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Dream Interpretation / RE: conjuring my daughter?
« on: January 17, 2014, 07:31:04 PM »
Dear Tony,

Happy new year!  I hope it has been a wonderful one for you thus far and will continue to be.

Many sychronicities happening in my life recently...and I have a question about possible meaning of a dream I had last night.  Just before bed I had done an angel guidance reading and received the Angel of Dreams.  I thought that strange as I hadn't asked anything to do with dreams. 

I had a very restless night with much worry.  But during a moment when I was finally able to fall asleep, I had a short dream where I conjured my daughter.  I don't actually have a daughter in real life (could have but that's another story...) but here she was grown, like teenage, and now that I think of it, this is the age she would have been if she had been born.  (I don't know her gender but I always thought of her as a she.)  I was holding something in my hand like maybe crystals (?), something circular and flat, disk-like, that fit in my hand.  I was circling some kind of tiny branch with dried leaves around it (sage?) and she appeared, solid but still floating and an apparition.  She looked like La Virgen de Guadalupe but in shades of blue garments like the Virgin Mary from other images.  She had no real energy.  Just as she appeared, I heard a huge pop like the sound of a bag popping mixed with the sound of a huge bolt of electrical current like when a large electrical source suddenly shorts out.  I felt scared and woke up all in the same moment with the sound.

My blanket had fallen off the bed but it's so soft, I don't know how it could have made that sound.

Do you have any ideas about what this could mean?

Thank you!

peace, light, love,


Dream Interpretation / Re: Dream filled with unusual images
« on: September 14, 2013, 07:34:39 AM »

I'm a friend on the site...saw your dream and had some thoughts to share...

My first intuitive thought is:  what was your plan/schedule for September 13?  Had you any plan or trip, any event or people you were planning to see?

The swans seem very protective, angelic-spirit energies that lead you to your true people, where you are meant to be.   Sickle is slicing, a farming sign, cuts wheat (grass), also sign of death's tool, indicates the ability to cut through to the core, most importantly, to fearlessly initiate transformation. 

Perhaps you are initiated (spots on arm, "last member") by current events into your new tribe/space/people.  Some event/some element in your home space is bringing you to your calling and kindred.  There is a sense of acknowledgment of belonging by the group (or by your subconscious).  13 is baker's dozen, an extra thrown in for good measure and blessing/thanks for purchase of the dozen.

I see a Nordic land, green dewy fragrant grass, blue-tinged dusk and forests, long line of silent folk in simple elegant garb...beautiful hushed peaceful scene mixed with that moment from the comedy Couples Therapy when Kirsten Bell and friends survive the tumultuous sea between islands and she finally finds peace (and rum) at the waterfall, finally sees clearly and grabs ahold of what she truly wants.

Please accept my humble musings and I hope that perhaps this may offer something...



Just some thoughts to share that I hope will be of help and stir thought...

Dear Tony,

Thank you for your reply!  Thank you for your insights and for the connection with the previous snake dream.  Speaking of teaching, I wanted to share some amazing things that have happened and that I just discovered in relation to this dream.

First, I rather randomly ran across an opening for an instructor position at the school where I teach for a course on the art of Africa.  I have been feeling my mother so strongly this past month and have had numerous conversations where friends have spoken to me of the incredible legacy she left and have encouraged me to continue in that direction.  I culled my library recently and primarily kept my books on African art, ones she gave me, and I remember saying to myself, I wish I could just spend my time teaching about African art and go back to my roots and focus on the love I have for the art forms across the continent....!

Then, I saw the ad, applied, and was offered the job on Thursday!  So I have been in crazy mode to get ready since the semester starts next week.  Well, today, I ran across an article on the concept of "twoness" in Yoruba art.  And guess what?  It talks about two pythons (or two-headed python), and how this represents abundance and the Yoruba goddess Osumare, the rainbow goddess, that her rainbow encodes a message from Olodumare to his mother!  Alice Coltrane has a beautiful song "Galaxy for Olodumare" that I play for my students every semester.

Babatunde Lawal:
"The Yoruba deity that immediately comes to mind is Osumare, who appears as the rainbow and whose symbol is the python (ere).  Frequently represented as a pair of serpents or a single serpent with two heads, Osumare is associated with wealth and prosperity.  Curiously, the word mare ('the immense, infinite, or eternal') appears in both Osu-mare and Olodu-mare.  One folk explanation of the rainbow is that it encodes a message from Olodumare to his mother (the python?) in the underworld."

