Hi Mike,
Just re-read your intro.
It's brilliant that you are asking such big questions and starting your explorations of self at this early age. To think that you're here now and have access to the information and the tools that Tony is kindly making available here makes me believe that you have the potential to live an incredibly fulfilling life. We all do, but most of us (like me) waste so much time!
Good luck, I look forward to hearing how you get on!
Matt