I find a big worm in a roti,a round flatbread that I am eating and I chuck it on the floor.I am shocked at how long the worm is as it crawls out.Then it turns into a big shapeless brown thing/splotch/puddle.I tell my Father and show it to him as it creeps away,"See it's so big.Big as a crocodile." Then it turns into a beautiful brown owl.The owl looks like its carved out of dark wood but it's a real owl. There is no need now to feel scared or threatened,no need to kill it. My father looks at it kindly and he is going to gently pick it up from the floor and put it outside so it can fly away.
I am dressing up a girl for a shoot.She says it was fun doing the shoot(taking photos) to music even though it was for a magazine. I meet a girl working at a hip store for lunch,then realize I should have told her to get me a few things from the store to choose from to buy.Then I realize I am in the upmarket,hip store myself.I feel the items must be very expensive and I wonder if I actually want to buy something so expensive.There are enlarged,artistic photos like posters on the walls.All the photos are of the shop's exterior - the road, the bus stop all surrounded with fences made of plants.From the plants I can tell exactly which area the photos were taken.
I am outside with a man(unknown man) who is a young,smart guy but from a lower social class,from the labour class and he manages garbage collection.He is completely committed to me but I look at him to get a long,last look at him.He is young ( much younger than me) and handsome but has darker skin like a labourer and wearing his garbage man's uniform and I know I have to tell him it will never work.I cannot marry him.It will break his heart but do I have the willingness to go through with it? to face the world with having him as my partner? To marry a labour class guy who collects garbage? Even though he is completely dedicated to me.
I see a view that would make a great artistic photo composition and I show it to him and he says "yes I thought so too,I'll grab my camera".We both shoot the photo, a juxtaposition of a modern and antique vehicle.It's great that he is artistic too.
Later he says," I was going to tell you...(something)",referring to something I would relate to.He is very familiar with me, knows me well and expects me to be his girl for keeps, like I am already a part of his life and he treats me that way.It's a nice feeling but I'm not comfortable that I can commit to him and face the world with a labour class partner who is a garbage man. I appreciate that he is doing his job well,manages the other workers and garbage collectors very well and is dedicated to his work too.
A school friend tells me I should have waited before breaking up.What was the hurry?I tell her "It's made no difference"."That's precisely why you should have waited",she says.
The second part of the dream refers to a man which I feel is referring to my relationship with inner work (cleaning garbage). I don't seem to want to continue this work but is that wise ?(Even though the wise owl has appeared in the dream). Perhaps my creativity and desire for artistic expression is shadowed by my focus on the garbage management.I don't seem to want to make a life long commitment to the garbage man as unconsciously I seem to feel the inner work(garbage management) is "lower" and "labour"(as revealed in the dream). This is not a decision that was made by my conscious choice/will. So the dream maybe revealing my unconscious decision,a decision that maybe too presumptuous and hasty or is it higher will? This might be the time to question what the best route to a creative life is and what is the way ahead after cleaning out the garbage? This dream seems to be pointedly marking the end of the "cleaning garbage" stage.It was necessary and it has got me this far but now it seems time to let go old approaches and let in something new ( I am beginning to appreciate the importance of "waiting" and "listening" and "doing nothing" ) .Your insights are much appreciated.
Thank you.