Bine
Last night I had a very long dream. Actually only about half of the dream was about drowning, but I hope that I can still get an answer.
I dreamt it was the future and that I once had a husband that I really, really loved, everything was perfect. Well in the dream, that was a couple of years ago, because he died. I don’t know why, and I remember absolutely nothing about him, only that we were happy. This is where the dream actually starts, and what I just mentioned is memories of me in the dream. I am with my family and the family of my dead husband on a tour to an amusement park I have been to in real life (really fun place actually) There is this kind of helicopter, the creepiest thing in the whole park. Half of the time you are upside down and spiralling around in weird patterns while being very far from the ground. I don’t know but maybe about 100 meters. It also goes so fast that you can’t move at all.
Well, I finally got my guts together and tried it this winter. In the dream my grandma who normally hates that kind of stuff offers to go with me and I gladly accept because I’ve tried it lots of times before and am not scared. I should maybe mention that the reason that we are on the trip is to forget about my dead husband and try to finally have fun again. Well, when we get to the helicopters and sit in the seats I realize I forgot something and get off. When I get back the helicopters already started and when my grandma comes down she is to my surprise completely unaffected by the tour, but calmly refuses to go again with me. I decide to get on alone. When I sit in the seat I realize that I have my bag on me, and that I should hand it to my family. I get back on the seat, and before I get the belt on it starts. I panic and my hands won’t do as I want them to. I realize it is too late and that I should grab something, so I cling to an iron bar a hope for survival. I was really scared; it felt so real, the gravity shifting places and the knot in my stomach. I wear this weird dress kind of looking like a wedding dress with real roses in pink and violet sewn on various places on the skirt. When I turn upside down I get the skirt in my head everything whitens and when I come to my senses I lay on the ground, everyone is worried and looking at me.
Some days pass, and I am constantly scared of everything. Then we go on this fishing trip on a long boat in a lake. The boat is way too big for the lake now that I think about it… well the weather is amazing, no wind, sunny and a blue sky. I’m wearing the same dress again. I suddenly panic, thinking I am at the helicopter again. I try to calm myself down, but when I look down I don’t sit in the boat but in a little canoe. In my panic I don’t really understand what happens, but I think big waves tilts the boat and I fall into the water. It is not icy and not warm, just a little cold. My sense of direction totally leaves me and I try to swim up, but I hit the bottom. I try to get up but it’s useless. It feels like my lungs burns and then I give up. I sink to the bottom and lay there for a second. But then I get this crazy idea, I start to listen. I hear birds, and start to swim against the sound. In that tiny period of time I felt calm, strangely. The same thing happens, everything whitens and when I come to my senses I am lying near the lake on the ground and everyone is looking worried. I don’t really remember the next part clearly, just that I get home and the days seem to “circle” with the same things happening, and me getting constantly scared of everything. I also remember looking in my old diary from when I was a kid. It’s filled with colours and when I look at it, I feel like I was someone else’s diary, not mine. Even though it was me who wrote it. Well the days just continue to circle and then I wake up.
Sorry if my English is incorrect, it is not my native language. I have dreamt of drowning many times before, but not like this. I really can’t figure what the dream means, and I would appreciate an interpretation.