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Dream Interpretation / Re: Two Past Lives lived of Being Affronted
« on: September 12, 2019, 12:08:06 PM »
Sally  - Your father's statement that, “Your personality wasn’t a small or limited one. Far from it,” suggests that you are a much more powerful being, held back by past life choices. You obviously take this seriously which is extraordinary, as most people blame their personal problems on anything other than their own actions. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/karma-and-past-lives/

But something that is noticeable connected with, "As you sow, so shall you reap" again karma - is that the first life mentioned took his own life and the second one her life was taken from her forcibly. That is exactly what I have seen in other people's past life memories; it is that we do not own our life so it is in the end not ours to destroy. So what we do in a life is repeated in another life. so harm to oneself is often reflected in another life.

For our mother did not create our body, she was the instrument the Life Process formed the miraculous and intricate building of a body, and gave the consciousness allowing our personality to form. But apart from that I witnessed the same in another life where my wife, Brenda was told that the baby of friends of ours was seriously ill. Its illness, she was given to understand, would need to be treated with a drug taken every day of the child’s life. The reason for this illness and the drug use, she was told, was because in a past life the being now born as the baby had committed suicide using a drug.

I quote something for general readers:

“Things other than pattern concern the soul in its selection of a body: coming situations in history, former associations with the parents, the incarnation, at about the same time, of souls it wishes to be with and with whom it has problems to work out. In some cases, the parents are the whole cause of a soul’s return; the child will be devoted to them and remain close to them until their death. In other cases, the parents are used as a means to an end-the child will leave home early and be about its business.

The personality is shaped by three or four incarnations, the portions of the earthly experience on which the individuality wants to work. The emotions and talents of the person reflect these incarnations. The dreams, visions, meditations-the deep, closely guarded self-consciousness of the personality is the pat¬tern of experience among the other states of consciousness of the solar system. The intellect is, roughly speaking, from the stars: it is the mind force of the soul, conditioned by its previous experience in creation outside the solar system, and dimmed or brightened by its recent experiences within the solar system.” Quoted from The Story of Edgar Cayce

You have obviously worked long and hard in doing the most important thing – facing and working on meeting yourself – your ‘Life Work’.


Dream Interpretation / Two Past Lives Lived of Being Affronted
« on: September 12, 2019, 12:04:35 PM »
Tony, My father sent me this again – “I started looking intuitively at my children and my attention firstly went to my daughter Sally.  I sensed that she was dealing with feelings of being affronted.  I feel that what she is facing arose from a very powerful influence coming to her from the past, from being a lady and having servants.  In that situation she had the space to be affronted.  She was in a cultural situation and an economic situation in which she could afford to be affronted by any number of things.

Behind that I sense there are many other influences waiting to come through, and the affrontedness needs to be dealt with before they can emerge.  I sense that the affronted personality encapsulated the other influences that have yet to emerge.  It captured them.  It held their essence. That personality wasn’t a small or limited one. Far from it. That is how it managed to incorporate these many others influences. Yet, strangely, it expressed them in this limiting, or limited way. So, it needs to be worked through to release the many other factors that all held within it.”

Yes,  it has been on my mind recently funnily enough. The first time you sent it I recognised that it was true - I remembered incidents when I had felt very affronted even as a child. Ha ha, I thought I had dealt with it over the years, but found myself feeling affronted by a number of small incidents recently.

I resolved to work on this once again, especially when I was given a random bible text which read: Great peace have they which love thy law; and nothing shall offend them. Psalm 119:165

I have had glimpses into two lifetimes where this character trait was very strong- one where I was a privileged and well-to-do youth (male) in Ancient Greece, and one in which I was a rich aristocratic lady in France. In the first life my outraged affontedness at being jilted by my bride to be led me to take my own life as an act of revenge. In the second one I was outraged as my world crumbled, my family was torn apart and I went to the guillotine - a catastrophic blow to my feeling of entitlement, yet still there was part of me thinking: how dare they - don’t they know who I am!

I like to think that I have got somewhere with it in this lifetime! I am fascinated to see what other things may come to the fore as the affrontedness is dissolved. Sally

Tetiana - I answered this ages ago but here is better information.

