I read Tony's dream dictionary entry for "demons", and what stood out to me is this:
"Although many dreams about demons are probably reflecting anxiety feelings and struggles we have with moral issues or sex, sometimes the battle with demons can be about our body fighting a virus or bacterial infection. See: devil under archetypes."
He then goes on to describe a dream that is so similar to mine that I can't help but take notice, the dreamer says in his dream, "“By the power of God within me, I dismiss you” – or words to that effect."
Suddenly the connection between many of my dreams over the past few months came into focus - they have been increasing in intensity, featuring being surrounded and feeling crowded and overwhelmed by dozens to hundreds of black people...first they were just in my space, then I was trying to get rid of them and couldn't, and most recently have been at first trying to get in through a locked door and then streaming in through a back way.
In addition to this, I dreamed the dream I posted, of someone being sick and resisting healing for her own reasons, plus another recent dream where someone was saying to me, "remember, T's car has seasonal problems, remember how his car had a flat tire last year.
I was exposed to black mold at work a few months ago and immediately developed a sore throat and painful cough. I don't have health insurance or funds for a doctor (probably wouldn't see one if I did), and it took me nearly a year just to find a job that pays slightly more than minimum wage, so I didn't want to rock the boat or say anything.
I'm thinking all of these dreams are reflecting allergies and black mold reactions. I've been feeling really terrible this week and left work early yesterday.
A recent dream of being invaded by flocks of black men featured a burned carcass of a dog, intended to scare me and warn me not to use my own dog to protect me, or it would end up the same way. I'm taking that to mean not to try to use strong drugs (masculine/forceful methods - I've used a lot of pseudoephedrine and anti-histamines in the past) so today I picked up a homeopathic remedy.
In addition, yesterday I went back into the dream I posted above - at first I felt deeply the distress of not being helped by the husband, and repeated, "I need your help!" over and over until I felt a release and began to cry.
Then went into the rooms to "banish" the presence, and repeated "I banish you in the name of God" over and over and over again, going deeper and deeper into the emotion of it until I was exhausted.
While I was doing this I noticed another connection to another recent dream of a crazy black woman, and someone explaining to me that she is soothed by repetition...what a web!
At some point I realized I had been floating in a state of timeless peace for a while.
No intense dreams last night, I still felt pretty crappy last night and this morning...I'm going to take it easy and allow myself to be lazy and stay in bed all day if that's what I want and see how things play out.