DREAM from August 24th: I was in a place where another girl and i were being held hostage by a big man who was going to rape us. I was trying to figure out a way out. I didn't have any energy to tell him to go away or defend myself. I then started to make myself throw up over the toilet. I was able to leave the situation because I was sick or make myself sick but really wasn't. Then I was hugging my boyfriend as we both felt so much love for each other.
(Actually, this dream reminding me of when I was a child I would fake being sick as I had social anxiety at a very young age due to my mother who lacked in teaching me any kind of social skills and smothered me constantly as a sheltering parent. Throughout the years I have overcome a huge part of it but it still is there from time to time. I guess you could call it fear.)
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DREAM from August 25th: I was looking at a beautiful white tiger beaded necklace. I bought it. Then I was trying to hurry up to get ready for work but I was running late. I took a different way to work and still was late. Then at work all of my jewelry fell off me and all over the floor.
I was at some house where there was someone I knew who killed someone and I helped them do it. We were trying to burry the body in the ground but I was freaking out as I knew that they would eventually find that I helped with the murder and hiding of the evidence so I was panicking. All I kept thinking was that my life was ruined and that I will always be living in fear of being caught and the guilt of the action of actually being a part of killing someone.
Then I was kissing and hugging my boyfriend as our connection was one.
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Why am I dreaming of these things? I just don't understand. It was all very nightmarish except the dreams where I was with my boyfriend. He has been a huge part in am emotional support for me and the only person who really truly has loved me in my life.