Dreamer85 - Religion is not really something you put on like new clothes, it is something that comes from within you. I know religion has become something you join or belong to, but what is happening to you is growing from within you and you do not need to do anything about it but continue to live your life with an open heart and mind.
The great truths of religion are all about us - our birth, growth and the major things we meet in life. For instance birth - Christmas - is actually a celebration of the miracle of our birth. As it clearly says in the Bible, "God created man in his own image. In God`s image he created him; male and female he created them. God blessed them."
In the image of God means we were all born holy and wonderful, with infinite potential, only our body and education often stands in the way of realising this.
But all the other stages of our growth are shown in the great festivals. So you are going through a major period of spiritual growth shown in your dream. You have not tried to be like other people and that has often made you feel like an odd one who could not fit in. But that is exactly right, for we are not something made by a machine - except if we all try to dress and act the same as everyone else - we are all UNIQUE. Look around you - every leaf on a tree has a unique shape. We all have different bodies and fingerprints - Life/God is a wonderfully creative act.
That brings you to crucifixion. So you have suffered the taunts of others, now you are singled out to take the next step. It will take time but it leads you to see not the external God, but to the realisation of the divine within you.
Don't struggle with this, it is a process of growth. See
http://dreamhawk.com/inner-life/meetings-with-the-christ/Tony