Can you believe it?  And I have been also getting the two of cups *a lot* this past week in my tarot readings for work projects, the Rider Waite deck with the two snakes twisting up the center.  I remember that I had the dream of two cobras sometime ago except that time, they killed someone....

My mother used to appear as elephants (which she loved in life)...speaking of the message to the mother, perhaps she or the angels she sent are coming as snakes, encouraging me for the teaching as you have done....There hasn't been one negative tarot reading for this job despite how nervous I feel about preparation for it, all positive, like "chance of a lifetime" positive....

And I have been wishing secretly that I could do work in everyday life that is of a spiritual nature, that I could push the transformative and helpful aspects of my work further...so your comments really resonated with me.

Ah, I'm so overwhelmed with all of this!  I am trying to breathe calmly to process the intense transformation of the last weeks.  :)  Thank you, Tony, for the forum to share these dreams and for your beautiful insights.  I have learned so much from you and your website and am so thankful for the way that sharing my dreams has helped to illuminate other connections.

Peace, light, love,


meant to write "your" right hand  (bad spelling slip!)

Just a note: do you think that the snakes could be offering support to me?  Like maybe they are angels themselves in snake form (brilliant, new life, creative form) and just chilling next to me as if to say, we're here holding space for your creativity no matter what direction you take, we will be here next to you,  you're "right hand"...like spirit friends... ?

Dear Tony and forum friends,

Snakes have visited me yet again in a dream!  I have searched resources online and here at DreamHawk for help but I really would like some guidance as to what these could be trying to tell me.  I feel they are a message of some kind because last night before sleeping, I asked the angels to send me an answer regarding an additional teaching job that I have the opportunity to apply for.  I have actually been praying to *stop* teaching at university and to be able to devote my energies to *finally* getting my art/design business to a completely self-supporting state instead of always trying to supplement (and thereby diverting energy) with teaching which I find incredibly draining and emotionally difficult.  But this position is in my field and a perfect fit and could help with some money problems.  I don't know what to do.

So I dreamed of two snakes.  They visited just before I awoke this morning.  They weren't doing anything, just laying near me.  I don't have a sense of whether they were on the ground.  It was in a non-dimensional dream space and all I feel is that they were to my right.  I had the feeling they were clearly a message to me, not part of a dream story.  They were bright and beautiful and friendly, calm, just like the energy of the snakes in my last dream but more directly friendly.  One was white with orange creamsicle color diamonds and seemed to be more prevalent, dominant, though not sure why because it was just a little larger (closer?) as the other and wasn't doing anything but just being next to me.  Maybe because it was closer to me...  (Corn snake?  Fluorescent milk snake?)  The other was white with green diamonds.  Both super bright, almost neon, and slick, fresh looking.  Thick bodies like constrictors and though they were curled up next to each other, if stretched out they'd probably be at least six feet long (5-6 inch thick) so they were substantial.

What could the angels be trying to tell me?  I just want to know if I should go for this additional teaching job even if it means I will have little time to devote to my art (especially at a crucial potentially lucrative time just before the holidays).  I need the money but I am tired of not being the completely self-sufficient artist that I dream of being...I would be happier about teaching if I knew how to do it without getting completely depleted on every level...

Thanks in advance for any connections or insights.


Dream Interpretation / Re: Snakes in lush tropical forest
« on: August 13, 2013, 06:00:14 AM »
Thank you, Tony.  I look with joy to see your face/picture with the reply and am deeply moved by your response.  Thank you so much for helping to hone in on the meaning and for your encouragement.

Dream Interpretation / Snakes in lush tropical forest
« on: July 29, 2013, 06:25:57 PM »
Dear Tony and friends,

I had a dream last night that I was walking in a lush green tropical forest similar to a place I visited as a child with my family (one of the happy, adventurous family trips) and looked similar to a Dr. Seuss book (also a happy memory), walking alone along a wide dirt path.  Trees tall, hanging vines.  I realized that everywhere in trees, bushes were snakes of all kinds, hanging like vines and entwined within every bush.  They weren't on the road, just enmeshed in the greenery, almost lazily and happily like playful energies.  I was stressed when I started to realize they were everywhere, like when you get caught in a spider web, not really so scared (there was a friendly air) but I knew that they could be dangerous.  I was more afraid of getting tangled up in them than I was of getting bitten.   

