Thanks Tony.
Black swan - this is what comes..
I am power, anger.. 'What are you doing down there on the ground? You being so soft and vague and unprotected.. Wake up! Fly! Fly! Stop being asleep, stop being soft.'
The day before I had that dream I'd been walking by a river and a swan (white) was eating in what struck me as an usually energetic way at the bank, I really noticed as I've never seen a swan eat river grass like that so I stopped. The swan really seems to look me in the eye and was quite a powerful strong presence, not particularly serene, dark intense eyes.'
Now I've done that 'being the thing' I'm thinking back to the rest of the day..
Moments before or after meeting the swan I had an experience of someone being unnecessarily aggressive in their interaction with me, in fact friends have pointed out on occasions how strangers treat me, my friends love and treat me with respect because they are kind people, but I have had it validated by comments from them that an unusual amount of unwarranted attacks come my way.
There is something very powerful in my energy that keeps recreating this pattern. childhood abuse.
After the swan scene, I was holding a dear friend who fainted in my arms, I found a place for us to sit on the grass, I was in a bit of a hollow, so I looked beneath me, there was a small tunnel with an earth worm which I removed. I then put a stone over the hole/tunnel is case more worms emerged while I sat there. It was nice to be sitting outdoors on the ground.