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Dream Interpretation / Hostage, Fire, Storm

« on: October 19, 2015, 10:40:32 PM »

I pretty much get the idea of this dream sequence, as I feel that this is a somewhat commentary of how I've been feeling and my thoughts. You'll see this in my commentary. But I am wondering if you can provide any additional helpful insight. I'm starting to see a pattern in my dreams in that they appear as commentaries, not so much as "instructions" on what to do, the latter of which I wish were the case because I feel the need some inner guidance for my life. But if you have any insight on any other hidden meaning I may have missed, I would gladly appreciate it , unless you feel that I have extrapolated it thoroughly enough.

It appeared as if some people were being held hostage. I and a few men arrived to rescue them. I was in charge of restraining the guy who seemed to be the head hostage-taker. He was a little guy. I tied his hands behind him and held him in place, then tied him to something firm. He kept managing to undo the knots, which I had to tie again. To keep him from doing that I had the thought to cut off one of his fingers so he wouldn't be able to undo the rope if this continued. I don't remember actually doing this, though.
(I feel that this is a commentary on my thoughts and feelings about my feelings being held hostage by my "lower self" (the little guy). I, and a few other strong men, are sent to save these "people" from hostage. I tied up the "little guy" (ego), but he always manages to get loose. Interestingly, in the dream he gets loose, but he stays in the same place. But I don't trust him, I've seen what he's done, so I need to keep him tied, even if it means I need to cut off his finger in pain... which is an attitude I do have with myself: "do this even if it will hurt like hell".)

Then I dreamed there was a building on fire, and people in it needed saving. It was a dreadful chaotic scene. A firetruck with firemen arrived to save the people, as much as possible, but it was too much, too much chaos (reminded me of 9-11). I remember seeing a teddy bear, one of the firemen took it out and saved it... for some reason this was important.
(Commentary of feeling that the various "I"s in my soul or psyche are perishing, as if in hell. They need salvation, in a sense, hence the firemen, but they can't handle all of this chaos. The teddy bear, perhaps my most innocent childlike part of myself, and its various implications, was perhaps the priority.)

Then another dream with a building that also was on fire with people in it. But in this one no one was there to save them. A few may have escaped, but everyone perished. I saw the people as "lights", as if souls, behind the walls of the building screaming and burning. I stopped being an objective observer in the dream when I noticed a storm coming and the sky getting dark. A woman led me to an underground cellar just in time. Then the great storm came and washed everything away—the burning building, the people, everything—leaving behind just a bare field.
(The people, the various "selves", feelings, are left to perish. Perhaps this is needed as a purification—an image of inner purgatory. The final storm comes and washes everything away, leaving a bare field with lower cropped grass. But the atmosphere was still dark, because I still feel uncertain about things. The woman who took me to the underground cellar may be a wise guide. And the symbolism of going underground could mean death for rebirth).

Then I remember it being night, and I being led behind a house out of a yard by what seemed to be a woman. She was keeping me from being distracted, as at one point I wanted to say hello to some girls I saw along the way out of curiousity, but she called to me and I returned to her. Before I went out the gate I passed a cow and her calf.
(The house and yard is the situation I want to come out of: the confines of a place—situation and circumstance—I am used to and I need to go out and explore beyond its boundaries. I am led by a woman again, perhaps "wisdom" keeping me from "distractions". The cow and her calf is just symbolic of this.)

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Dream Interpretation / Moon

« on: October 16, 2015, 08:59:38 PM »

I had a dream where I looked up at the moon and remarked at how beautiful it is. It was a quite large and surprisingly clear full moon. A friend was beside me - I said that the moon looks like the earth, with its craters that appeared as the earth's continents. The friend responded in agreement, and we perhaps discussed the implications of this. Then the moon turned around, revealing more of the crater-continent shapes and features. It then descended down before me, but when it reached the ground it became a rather shabby paper-mache moon, as if it were made of newspaper. It was about 3 feet in diameter. I remarked, "Oh moon, you are only beautiful when you are far away". I hoisted it back into the sky.
Then I think it became of a reddish-orangish hue in the sky, like the moon would be when it's close to the horizon.

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Dream Interpretation / Nun and Eggs

« on: October 07, 2015, 11:47:08 PM »

I had this dream last night. There was a man who was walking along a suburban sidewalk as if searching for something, it seems. This beginning of the memory is very hazy, and I wish I could recall more details as I do recall there being a provenance to that scene. However, what I recall is a man appearing to meander along the sidewalk like he was searching. Even though I say "a man" I was observing him subjectively from within his perspective, but somehow remaining observant. He bent down at the base of a tree I think, as I remember, seeing as if the camera of the movie I was watching lowered down to the roots of a tree. Then another man called to him and told him that he(I) should go to the home of a certain woman. I don't remember if he had said who she was. Immediately the dream took me to that home.