The site has enormous information in http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/features-found-on-site-2/

This is a good staring place -http://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/opening-to-life/

Followed with - https://dreamhawk.com/body-and-mind/peoples-experiences-of-lifestream/

And - https://dreamhawk.com/inner-life/personal-unconscious/

Finish with - https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/dimensions-of-human-experience/


Tetiana Cymbal

I really jive with the explanation of how one holds in enormous amounts of their own Energy…trusting oneself….allowing to express spontaneously without conscious intervention. I hold way too much self criticism which keeps me from embracing myself fully….
Any comments or thoughts on this most critical topic?
Thank you

Kate – It may be that your wonderful dreams express a well known dream function – because dreams are said to compensate for conscious attitudes and personality traits. So the coldly intellectual man would have dreams expressive of feelings and the irrational as part of a compensatory process. The ascetic might dream of sensuous pleasures, and the lonely unloved child dream of affection and comfort. But this is only the most basic aspect of compensation and is demonstrated in the example below.

Example: In his book Psychology in Service of The Soul, Leslie Weatherhead tells the story of a little girl who while on a visit to a zoo was given a coin to get a small chocolate bar from a vending machine. She eagerly asked for more coins to obtain all the bars in the machine. The mother refused. The next morning the girl said she dreamt her mother had come into her bedroom and thrown a lot of chocolate bars under her bed.

Many dream researchers believe the dream process is linked with homeostasis or self-regulation – this sort of self-regulation means that the process underlying dream production helps keep psychological balance, just as homeostasis keeps body functions balanced by producing perspiration when hot, shivering when cold, and the almost miraculous minutiae of internal changes.

In https://dreamhawk.com/body-and-mind/peoples-experiences-of-lifestream/ are examples of this process being experienced not in dreams but in waking. LifeStream is a way of opening yourself to the healing and teaching power of Life within you. If you have not done this before you need to leave yourself open to whatever arises spontaneously. This is not done by searching but by noticing any idea or memory that presents itself and mentioning it and allowing any accompanying emotions. Amazingly one thing leads to another and you are taken on a journey into the previously hidden depths of yourself. See https://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/opening-to-life/


 Hi Tony . . . I’ve been coming to your site for a long time now. Love the new revamp! I’ve been having such intense dreams lately. One is part of a set of a reoccurring dream – of a dream lover – but it’s not as mentioned in any of the examples above. In this reoccurring dream, it’s always pleasant, full of love and pleasure, as if he’s a beloved boyfriend, husband, and lover. In each separate dream, it’s a different man, but it’s always a positive often intense experience, both love and sex, much like when the honeymoon phase of a relationship is going on, or when it’s a stable very loving relationship. These dreams usually come during times of great sorrow or stress. And I haven’t been in a romantic relationship for years now. Anything that makes sense of this from your experience? Kate

Greetings / Hello There!
« on: September 05, 2019, 11:05:35 AM »
Hi - Obviously I am not new here, but I am letting you know a little about this site. First it is difficult for newcomers to post on the Forum pages. That is because I am spending time upgrading and adding pages - there are 6600 pages on the site. But there is a huge amount to explore.

So here is a massive amount of information - http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/features-found-on-site-2/ - I have poured out the best I found in my  explorations. I offer it  freely because I never paid for any courses because so much was given to me from within. But if you would like to donate somthing for what you find here you are welcome see - https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=JYTWAMC4LQLQ4&source=url

Some of the big ones are - https://dreamhawk.com/inner-life/big-bang-and-god-are-the-same/







Dream Interpretation / Re: A Trip Into Being Worthless
« on: September 04, 2019, 09:57:20 AM »
I was in a coach with several people, Sara, Tony someone who was cutting out model airplanes from green metal, others in the background. We were on a long journey to Woolacombe in North Devon. When I spoke/became as the coach I was able to transport myself and others to places they wanted to go, I had lots of space inside me, and comfortable places to be for people.

I then spoke as the green metal that was being cut and moulded into shapes of airplanes and a helicopter , as the helicopter I could rise about the ground of the coach and get an over view of what was going on.
The metal making represented both my parents, who had passed onto me amazing strength, which they had learnt from their life experiences. My mother had grown up from the age of 11 years in an orphanage seemed to be able to do anything without asking for help; she worked full time  as a cook would  make clothes, bake wedding cakes for neighbours , gardening, run the house, without washing machine or fridge. I was told that she was a well read woman though I never saw this; she must have done this between shifts at work.