Recently I have been going through immense transformation, trying to push transformation and de-clutter and move past a feeling of stagnation in my career and love life and also deal with some new family situations/reunions that have been wonderful and distressing.  I have been doing a lot of spirit work and praying, trying to reconfigure how I see myself (often negative) and remove blockages to wealth and peace.  I asked the angels to send me a message in my dream, a friendly one, not something to scare me.

I am open to spirit guides speaking to me through dreams and in the last month have had another one with a large multi-colored snake (light teal, bright red, beige) that was also not harmful.  I know we are in the year of the snake and also I am in the process of trying to let go of someone I love dearly who is born in the year of the snake with whom there have been issues of trust.  Many of my concerns stem from feeling that I am out of place in this city where I have been for years and also out of place/not supported by the people/groups with whom I originally aligned myself.  Overall, nowhere/no one to turn to.  Yet the snakes were....friendly?....or rather, they were just doing what snakes do.  The feeling was that they were just hanging out, not really paying attention to me.  The danger was that I was in *their* territory or that the only danger was if *I* got myself tangled in them.  Otherwise, they were just doing what snakes do, enjoying the beautiful environment.  It felt fresh.  At the same time, there was a pretty clear, wide dirt road running through and the trees were tall so the area around where I was walking was clear, not easy to get tangled with the snakes, and clearly an environment that was also for humans, not like I was infringing on their territory, just that one was aware in that space how much nature was in charge.

Thank you for any insights or guidance on what this could mean.

Peace, light, love,


Dear Tony,

Thank you so much for your reply.  I didn't visit your site until today so just saw your reply from March.  I truly appreciate your insights, link and suggestion about power dreaming.  I will continue to research and investigate this.

Peace, light, love,


Dream Interpretation / Sand flies bite palm, refugees in W. Africa
« on: March 16, 2013, 04:10:51 PM »
Dear Tony,

I had a dream last night with a few things that stood out and I'm hoping for some guidance.

I was in W. Africa and we were in a long guesthouse with many rooms and a common open-air corridor that had a lot of enamel buckets for water and dark wooden tables like found in rural areas.  Concrete, dark as with age and use.  There were a lot of refugees coming through, arriving in groups of maybe 20 each day, a lot of kids.  We were trying to find places for everyone, maybe I was a refugee, too, but had been there a long time?  I was in the middle...had some responsibility as a caretaker but also not the one "in charge"...  I saw a group of children of all ages walking single file following one of the other caretakers, singing along the grassy park that bordered the guesthouse.  It was strange because the grass was so perfect and I associate that with parks in U.S. where there is enough water to sustain that kind of manicured lawn, also usually such parks for privileged, not common folk.  I saw some other children taking a bath in a beautiful concrete "tub" set into the edge of the compound overlooking an incredible landscape.  I peeked in to make sure they were okay and felt like I was eavesdropping so I left.  I thought about how the landscape was like a priceless view and how the poor in rural areas often have access but then lose to rich....(I love landscapes and am very soothed by them whether rural or city...)  I checked in on another room and saw a man sleeping alone, exhausted.  I thought it was okay that he wasn't sharing the room (there weren't nearly enough for everyone) because he was so tired and it was also during the daytime. 

I was walking in the corridor and a sand fly (large for its species) bit me on the palm of my left hand (on Mount of Venus).  It really hurt and as I was trying to brush it away, another one came and bit me right next to the other one.  I could see them both on my palm as I looked down.  The pain from the second one was terrible, affected my whole arm.  And it was like it inserted its barbed tongue into my hand and then was stuck but it wanted to stay there stinging me, almost a vindictive energy from the fly who seemed bigger than his friend.  I tried to pick it off or smash it or do something to stop the terrible burning sensation, afraid if I smashed it would make his barbed tongue stay in my hand, like a piece of glass, when you move it, it just hurts more and more and causes more damage.  I woke up from the pain.

I can offer some information about my waking life but I don't want to alter the symbols....I have been going through a very sad breakup with someone much older than me who believes in a much less attached way of being in relationship than I do....I have been trying to let go but feel there has been no closure.  I have been in pain but also learning a lot about myself in the healing process.  Also, I was raised in W. Africa and the scene in the dream related a lot to my parents' life work of helping others.  I have been studying the heart chakra and trying to meditate on the color green....  An earlier part of the dream I had been visiting a college friend who lives far away and with whom relations have been distant and strained.  We had always dreamed about where we would be at 40 and then she forgot my birthday. 

Anyway....just some thoughts....Thank you for any guidance on this.  Thank you for the beauty you bring with your beautiful and amazing site.

