Thank you Tony from the bottom of the depths of my heart and soul.
I'm going to start by channeling my passion for writing into reading and studying a bit of Shakespeare, something I've put aside or demonized because of a devaluation. I have devalued some of my uninhibited aspirations because I cannot see any useful(monetary) gain from it. I'm an accountant who dreams of higher levels of expression which I cannot seem to find an outlet for. I don't particularly have a passion for accounting, but I'm trying desperately to become certified so I can support myself well enough to pursue other passions. Something I have not been able to fully achieve as of yet.
I always begin learning some form of art, whether it be visual, or auditory, but because of the required time that I've invested into studying for a difficult exam, I've been repressing the aspirations of my soul. This is because I lose inspiration in the respective art since I cannot put in the time to improve on a regular basis. I had to quit guitar to a degree because of pain in my body from both studying, and playing.
I must learn that whether there is an immediate use for expressing myself in this way is irrelevant. All that matters is that I seek wholeness in the pursuit of expression, and make it an enjoyable process. I must transform my ego so that in the process I am able to disengage with art forms I do not truly sincerely value or that are not write for me for whatever reason. Most of all, I must begin a regiment of some yoga.
If you have any insight, thank you, and God bless, either way, and sincere thanks from the bottom of my heart and soul, again.