Horizen – Wow, you are coming thick and fast.
My impression is that although you are dreaming, and so in much freer dimension of dreams, you struggle with rules and regulations that apply to waking life. I am not saying there should be a big divide between common human experience and the inner life, because I see they complement each other, but I am still trying to define the subject. I tried to do this in
http://dreamhawk.com/interesting-people/wonders-of-your-mind-superminds-16/But it is still a working investigation, but I ended by saying, “Now, the grand finale is that you cannot get beyond your beliefs unless you can dare to question the inconceivable. You need to have a virgin mind that is free from all preconceptions – I believe that is why the image of the virgin was worshipped in many ancient cultures.
If you can stand and look at yourself and say, “What the hell do I actually KNOW?” and if you can put it all to one side and ask – What else is there waiting to be known? Then you can begin the journey of going BEYOND.”
“Then it came to me that I had to listen in deep stillness – not think, not seek to understand, not struggle, just listen. My whole being entered into silence, gently listening as one might listen to the rain falling on a lake. Then suddenly it was known – the feather blowing in the wind – the sound of one hand clapping – the essence of human existence. Open against the sky – emptiness – enormity.
Sorry, I am wandering amongst experiences.
The black kitten seems to involve feelings of vulnerability, of something small and barely conscious that is like something you care for.
You struggle with the difference between the instinctive (wild) in you and what you consider to be ‘tame’. I believe it is a struggle between control and letting go of control, and you are having a hard time of it. But the Bible, which is actually a great describer if the dream world says, “The wolf will live with the lamb, the leopard will lie down with the goat, the calf and the lion and the yearling together; and a little child will lead them.”
It shows a possibility in dreams. See
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/control-controlled-not-controlling/ The level after level of safety factors built into our system is nothing short of incredible. For adequate functioning our blood pressure needs to be at about 110 to 120 (i.e. it displaces 110 millimeters of mercury). It can drop to 70-80 before a critical situation arises in which tissue may die because blood is not reaching it. If we lose a lot of blood, even as much as 30 or 40 percent, the self-regulatory process maintains adequate blood pressure by constricting the blood vessels. This action is controlled by a part of the brain, and if that brain area is injured or destroyed, other centres take control. If they are eliminated, ganglia in the sympathetic nervous system direct the action. If they too are eliminated the walls of the arteries and veins themselves regulate their own activity.
As is so clearly expressed in that description, control centres are capable of acting at every level of our being, not just the brain or nervous system. In fact, what is slowly coming to be realised, but has been said already by people who have explored their inner life, each cell has a level of intelligence. But its intelligence and agency only become conscious to us if we are able to touch it by entering its world with focussed self-awareness or the dimension experienced in dreams.
"I felt we are all in that ancient room. We are all in this moment now. In this moment everything is happening. Nothing could be stranger than that. I mean everything in terms of what is happening in the world – murder, love, birth death, huge heroism, cowardice, and on and on. I felt very moved by the sense that I had touched something wonderful – the great love, Christ, the universe. I recalled the part of the earlier experience where I had gone into the ‘dungeon’ to recover the small ‘dangerous’ me, and had felt I was bringing light to countless other aspects of self that had got trapped in darkness. It seemed to me I was bringing the gospel to them, and the gospel is the experience of this immense love. As I felt this it seemed to me there was nothing outside of that love. Nothing was beyond redemption, nothing was beneath its attention or forgotten by it. Even if one shut oneself away as my little ‘dangerous’ person had, it will come and seek one out to bring light and love. Even if, as part of me had done, one says ‘get away. I don’t want anybody near me’ that love comes and finds you. Eventually it finds you and draws you back in."
Tony