Dream Interpretation / Re: Ganesh
« on: October 14, 2012, 04:59:03 PM »
Dear Tony,

Thank you so much for your reply and insights.  I also really appreciate the link...you are absolutely right and the guidance there has been most helpful.  Thank you *so* very much.

I wanted to share a new dream I had last night.  I was in a landscape like rural Michigan (lower not U.P.) with rolling hills and large man-made pond in the distance.  Sunset but overcast.  My friend's restaurant was located there and I was in the front area/driveway in front of restaurant.  A fancy place, very chic, wealthy people would travel to get there because it was worth it.  In the front there was a statue of Ganesh upraised on a concrete pedestal in the middle of a circular pool.  His figure was lounging, not sitting up as usually seen, and in his hand (?)/in front of his torso was a big floral display of white and yellow flowers including white Queen Anne's lace.  Artful arrangement.  He seemed relaxed.  I was happy to see the flowers and thought they were a good sign.  My friend was there in the driveway welcoming guests who had just arrived in a big black SUV with tinted windows.

Some background: I have a friend who owns an Indian restaurant whose logo is an elephant.  She is very dear and spiritual and has been asking me to come over to help with design.  Also, my mother passed away 12 years ago (just had anniversary though I have been feeling so guilty for forgetting the actual day, remembered leading up to it and afterwards) and she spent the last few months of her life in a hospice in rural Michigan.  It was a beautiful and peaceful place and in the dream it looked just like that.  Also, my mother loved elephants (and giraffes and other tropical animals) and a couple weeks after she passed, she came to me with Ganesh in a dream to reassure me.  It was very clear...  Also, I have been designing flowers for a wedding and it has been a very stressful experience dealing with members of the team but a great opportunity for me and the bride is very sweet, child of a client of mine.  We had discussed using Queen Anne's lace native to this part of the country, and I love weeds that are actually flowers...see beauty in what others cast aside...

Today is the new moon...

Perhaps all of these things just came together and it's no more significant than that....I want to believe that there is a message in here for me...perhaps I am blind to it...I hope you may be able to help me understand...  I have been struggling with life purpose, feeling the need to make radical change and yet not seeing a way and needing comfort, to know that I am not alone. 

Thank you so much for any insight you may have.  Your vision and your time are a blessing.

Dream Interpretation / Re: Snake dream interpretation
« on: September 06, 2012, 06:46:01 PM »
Hi!  I saw your post and thought maybe I could over some thoughts though I am just a fellow poster.  :)

What comes to mind is you are part of a fellowship (of women?), you are a leader in this group, a protector and caretaker.  You are not afraid of the same things that others in your circle are so that means that your approach is different from theirs.  You see the beauty and potential in things, you see the snake as blessing (that snakes often are in dreams) but others' fear causes them to have different reaction/approach which is negative.  You still save the day, you take charge with confidence in your approach.  The situation still may bite you because it just is what it is, that is its nature (beauty and bite) but your leadership is tied to a desire for acknowledgment (i.e. I was being respectful unlike others so why did it bite me and not them).  Often the one who does take charge and does have the fearless, radical or holistic view is the one who encounters trouble.

On bus you are still at helm (I see the painting of George Washington crossing the Delaware, standing in boat, others seated) but aware that you are alone as leader, maybe not as prepared for the task as you thought.  Could situation where you were in a group and thought you were being helpful and leading but you got negative result and felt alone in it without support and realized you had neglected your own protection.

Please accept my humble thoughts on your dream.  :)  I hope that this offers some help or at least does not cause any issue.

Peace and light,

Dream Interpretation / RE: cobras and whales
« on: September 06, 2012, 06:35:13 PM »
Dear Tony (and friends),

I am hoping for some guidance on a recent dream.  I was on a beach by the ocean and the view I had in the dream was looking out of my own eyes (as opposed to seeing it/myself from above, etc.)  It was a grey, cloudy day, no rain but one of those semi-misty days, overcast.  (I tend to really like that color of sky.)  The ocean was grey and water churning up some big, deep waves in places.  Water was deep.  I was looking out to the water and could see my younger brother (looked like he was age 10--he is now in his 30s) out in the water with someone else, could just see upper part of their bodies and little heads, off in distance, in water though somehow they were standing up so it must not have been so deep? 

