, an ape. My growls were rage against anything that threatened my existence. The rage was explosive animal fear, fear of being destroyed, fear that gave the energy to rend or kill anything that threatened. I saw how, out of this roaring fear, still in us humans, so much violence, hate, war, carnage arises in the world."
Have really read
http://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/lifes-little-secrets/ The lovely open girl is just one side of her duality. If she were whole she would have seen or sensed the danger. "I was walking home, a country road I had walked hundreds of times. But this day I suddenly felt great fear with the warning to get as far from the road as possible. I get almost into the hedge looking for the danger the warning gave. A car had stopped in the middle of the road to turn into gateway, paused because traffic was coming the other way. Then suddenly the sound of tyres skidding on the wet road, and the car shot onto the pavement between me and the parked car and was gone."
Tony