ChineseGal – I believe this is about a love affair with you and your soul mate. You soul mate is not an external person, but the other half of you – the half that never got born; in other words the male half that has been held back because you have a female body.
We are always striving for balance in our dreams, so the sequence you describe is about finding the wonderful balance between the external female that you are and the wonderful male you have inside you.
Maybe that doesn’t sound exciting, but in fact it is the most exciting thing that can happen. Without it you will never feel complete even in marriage – with it you can really love someone and find an external mate more easily.
But you are holding of having a full union with your dream lover, and I think this is because you are uncertain that you are a beautiful woman and lovable. Yet he has told you already “You know I really care about you.” So drop all the uncertainty and open your heart and your body to be loved.
Tony