To the left I saw the tail of what I believe was a humpback whale, grey and huge.  I was worried only because of the size in comparison to my brother and the other person--their heads looked like dots comparatively.  But I could see/sense/feel that my brother was excited to see the whale--we all were.  It felt harmless and beautiful.  He turned toward it in the water, like "Oh look!"  Then another whale tail appeared to the upper right of where my brother and the other person were, and the tail flapped over them and put them under the water and I didn't see them anymore.  I wonder now why I wasn't more upset because didn't that mean they were drowned by the whale? 

But I was concerned with what I saw to my right on the beach:  a beached whale--think it was the same one--*split in half* as if it had been snapped!  Whitish-pink guts spilling out, cracked in half like a wishbone.  I was so upset by the gore and felt that it was my fault (maybe?) the whale had died.  It looked like an attack; this was not something that could have happened naturally like that.  Deliberate.  Then again, dead it could not harm anyone (such as my brother).

In the same dream, I was on a dusty path and saw a large cobra in front of me maybe about 6-10 feet away.  It looked like it was real but huge and also kind of like a drawing of a cobra.  It bit someone who was ahead of me, I couldn't see them but I saw it lunge and bit and the person died.  Then it was hovering in the air with only about one loop, maybe two coils in its body.  There was a second cobra to my right, out of eyesight at first, but it appeared to take the place of the first one.  They were like twins, perhaps aspects of each other, related?  I wasn't so scared as long as I kept my distance but I kept in mind that it had killed someone just a little while before.

I would appreciate any guidance you may have on this.  I've recently been going through a lot of difficulty in my career (stress about whether I should be doing this at all, whether I am good enough, why inter-personal relationships and interactions are so stressful and often unsuccessful).  Also stress around family with my dad and brother, feeling I can never be good enough or make up for mistakes of the past, but also angry that he seems to judge me and forgets things like my 40th birthday (but texts on the same day with some inane comment).  We used to be "twins" in a sense but he has made it clear that we are no longer close and largely to do with unspoken things that I have done wrong.  Also having concerns in a love relationship.

So maybe this info helps, maybe not...

Thank you!  Peace, light, love

Dream Interpretation / Re: Strange messages for us ALL
« on: December 28, 2011, 06:27:29 PM »
Wow, the one from the Dictator is amazing!  Thank you so much for sharing this.

Dream Interpretation / RE: spider nest and mutation dreams
« on: December 28, 2011, 06:01:06 PM »
Dear Tony,

I'm wondering if you or anyone else here might have some insight into a short dream I just had recently.  There is another related one that happened also with spiders in the same location which I'll mention first in case you think it has any bearing on the recent one.

It took place outside of a small restaurant in the Northeast U.S. (a part of the country I consider to be "home"), mountains in the distance, a peaceful location and similar to a place I worked for many years.  I had a dream some months ago that I was getting out of a pickup truck in the gravel parking lot at this same location and almost ran into a huge (2 feet oval/sphere) spider nest that was hollow and spun very solidly.  (Note: I do not drive but here I was getting out of the drivers seat from an old dark color Chevy, the kind I always said I'd buy if I moved out West.)

The web looked like a birds nest, oval, 1-2 feet diameter with a hole on the side (like for letting birds in except it was for the spider).  A couple of small brownish spiders came out and I was looking at the "nest/web" because it was so beautifully done (I am a sculptor by trade) but was warning someone else not to get caught in it when they got out of their car.  Fascinated, knowing it was somehow not "out to get me" but it's nature (i.e. web, spider bites) necessitated being scared, protective.

So recently, I was in the same location again in a dream and dreamed that I saw a black spider crawling on the sidewalk and it zapped out it's tongue and ate a bug.  The spider itself was maybe about an inch big but it's tongue--which just looked like a long streak of black--was easily eight times it's length.  (It reminded me of those frogs that dart out their tongues really fast to eat bugs.)  I wasn't really afraid of it but I recognized that it was kind of aggressive with the tongue and all.  Then my younger sister and I were looking down on the sidewalk and we were watching what I thought was the same spider except that it looked completely different.  It was larger--maybe 2 inches diameter--brown, spotted and ridged (like camouflage for a rocky locale) and reminded me of one of those seashells that is a textured sphere with hole in the top.  So then we looked in amazement as it grew a whole other body of the same shape, like when cells mutate and go from one to two.  Maybe some connection with breasts?  (A very, very close relative died of breast cancer.)  It was just sitting there strangely, alive but like two hollow bodies made of one.  I was afraid--because it looked pretty wild and crusty--but we just watched in fascination and then I woke up.

The dream felt very significant.

Thank you (and all!) for any insights.


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