Visions In The River of Dreams Part Two

Tony Crisp

You are a custodian

To remain a living process on our earth, we have to become a part of the living process of the cosmos. We are so self-centred we do not look around and see that our very existence has arisen out of the processes of nature and the cosmos. These great Star Beings are our parents – our mother and father, and that is the real meaning of honouring ones mother and father. If we do not honour that connection, then we become dead things and what we create has the nature of death in it. Nature never wastes anything. If something is not expressing the flow of life -- if it becomes disconnected from that flow -- then it develops the power of self-destruction. Its energies can pass back into the flow of things. And that is what our way of life has within it -- the power of self-destruction.

Look around, look back at yourself! Can you see that your business, your personal life, is living in harmony with the planet, with the life forms on our earth?

I asked the Star Beings what is required of us. The response was that we must be custodians. That is all that is asked of us, that we be custodians of the life around us. That is all that was ever required of us. This is also clearly stated in Genesis where it says, “and let them have dominion over the birds of the sky” etc. However, in the original Hebrew text the word “over” is not used. The word used is “in”.

This is a very important difference, and what I was being told by my awareness of these beings, was that our custodianship was as an awareness within the processes of nature, of life. To be, as it were, workers in the vineyard of life, helping nature and the earth to manifest its potential, and in doing so realising our own potential -- coworkers in the process of creation.

The miraculous gift

As humans we have the miraculous gift of self-awareness. This is an awareness that can look back upon our own nature and discover its roots in eternity and in the processes of life. But hardly any of us use this gift as it can be used. We are all so busy grasping for ourselves, living our own lives and maintaining our separateness. This gift of self-awareness enables us to wake up in the different levels of nature, to become aware of the mineral kingdom, the vegetable kingdom, the animal kingdom and the human kingdom. All of these are within our own being through the process of our own evolution. Instead of looking around and recognising our place in the scheme of things, we make of ourselves little castles, little guarded citadels cut off from life. We create small defended territories from which we grab everything we can. What do we give back?

This is what present day astrology has not told us. It is out of these beings, their vitality, their essence, that we have our life and our existence. They are the gods. In genesis, where it says, “Let us,” the word used is Elohim. In “The Chaldean Account of Creation” by George Smith, among the translations of the Babylonian tablets containing the story of creation, one tablet begins: “When the ‘gods in their assembly’ had created.” This is very much the meaning of Genesis. These great beings, given the title of gods in older civilisations, are intelligent processes linked to and expressive of the unified process of life.

These beings are our real mother and father. This is why we sometimes feel so lost. Finding our “heavenly” parents is a real homecoming. Acknowledging them is a return to love and kinship. How often do we look at our physical parents and feel, “Are they really my parents? Have I really emerged from them? They don’t even really understand who I am.”

The sham of astrology

Modern astrology is a sham. It doesn’t help us to connect with this underlying harmony and find our place in the cosmic scheme of things. It has become a type of fortune telling, a parade, and entertainment. So often it is advertised in connection with your “love stars” -- a sort of erotic titillation. It’s true nature is far beyond that. It is a story in symbols of our emergence from these great beings, and a statement of the part they play in the changes and processes of life on earth and social events.

I felt that perhaps in our own age we prefer to see these ancient beings as processes in the cosmos and in nature. But I sensed that the air we breathe, the water we drink, is an emanation of their being -- and we poison it. People don’t even drink that wonderful essence, that wonderful flowing blood of life from the ancient beings. We don’t drink water in general. We drink tea, coffee, alcohol, fizzy drinks, whatever is artificial and poured out of a factory, rather than the pure liquid flows from the earth. People want to take into themselves something polluted something artificial.

