Anna - I struggled to find “It” most of my adult life, and when I came to it I was deeply puzzled because instead of the wonder and treasure I found an empty room in an old building.
And remember that I am still a child on the way, but hopefully a child might speak well. So it took me years to come to terms with my ‘empty room’ feeling. Then I realised that the empty room was not empty - because I was there. It was, and still is, a very moving realisation. Even now as I write it I am moved by many wonderful feelings.
There are many of us walking this way, so do not feel alone, though sometimes we walk with nothing.
Tony