Jacquiemayotte
I did not read Stanislov Grof, I can merely look at it from my own experience.
If nothing of this applies to your dream at all, then accept that I am merely looking into a mirror you hold up to me, so I can re-evaluate some of my own learning.
Meanwhile I will take your view "into me" and see where "It" takes me.
True, we are always learning, but we can learn in a direction which is helpful to us - which is where learning can be healing - and we can learn in a direction which is not helpful to us.
To me your dream expresses that learning into a direction while applying a fixed set of (school) rules is not helpful and letting go of these internalised rules will be more natural and healing.
True, there is a healer inside of us, but that does not automatically mean he can do his work.
I see a conflict between the role as a teacher who believes rules have to be obeyed (I wonder what inner rules or inner programming?) and the doctor who believes it is okay to let go of these rules and allow for a natural approach.
It is what I have often experienced; any rule - inner or outer - would not do justice to the Endless Creativity
Which can help us move beyond our inner blocks.
Perhaps we are saying the same thing while using different associations?
Anna :-)