Bryant – It wasn’t a time of transition from what your dreams tell me but a time when your being was trying to go through a tremendous transcendence. For each of us are immersed in a ‘river’ of constant change. If you think about it you have been carried, pushed, impelled by this current as you were moved through babyhood, childhood, teenage and adulthood. And as we passed through these changes we died to our old self in order to change to the new. It is the current of Life. This current then carries us on through old age and through the gates of death. All the time we are faced by decisions, and each decision directs us on a different path, helping to create our future. And this is a force of growth and change – not just physical or emotional but spiritual.
For again and again you have approached experiencing the ultimate in consciousness but have awoken, perhaps as a way of avoiding that in fact you are bodiless awareness.
We build our identity and our sense of self of personality out of the many interactions with other people and the world. In a real sense we create each other by believing in and communicating with each other. With prolonged absence of other people and events, and especially if we lose our ‘noises’ and body awareness, we feel we – our sense of identity – is disappearing or dying. People immersed in a sensory deprivation tank begin to lose a clear sense of themselves, and can result in anxiety, hallucinations and depression.
Example: Also, it struck me with tremendous force that the experience of waking consciousness in the body, however we explained it, was reality. Death, however we explained it, was also reality. What was happening was that I continued to experience this changed reality of death. I began to see how this realisation applied to other things. That is that consciousness could exist beyond physical boundaries. I saw this part of the experience was a summing up of all other experience. It was that our consciousness, in it basic state is in a bodiless condition.
Here lies the point of passage from one order of existence to another.
Example: Then something arose that I don’t think I have ever seen before in this way, or from this perspective. It started with me seeing that I had largely learned to drop a role, and the person I am becoming is largely outside of a role. My direction is not in a particular role. Yet I keep trying to drop back into old roles, and in doing so I am missing the point of growth that is of importance to me. In relationship with Marta for instance, I was not standing in any particular role when she met me. She took me for ‘one of hers’. I mean by this she saw me as a person with similar aims and beliefs. She let me in on her patch, her work scene. This is a bit like being in a state where I might look like a starling, and the starlings let me sit with them and share their food and branch. One doesn’t have to look like them physically to do this, only to have the same spirit, an inner form that can adapt to many shapes. So, I could then move to sit with the pigeons and be accepted by them. This is a form of survival that borders on the spiritual, as the great bodiless spiritual beings have so learned this lesson that they are a part of all living things, and share their energy, and energies we cannot yet touch.
You began to see beings that had no face or arms, trying to show you they had moved beyond personality and could be bodiless; but fear held you back. Don’t worry, when I first began this journey I wasn’t frightened, I was terrified.
Example: I experienced having no sense of having a body and floated in darkness.
I wondered if there were others but could sense no one. Then I began to feel a vibration and this sense of being absorbed was happening and the waves of sparkling radiance were lifting me up and then down like waves flowing through me or in me. I sensed it as waves rolling around the earth, generating from the earth’s power or magnetism. These waves roll around and therefore through all of us, and I felt sure I was experiencing this. I felt I was riding these beautiful waves. But although I was experiencing it I was also wondering what it was all about. What is this all about? What am I learning from this?
I realised that it is a passing back into the living processes that gave birth to us, out of which living creatures and humanity have emerged. I am learning that mystery. I experience that as such a huge and wonderful mystery and cried out, not in pain but at the wonder of it, “Oh my Darling.”
As this happened I had a vision of migrating birds, of the whole flow of living creatures through the seasons. I felt the urge of life in its move towards mating, towards building a nest, having young, caring for them. I experienced this from the sense of the mystery of life that is in the Earth, and in the waves I had felt part of. This was the initiation into what we call death, another dimension of living, and other possibilities. I also knew myself to be standing on the other side of that point of transition. I knew I had already faced much of that change and stood with love. I was already partly absorbed back into the wonderful energy and love of the Earth.
These experiences were deeply moving. I cried. I called out to Life, “My Darling!” I wept like a child because what I was experiencing was something immense and beautiful.
You are on the verge of an amazing opening of yourself to such wonders. Many people as their awareness reaches beyond what they feel is their normal self feel scared. Such resistances cause us to create awful dreams and fears as a means of avoiding our own inner world and its wonders. We feel that we will be swallowed up and we will die. It is important to say that when we meet the experience of powerlessness through becoming aware of the hugeness of your Life, which we are usually unaware if, it feels like something alien or attacking and it is a shock. If it helps use
https://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/opening-to-life/ Tony