I entered from the top floor of what seemed like a cross between a church, monastery, home. I descended the stairs noticing a group of people standing together singing a carol/hymn to celebrate the birthday of a woman dressed like a nun, who was seated on what might have been an altar. Then my awareness immediately took me next to her, so I could see she was dressed fully in black traditional habit of a nun, but I could see the side of her face, the part extending from the veil that covered her head in profile. She was very beautiful, I thought, but not in a way that made me think sexually of her. This entire time I am a silent observer, no one noticed me.

Her head was lowered the entire time, as if, with eyes lowered, she was staring into her lap. She looked penitent and cheerless, though I wouldn't really say unhappy. There is a sort of sorrowful pity about her, but I really can't say she was an unhappy person... it really seemed catholic. Anyway, she was just this image of solemnity, even with her head perpetually facing downward, but she seemed very gentle and loving too. She was also a young woman, with milky white skin. Next to her was, either seated or standing, a man that looked like a priest. He also wore full black with a roman collar. He appeared young and very handsome with a sort of firmness to his stature, but he didn't feature much in the dream, all the attention was on her.

After the people sang to her, she addressed them and directed their attention to an image on a video screen that looked more like a futuristic holographic screen. It played what looked like a modern advertisement directed toward women, and I even wondered what's the purpose of this. Then a blue ball of light came from the screen. A woman in the audience came forward, and the light guided her somewhere... outside I believe, it was daylight. Then she showed another video, this time it looked like one of herself (I presumed) in a not too distant past life. This woman, like the nun, was also young and beautiful. In the video she was moving her body, as if lost in a state of ecstasy - a sort of dancing... a sort self-expression, through movement. It wasn't overtly sexual at all - she was dressed very modestly, in a long sleeve sweater and looked rather like a suburban housewife. Next to this dancing woman was a gigantic basket/nest of giant white eggs. Though the woman looked like a modern suburban housewife, the scene she was in in the video looked like the interior of an old temple belonging to some lost civilization. But this is a minor detail... I don't want to get too detailed and run the risk of blurring the dream.

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Dream Interpretation / Eyes

« on: October 06, 2015, 01:14:38 AM »

This dream is actually about a month old, but I still don't understand it.

I was driving one night along a city street. I passed a field to my left, a mature lady that I know in real life was there exercising, we said hello, how you do's, etc., from what I remember I remained in the car. Then I splashed some water on my face to wash it off and continued driving. But the water had bacteria in it, I knew this, but I did it anyway because I thought "no harm". I saw the bacteria in the water, they looked like tiny see-through jellyfish. I am calling it bacteria because I don't know what else to call it. Later on, my eyes felt infected and I think my vision was blurry. I went home, I went to the bathroom to wash my eyes out again. I used salt water to disinfect it. I looked into the mirror and saw that my eyes were swollen and enlarged, the actual eyeballs. Only the white of my left eye showed, it was turned up into my head. The pupil of my right eye was enlarged so that the entire cornea was large and black.

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Dream Interpretation / Earth Fire and A Black Cat

« on: October 01, 2015, 09:35:14 AM »

I had this dream last week, it puzzled me, I decided to share it for any possible insight.

There was a fire in the backyard of a friend's house I was at. I don't remember how I got there, this was where my dream awareness began. His father and several people were standing around the backyard. The fire came from the ground: it was a sunken patch of bare earth that looked dark and rich (as opposed to dry and barren), and the flames would come from it, in a way similar to flames rising from a stovetop. This was the only place where there was fire. I remember feeling the heat from it. It did not spread, it remained concentrated on one area of the yard, but I was still apprehensive about the possibility of it spreading (to the house). We all stood around it, watching this fire, until it was evening. Then I noticed a pipeline coming from a tank nearby that was positioned somewhere near above the fire (not exactly above it, but close by). I was told it was a gas line. I think that because I began to anticipate danger, I created the gas line above it. I walked around the fire, feeling the heat from it, examining it, while everyone continued gawking at it. I remember passing a corner of the yard, and noticing a black cat sitting in that corner to my left. My impression was that the cat is feminine. It was facing me, but I couldn't see its eyes, they looked half closed maybe. It looked very mysterious, sitting up by itself on the ground, and its position and countenance reminded me of an owl. Even though it sat quietly in the corner and didn't move, the mysterious nature of the cat is one of the most vivid memories I have, though I looked at it for maybe a couple seconds, not paying too much attention to it (my focus was on the fire). I eventually got tired of all this waiting around and ran towards a pipe in the washing room of the house, calling my friend to come with me so I could fill a couple buckets to carry out to the flames. I ran with the bucket in my hand to the flame and threw the water into it, the friend threw water into it right after me at the other side. It was mostly out now, but wispy streams of flames still came up. I went to fill up some more while the friend's father climbed into the earthy patch where the flame was to pat it out with something (I don't remember what). It finally went out, and then I woke up.
The whole dream I felt like it was my responsibility to out the fire, it was as if everyone stood around, not knowing whether to perceive danger or what.