Ant - Like the white rabbit, I am running a bit late for a very important date. But here is an answer to your laughing communication.
Suzanne Segal, speaking from her continuous experience of being the infinite says, “The vastness carries a non-personal desire to expe¬rience itself. This appears to be the purpose of human life—for the vastness to meet itself everywhere it turns. The notion of personal growth or inner development is contrary in every respect to the way the vastness exists. The quest to awaken implies a sense of futurity that precludes basking in what actually is right now.” (From her book Collision with the Infinite)
For me I hope I am an open door you find yourself in to experience Itself.
Thank you.
Tony