Well, I am single man again. Looking back on this dream I can see more clearly how the psychiatrist was the enabler in that relationship and how he was very much a part of me. He was indeed keeping me disoriented. It was disorientation that was necessary for me to maintain that relationship. I ignored so many things that bothered me about her like the excessive drinking in the company of her children, the disrespect she showed me, and a few other things. Though I believe I rewarded from the relationship. It was the easiest breakup I remember ever having. There has been zero hostility. We still even chat from time-to-time.
I also believe my subconscious may have been bringing to focus the fact that she was refused to be open with her feelings. She became defensive when I would want to talk about the relationship which wasn't all that often. Yet another aspect of the relationship I chose to ignore.
But all is well. I'm on the right track. Just completed a CNA course today and haven't touched weed for about three weeks now. I also had one of the most awe-inspiring flying dreams just the other night. I simply rose in the air, soaring ever higher.