JustMe – There are several themes going on in your dream. One is that you are trying to make a comfortable place to be for yourself, and it is frustrated.
Another is that you are finding it difficult to be satisfied with your work.
You get acclaim but you do not like what you see.
There is a feeling that your father was critical of you at some time, and this is still a strong influence about the way you see and criticise yourself.
The haemorrhoids are often a sign of internal tension.
It seems that in the dream you move on quite often because other people take what is your space or you are unsatisfied, and it sounds like there is a passive side to you that allows this. So please read the entry
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/active-passive/I quote the following not because it is directly about you. “Sometimes this social indoctrination may lead to such a burden of guilt and suppression that it can create psychic cripples. Trying to do all the ‘right’ things may lead us to the point where ‘we can’t say no to a glass of water without a pang of guilt.’”
So I wonder if there is any information in the following for you:
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/archetype-of-the-female-choice/But it certainly would suggest you changing the scenes in your dream to ones that will make you feel more satisfied. This is not always easy as we usually have reasons behind our choice. I had a dream years ago about crashing my car, and was pleased about it. When I explored the dream I found that I wanted to destroy my ability to work, because then I would never amount to anything. And that would be a kick in the teeth for my mother. The car represented my drive/impulse to work.
So you could use the technique described here: Imagine yourself in the dream and continue it as a fantasy or daydream. Alter the dream in any way that satisfies. Experiment with it, play with it, until you find a fuller sense of self expression. It is very important to note whether any anger or hostility is in the dream but not fully expressed. If so, let yourself imagine a full expression of the anger. It may be that as this is practised more anger is openly expressed in subsequent dreams. This is healthy, allowing such feelings to be vented and redirected into satisfying ways, individually and socially. In doing this do not ignore any feelings of resistance, pleasure or anxiety. Satisfaction occurs only as we learn to acknowledge and integrate resistances and anxieties into what we express. This is a very important step. It gradually changes those of our habits which trap us in lack of satisfaction, poor creativity or inability to resolve problems.
Tony