My father was like a rock, not so noticeable in his skills but a sense that he could handle life. Tony was also a part of me that had strength to look within myself for knowledge. The helicopter could also go within not just above then it connects with the inner world. And Sara was another part of me who had to find the strength to cope with what life brought along, in a way not allowing her emotions to drive her.

Woolacombe was a place of security, and of becoming a parent.

Sara’s mum who was at Woolacombe was a difficult part for me to own, In fact I said, “I Can’t face this.” But as I allowed myself to become her I felt no sense of worth, as if I wanted to curl up and retreat, but staying with this dreadful feeling, Tony asked if I could find something good within myself and what name I could give her as that part of myself. I gave her the name Beryl and I suddenly had a shift and burst of emotions, feeling the wonder of myself having a mothers love. From that I experienced a beautiful feeling of a flower opening, such a shift of feeling, with the petals reaching out, unfolding in a natural way, then a sense of being a seed in my belly and a larger flower coming out from my heart area.

What this dream has left me with is a sense of love that I can allow to flow through me, that if I look at that love, it flows from me with a real feeling of value within myself. I look forward to seeing where this new sense of self takes me. 

What I also became aware of from this dream was of how much strength I have within myself from becoming the different the people in the coach. This dream has given me a really big inner shift. Beryl has been a part of me for a very long time, which led to feel that I had no worth – I was worthless.


Dream Interpretation / Re: I Played Dead to Avoid Getting Hurt
« on: August 30, 2019, 10:55:35 AM »
Peter, whose dream this was, had been experiencing a debilitating psychosomatic illness at the time of the dream, causing pain where the tentacles ran through his chest. The shell is his defences against feeling his own hurts, fears and inner conflicts. The dream shows him contacting a strength which is not afraid of his internal battlefield or conflicts and can show ways of healing real human problems. The healing rests upon the dreamer’s conscious action, not Christ’s, suggesting the dreamer must take responsibility for his own situation. Peter realised he had been avoiding his own internal battles but felt he had found a strength - in the Big Man - which would support his efforts to find healing. In fact, he met his conflicts and grew beyond his ailments.

The cause of Peter’s conflicts was because his love for his children and  his wife was split by his love for another woman. The Christ he met was his own undammed life, the flood of loving sexuality, the strength to burst through social rules and regulations because love or life pushes. When we find it in ourselves, we don’t give a hang about bullets, death, right or wrong, because we have a sense of our own integral existence within life, and our own rightness and place in eternity. This removed his fear of being hurt which enable him to experience his enormous inner battlefield and so live out his painful feelings. See https://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/opening-to-life/


Dream Interpretation / I Played Dead to Avoid Getting Hurt
« on: August 30, 2019, 10:34:31 AM »
We all went into the foyer of Friends House to get married. Marie handed in tickets. We got to the door to the meeting room. Two powerful men acted as receptionists. They took the tickets but said that there was only a ticket for one person. Marie went to the left into the meeting. I asked the man to allow me to exit out of the revolving door to Euston Road. I did this and found a battle going on, a fierce battle was raging with bullets flying. I immediately fell down and ‘played dead’. It wasn’t that I was hurt in any way, but I didn’t want to be at any risk in the fight. As I lay there, I saw a tall well built man in soldiers uniform walk to me. He gave no sign of any fear concerning the bullets, and quietly knelt beside me. I felt he was Christ but was confused by him being a soldier. He placed a hand on my back and gradually worked his fingers under the shell of a large limpet type creature that I had never before known was parasitically attached to my back. I could feel him pull it away, but knew its tentacles still ran right into my chest. It seemed an alien had entered me. He then sat me up and told me how I could rid myself of the tentacles and so be healed. Peter.

