Hi Tony, thanks.
I was raised christian. the normal educational be-a-good-person kind, not the ''you worship the lord when your in MY home'' gestapo-like tyranny so Im not having any kind of trouble with religion nor am I trying to rebel against the cult of the cross. also due to my life experience I consider myself more of an animist than a cristian when it somes to describing religious vieuws.
My religeous vieuw is really more of a melting pot focused on all the good parts of all religions so lets just say 'me and the guy upstairs and downstairs are cool'
as for the crusifiction only my head was upside down like this. not the entire crux. (owl unrelated) http://www.clipartreview.com/_images_300/An_owl_turning_its_head_upside_down_100828-123042-851009.jpg
Breathing in fire and shouting, “I am the devils” is a part of the break from traditions. Another way of being upside down or reversed; Devil is Lived spelled backwards, so it is like saying I will do something that turns my life inside out.
The nails in the eyes are perhaps a way or showing how the view of everyday life is painful for you, or even as a form of torment.
i think thats a good interpretation
life isnt always pretty and thats very clear to my eyes depending mostly on the weather, my mood-swings and judgemental bird-vieuw of human life on this planet.
seeing that you were mostly right on my post of a half a year ago ill keep an eye out for anything that should 'turn my life inside-out'
as for the bulldog, my life has always been surrounded with death (but who hasent, this is life afterall). ive been exposed to it at a very young age, myself once almost drowned, got hit by a car, fell from a school building and have been very lucky surviving life so far in general. Every two years or so one person I know seems to drop out of life and I dont really have any problems dealing with it, I consider it just a natural part of the cycle.
suicides are still a little fucked up depending on the situation but its still the persons own chioce respectively. I just count my blessings and am happy to be still standing up healthy as the person I am today.
so yah.. thank you again mr. Crisp