Go for IT!!!
As I said, you are the best interpreter of your dreams.
Something that I have seen often before, is how, particularly women I suppose, have often failed to understand the great power they have in their instinctive sexual drives. Those drives links them with their ability to create and be creative. But what I see is that those drives need not be expressed through producing a child. This does not mean they need to be frustrated or repressed, but that they be accepted and directed into another direction. It means being fully aware of the sexual dynamics of interrelations, in business, in work, in everyday dealings with people.
Writing is one of those other ways. Something else I have seen is that we all have unlimited potential, but we get in the way of it by doubting ourselves. So now the way is clear.
Tony