Well dear Tony - Your unconscious mind did take "I am on the nightshift again" quite literally
More than once I have experienced that when I write things down, they develop in that direction too.
It always makes me wonder if my unconscious mind is just a few steps ahead of - what I call - "me" and
so if that is meant with "Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path".
I do believe that there is no human being - myself included - who does not use "the Void" first for the reason you believe you have used it too in your life; to escape from LIFE rather than learning to live IT more fully.
I suppose that if you refine your nightshift experience, that you will also come to the understanding that it is merely a matter of "courage to live LIFE
MORE fully"; at least that is how I perceive your inner journey.
And I do see that I have thousands of ways to take revenge on LIFE, for I have often felt that IT treated me unfairly and rather than getting to the bottom of my issues with LIFE, I project it on a LIFE FORM so that I can battle with IT, for there is a part in me which loves that battle. Perhaps I am slowly changing my mind about that?
I will follow your footsteps in daring to meet fear of Death and Pain and becoming Alive more fully
Thank you for sharing.
Anna :-)