Questions about dreams / What Is Our Personality?
« on: August 27, 2019, 11:41:50 AM »
The human personality – the You that you call yourself, with a name, is only a tiny thing. It is moved and tossed around by all manner of drives, ambitions, emotions, fears, temptations, worries, love and desire with its pains and hopes; it is something we take so seriously and get carried away into awful situations; we take many sorts of pain killers to deal with ourselves. Things such as alcohol, coffee, medical drugs and street drugs, and yet we are still prone to break down, as can be seen by the number of people who need antidepressants or are totally lost in themselves. See https://dreamhawk.com/interesting-people/animal-children/#Program

And a lot of the pain and the mental misery is largely because we put so much trust in what we think and feel. Yet thoughts are simple photocopies of reality and are never the real things. They are just sounds we make into words to help us move around a strange and confusing world. And feelings too are simply a response to what we meet. See https://dreamhawk.com/news/avoiding-being-my-own-victim/

We are small because we know nothing about who we are and how we came to be – except of course in the words we have been taught are really the truth. We do not know anything about the mass of things that keep us alive – except what we have read, yet more words. We are largely unconscious of what makes our heart beat, and all the millions of things that life behind our existence does, so we are moved by whatever moves us – whatever that is – childhood fears and social programming, or haunted by the past.

Also most people have lost contact with the animal they are, and so the human person is made even smaller by that loss. Yet we know if we think about without words, that we have evolved through past ages, and in our womb life go through the stages as we develop our reptile brain, our mammal brain and then the human brain – and they are still in us and working. And it is what I have called the Life Will or Life that lies behind it all and needs some acknowledgement. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/brain-levels-and-dreams/

And behind it all it the Nothing that is Everything. If we can acknowledge that then we may find firm footing. “When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner as the outer, and the upper as the lower, and when you make male and female into a single one, so that the male shall not be male, and the female shall not be female: . . . then you will enter [the kingdom].” Quoted from The Gnostic Apostle Thomas: https://www.amazon.com/Gospel-Thomas-Sermons-Restored-Translation/dp/0999335324/ref=sr_1_4?keywords=The+Gnostic+Apostle+Thomas&qid=1566902193&s=books&sr=1-4

Also as we begin to meet the Hugeness that we are we often react to it with fear or panic. So we dream or being attacked by aliens or frightening creatures. If we realise that they are things we have created with fear we will pass on. If we refrain from the normal activities and diversions people enter into the conserved energy will flow into and enliven old traumas, and make alive the fears, pains and fantasies those traumas give rise to. So it could lead to neurosis or worse. It could also lead to fantasies of spiritual power or experience. It is, after all, the stuff of life, and is incredibly creative. It brings life to whatever it flows into, whether that is good or what we call evil. So we need to remember and keep in contact with our highest.

Example: "During meditation in Convent Chapel – had been repeating a mantra dreamt about Chiayusin and then gone onto the meditation I cannot always do, the empty quiet within waiting for the delicate touch. I began to feel the delicate touch. As usual with this my spine straightened slowly without my making any effort. I sat extremely upright without effort or strain. Then my heart began to pound as it had never pounded before, except during heavy exercise or running. I also began to perspire and breathe heavily and slightly raggedly. I felt I had opened-up to an enormous power. Yet I had only brushed its skirts.

No wonder meditation is dangerous. If you opened to this before your body was ready, it could damage the heart, and maybe other organs. When I looked at myself in the mirror afterwards, my eyes were red and face perspiring as if just finishing sexual intercourse.

The heart pain – a pain right through my chest from front to back, or a general ache and pain in the chest – I have been suffering for some months now, I feel is tied up with this business of ‘opening up’. It started with my efforts at the head-stand and uddiyana. The head-stand had reached 30 minutes, and uddiyana had progressed to 1000 repetition daily. Then suddenly I began to suffer badly with what appear to be pains in the heart and chest. These pains do not occur during heavy exercise, but often during meditation.

However it is not as clear cut as that, as they also occur at odd times during the day, once as quite bad palpitation – this was while meeting S. during lunch break.

There appears to be some link with the sex act, as I have not had any sexual intercourse for a long time now. Neither have wet-dreams occurred. When any loss of sexual fluid threatens, even as I dream, I find myself doing the aswini mudra – tensing the rectum – and thus controlling it.

This control of the natural (?) loss of sexual fluid may have caused this build-up of heart tension.

The experience in the Chapel this morning shows a definite link with heart action and deep meditation. Remember that Jim Droust had the same experience when beginning a projection – OBE – i.e. terrific heart beats, so intense they frightened me.

