I'm trying to learn what my deep self is wanting from me. I am writing down my dreams each night, with varying degrees of remembrance. Here's last night's:
I'm in a field, searching. I'm climbing, stepping over stones that turn out to be the bodies of cows and sheep, sleeping. I try not to wake them. A tent is over me, so I am hidden, I begin to feel afraid of being caught here, as if I'm trespassing. So I step on their bodies to get out, at the end there's a card for wrapping wool. I rip the tent open and emerge on a plain. I walk away, furtive-like, for having trespassed. A young woman in a blue coat calls to me, tries to intercept me. I run away from her and she follows. I keep running away. She runs into a rat which scares her and she runs off. Another woman is calling me. Miss, Miss, I can give you another cart. My chest is heaving, I'm out of breath.
First I looked up field: "often with animals" (Ha!) representing dreamer's contact with what is natural in themselves...also freedom from social pressure, one's sense of oneself when away from other people, with one's natural inclinations. Interesting in my dream, the animals are under a large tent, so hidden from the sun.
sheep--conforming self; cow--female side of one's nature. I think they were mostly cows, golden in color. The plain was also golden.
young woman I thought of as the part of me that is blue (sad) and then "rat" is a part of self I see as negative. The sad part of me is scared of a part of self she considers negative. Then another part of me is trying to get my attention (miss, miss). The "cart" which would be drawn by an animal has to do with some sort of "drive". "out of breath" suggests to me how much energy I am exerting to run away?
Then I tried the keyword technique, but it's my first time, I didn't get much out of it though some words are very strong:
field-searching-climbing-stepping over-sheeps and cows sleeping-try not to wake-tent over-afraid of being caught here-tresspassing--step over sleeping bodies--rip the tent open-furtive for having trespassed--blue coat-intercept-run away-she follows--run away--runs into rat-runs off.woman calling me-I can give you another cart--out of breath.
Any help with understanding better would be much appreciated.
wq