hi tony,
i think i have been suffering from a kind of shamanic sickness,where something has been trying to attract my attention by breaking down my defences,while ill on holiday i slept ,i had this dream if it can be truly called a dream,the content of which i am certain will resonate with you.
the dream.
i am in a large dug out hole in the ground,way above my head,i need to climb out but cant.
i realise that all the grains of soil/dirt that have been removed to form the hole, represents experiences in my life both good and bad,all the wonder, all the pain, the love, the hate.
i become aware, that out of the hole exists a huge nothing- ness,a vast seemingly empty abyss,
i hear that voice ,it says,i have to let go,let go of it all,expand into the great emptiness,
Of course i am not enlightened enough to do this,so i feel the great fear & dread of this surrender.
from a psychological/spiritual aspect i see it is something that cannot be penertrated or contemplated by the rational mind,it is beyond our capacity to understand,so our egos fear it,mine certainly does.
this is not symbology i have experienced in a dream before,sure i have read about it in some hindu,buddhist stories ,
Despite my fear, i believe i have had something of a breakthrough.
i know some folk gingerly peer over the edge into the abyss,very few laugh and jump in.
perhaps i need to be a fool !
look forward to your thoughts.
rgds mikey.