I feel somehow that it may be a result of unconscious fears of being controlled by the unconscious forces. On the one hand we have the unknown – unknown by consciousness – force, and on the other the conscious self seeking, without really any clear conception of what it is looking for."

When one finds something real within oneself – something previously unconscious – one tries to block by various unconscious physical tensions, thus topping the normal flow of the life energy in the body. When we find the real thing we are frightened. Like a young inexperienced boy seeking sexual experience – when confronted by a full grown woman he may be scared silly, as it is an experience he has never met before, and cannot cope with his present psychological equipment. See https://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/opening-to-life/

A Quote from The Gospel of Thomas - 2)  Jesus said:
“One should not be deterred, once one begins to search. One searches until one finds. Upon finding,
there are questions, and with questions, will come answers. with answers, one can come to embrace the world."

“The sky and the earth will be spread before you. Those who will live in accord with the Living One will see beyond any narrowness of life.”

“If you become my disciples, abiding by my words, the very stones beneath your feet  will act upon your bidding.”

Eltzroth, Daniel. The Gospel of Thomas: Lost Sermons of Jesus Restored: A New Translation for Today's World . Antiq Publications. Kindle Edition.

Dream Interpretation / Re: Why Do We Resist Or Repress Ourselves?
« on: August 26, 2019, 12:29:46 PM »
Dave - What most of us fail to realise, usually because we feel there is nothing beyond what we experience daily, is the power that keeps you alive, mostly through spontaneous movements such as breathing and heartbeat. I  give it the name of Life Will. Our Life Will has its own agenda, and if we go against it, it leads to ill health, depression and some form of failure. So, with dream like yours. It isn't that the Life Will wants to control you but being raised in a culture that is largely about getting more money, getting what we want, and believing what might be totally at odds with our best interest, we experience a conflict while we sleep.

Obviously you blocked Life acting upon your conscious personality through fear - it would be taken away - which is you trying to take control of your own existence. But the truth is we have never been totally in control of ourselves. It wasn't your mother who build your body cell by cell, for she didn't know the immense complexity of forming a living being. It was the process of Life and Life has agendas of its own - so it is worth learning what they are. I can't tell you that, for we are all so amazingly unique, but you can learn to listen to that amazing communication. See https://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/opening-to-life/ - https://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/what-we-need-to-remember-about-us-3/#LifeWill


Dream Interpretation / Why Do We Resist Or Repress Ourselves?
« on: August 26, 2019, 11:58:43 AM »
Your wife’s dream of resisting waves of great pleasure was very interesting. I wonder why we resist and block pleasure. I’ve also noticed doing it in other things. The other day I was going for a run and got stitch and tired quite a long way from home. I was running under some huge oaks and I practiced “communicating” with them and their strong energy to exchange energy. And I felt the boost which kept me going. I was so high on this feeling that I cut it off. I think the reasons were a) that I was frightened it would be taken away from me for some reason by an external agency and then I wouldn’t know whether I could access it again, whereas if I cut it off, there was always the possibility in my head that I could access it; and b) gosh, if I can do this what can/should I do with this ability – where does it lead – it doesn’t seem to fit in with my life. Dave

Dream Interpretation / Re: Dead Mother Saw her Spirit Leave Her Body
« on: August 25, 2019, 10:23:08 AM »
Nthabi - Many people when they contact their dead mother tend to mix the dream up with what the dreamer felt about death.

As an example of that the following quote from a woman's dream is about her feelings rather than her mother; "My mother was suffering because of the chest pain she had or sometimes i see her dead body and other relatives hosting her funeral and mourning. Sometimes I am crying holding her that way because she has left me."

But your dream is very clearly about your mothers experience after her body died. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/what-happens-when-we-die/


Dream Interpretation / Dead Mother Saw her Spirit Leave Her Body
« on: August 25, 2019, 10:10:40 AM »

I dreamed about my mother, who passed away on the 31st of December 2015. She spoke to me about what was happening when she was passing on. She said her spirit left her flesh body. She said she saw how tense I was but she experienced so much peace and that she floated up until she reached heaven. She was smiling and said she was completely healed.


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