Even wine was originally just the juice of the grape. It was the fluid, the blood that runs out of the grape when you crush it. The juice of the grape is its life that it gives you freely. It is the blood of its being it lets flow and gives to you. It does this to perpetuate its seed. But this act of survival is done in a way of self-giving. That is why the grape and its juice has become a symbol of the eternal life, the blood of Christ, the love that flows out to us from the creative forces of our universe. It flows to us from these ancient Star Beings. They constantly give of their body to us. The grape is therefore a symbol of our relationship with Life.

I realise that I have been a watcher of the river of dreams. I have stood on the bridge over the river of dreams and seen visions in the flow. I have seen the essence of human life in the river. Seen its pain and its wonder, its struggle and its triumph, its destiny. I have swum in that river and dived into the ocean of life. There in the ocean I met the great beings.

Pantheon of the gods

The influence of these great beings passes through various configurations. It is out of this shifting change that human destiny arises. Events take shape in the earth and in the cosmos itself. The ancient beings are the very processes of life and death. They are the seeds of life and form. They are creation and destruction.

When our present culture looks back on the gods, such as those in the Roman or Greek pantheon, we tend to give them ridiculous imagery. We portray them as human beings, with all their jealousies and foibles, who yet have great powers and are long-lived. This is quite ridiculous. These ancient beings are nothing of the sort. The state of their existence is almost beyond our imagining. They have existed since the beginning of time and taken part in the very creation of our universe. They are the weavers of worlds. But in wholeness there is not only creation -- there is also destruction, the breakdown of the old and the rebirth of the new.

The ancient beings are the regulators of all that we see around us. They are the forces that keep balance.

Out of these beings we have our existence. The uniqueness of who we are arises from a particular interweaving of their influences, and from the choices we make in life. Because we are born from such parents, we too have godlike powers innate in us. But our choices are such that we often diminish ourselves. We deny whole areas of our being. We crush the animal in us. We stamp out the vegetative forces, and even deny that we have a spiritual nature. It is only as we accept our wholeness that the door to our wider life opens. This is also hinted at in genesis where God brings before Adam all the creatures to be named. This is because Adam -- humanity -- has in it all that manifests in the natural world.

You are a child of Star Beings

Because we are the children of life, because we are inextricably interwoven with processes of life, unless we consciously become a part of that we become distressed as a person, out of phase, and begin to die psychologically and emotionally. With the distress of individuals comes the distress of society and the world. That is when the force of self-destruction takes over to destroy what is not an expression of life. Despite this, the very core of our being is still the stuff of eternity. But the damage is so extreme in our culture and in our education that hardly any of us realise as an experience that we are of the eternal. We may read it, we may think it, but we do not know it as an experience.

As already said, these Elohim are our real mother and father. It is because of this that one of the commandments says: “Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long in the land which Yahweh your God gives you.”

Put in a simple way it is only out of nature as a whole that we have life. Not only does nature feed us at its breast through the plants and the animals, the sunshine and the rain, but also our culture feeds us and nourishes the development of us as a person. Out of that our sense of ourselves as an independent persons arises. Unless we acknowledge our roots in this way we have cut off our identity from what gives us life. That is sickness. That is self-destruction. It is a doorway that is open to us if we so choose. The conservation of energy leads that which is out of harmony to self-destruct. Return the energy to its source to be used again.

Jump the gap!

If that is all your life means to you -- if that is all your suffering means to you -- that you wish to self-destruct, that you are not ready to feel the pleasure and suffering of your life and hand it over to the spirit within you to be transformed, then you have closed the door to your eternal life. The key to all this is to experience life fully, with daring, with courage. This is the meaning of the parable of the talents. If we have that ability, that courage, to feel deeply, to suffer, to laugh, to live and love, then we leap the gap between our own individual existence and that magnificent experience of cooperating in creation. Such is the ideal of unconditioned love. That despite any pains of love we still continue to give our love away. In fact it is not ours to grasp or possess. It is only when we realise and live this that our life becomes a part of nature itself. When we know that and live it we jump the gap. Life itself, in its own magnificence, in its own agony of giving itself to us constantly, continues to love.

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