I met a guy back in July and we have become good friends and have been able to confide in each other about a lot of things and be open with each other about pretty much everything. Neither of us are currently in a relationship and while I am in the market, he is not interested in pursuing a relationship; he's happy being single.
I've been having this dream for the past three or four weeks I guess. He and I are having sex. Most of the time it is in my mother's bed (hers is a Queen, mine is a Twin), but sometimes we are on my living room couch and a couple of times we have been in a motel room (Though, the motel room is becoming less and less recurrent). He and I are not in a relationship when we choose to have sex; I guess we're friends with benefits at this point. I am a virgin in reality and am such in this dream, and he is not a virgin in both aspects. Anyway, the dream always starts with him asking if I am sure I want to do this. I reply with yes, and we begin. He is taking things at my pace, letting me call the shots and reassures me that I'm doing fine and assures me it's okay when I confess I'm not sure exactly what I'm doing. Though in more recent dreams, my confidence has gotten better, and I am less and less unsure. Most of the time in my mother's bed or the motel room, we are in the missionary position; he on top of me, but this is beginning to change to me being on top of him. But when it takes place on my living room couch, I am always on top of him. Despite this being my first time engaging in sex, it doesn't hurt at all. He always climaxes first, then he begins to pleasure me, but the dream ends before I am able to reach my climax.
If anyone has any advice or information, it would be greatly appreciated. I'm not sure if it's my body/mind telling me I'm emotionally ready to engage in sex or if I'm just a "frustrated virgin" or if there is something else to it. I've also spent the last three and a half years recovering, emotionally, from being assaulted by my ex-boyfriend. Is it possible that my body/mind/emotions are telling me that I'm ready to move on and perhaps this current guy is the one who could help me? And why does the dream end before I'm able to climax?
I do hope there aren't too many questions there; I'm just a little confused and would like some answers.
Thank you.