Thank you for this Tony.
reading 'life stream/open' that is what I am working on right now..that dance and being open to it..
I am trying to understand this... - Is this being locked into a physical self-image?
As a child I had no way of protecting myself and those who had that responsibility did not protect me. I'm in the journey of finding empowerment. I am however at least shouting and defending myself in the dreamworld - even if I don't win - I am living to fight another day. I'm also engaging with this really angry force. I would say it's not quite fear I feel in the dream but exasperation that nothing I do works and a sense of realism, that my 'powers' are insufficient to this battle. I expect to find those powers in future dreams. I will let you know!
Yes some women have men quaking in their boots, but put a woman or child in a physical fight with a man and usually the man will win, no matter how determined the woman is. Sometimes it's not about attitude. Ive long understood the psychology of the bully, they get so much attention. I less understand the psychology and path, of those who are overpowered, murdered etc The complete loss of power. Complete vulnerability and inability to protect oneself, despite all efforts.
I have engaged a lot with the idea of the world being created by our beliefs, however those beliefs are not just thoughts, they are profound, often life or death experiences and are difficult to reorder, especially on the extreme end of the spectrum that I'm curious about, mentioned above.
Am I locked in physical self-image or just processing unprocessed childhood experience?
Now as an adult developing the power of consciousness, bringing those experiences out of the unconscious so they stop influencing me. While they may just be passing sensations on my blank screen on one level, on another level they are an ancestral story I'm part of and need to play my part in, or resolve my lack of consciousness therein.
Thankyou for your feedback Tony, it's great to benefit from your thoughts and experience. Most interested to hear your thoughts on the other half of the bully dynamic, murder victims, the powerlessness etc
Thankyou!
(On a note of progress, last night I dreamt it began to rain and I was going to take shelter in an old damp boarded up house, but an old man passing advised me against it, so I went back out on the road and I looked over the countryside and all along the horizon and along the hill tops was a kind of rainbow, predominantly deep pink/red in colour and though it wasn't crystal clear, its energy was very strong and in the dream I just thought, 'that's a strange place for a rainbow' but also was impressed by it and it was such a contrast to the cold dark house I'd been seeking out to shelter in moments before)