Debzie – As I said, because you dreamt it, it IS your baby. This is true because all the images, people, animals, places we see in our dreams, are simply your own feelings, fears, hopes and wonder projected onto the screen of your sleeping mind as images.
I took in what you said about yourself, and I want to say that to have such a beautiful child you must first be fertile. Your prayers and hopes, even longings, have made your womb, your heart and your mind fertile. For prayers and longing are spiritual exercises, which makes one more open, more receptive, subtler – even in pain.
Then this fertility was ready for a seed to be planted and it has grown into a beautiful dream baby.
What good is a dream baby when what you want is a man and a baby who sucks at your breasts?
That is true, but our satisfaction is like great river that is fed by many streams. A woman is a great creator, she can create, with the right circumstances, a physical baby. But we can leave children we have created in the form of what we have given to others that lives and grows in them.
Example: “This is why people take an interest in schooling, in culture. Unconsciously they know what a wonderful thing we have received. Yet I have never wanted to give.” Here I began to groan with the pain of seeing, experiencing the wonder of what is given us, of what we can give to the future, to our own times. I cried out in tears at the simple beauty of giving of self, of trying, even if not very well, to better educate, help them to see opportunities, give them experience, so their own soul may be even more richly endowed than our own. I groaned and wept at the vision of what had been given, of what I could give. How I too could add my bit to this gift of a soul to children of all time.”
You have a child with enormous possibilities, so speak to it and ask it to show you the way, for children are often very wonderful in their perception. Also inner changes can create a new future. One man who was still single, experienced an inner change – as you have with your baby – and within a week he had found a partner and a new direction in life. See
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/practical-techniques-for-understanding-your-dreams/#TalkingAs Tony