Thanks Tony Crisp,
You are correct about how my associations with Serena Williams tied into the dream. I didn't mention that another person who I knew at the time was shapeshifting into Serena Williams. She was also a strong black woman. I remember her telling me back then that I needed to look out for myself more and not be so naïve when it comes to men.
I didn't kill Serena Williams, the SWAT team did and they were after me next.
The other day after I wrote about the dream here I stumbled upon a video where the guy was describing the lotus river as a place where all the dirty repressed emotions are transcended out of and the Lotus is the symbol of how something beautiful grows out of decay. There were no lotuses in the water but there were lilly pads and so many of them that it was hard to swim through the long stems where the lilly grows.
I have to say that this is a real eye opener. I learned that I should get stronger and more self reliant and to not be afraid of those who might not want what's best for me. By sucking up to the SWAT team, it is a way to avoid the fears that make us go along with whatever we're supposed to. And also the fact that they would murder Serena Williams who is as I just learned the number one female tennis player, and a good person on top of that, seeing how there is no reason to hurt her I can now see that there is nothing wrong with me that makes the "SWAT team" want to kill me.
I remember too the black woman that shape shifted into her, one memory that stuck out in my mind was how she was able to handle herself with confidence, which I didn't have because of whatever self-esteem issues.
Thanks again!