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Dream Interpretation / Dream Image
« on: November 27, 2017, 02:24:38 PM »
Black dog lying in front of or against a black door.  It looked like the inside of a door and not the outside.  I could not tell if the dog was sleeping or dead.

(In reality I have moved into a home where the owner owns a large black dog.  It is a Bouvier des Flandres and yes it was the one in the dream.  I have never liked dogs and have been especially afraid of big ones.  I love THIS dog.

In the past I have dreamt about having a big black dog on a leash.  At the time I thought of it as having my aggression on a leash.  And yes I have feared others aggression...and my own death from it.  I have lied, pretended, sought to please, and abandoned others because of my fear of aggression.

I am not sure how this relates to the door.)

Dream Interpretation / Trio
« on: July 10, 2017, 09:09:49 AM »
During the same night....

1)  I am on a stage with other women.  We are all wearing womens clothes, yet I feel and I know I am a man in my body.  I feel like, all these other women, I am expected to wear the clothes and play a role.  A woman next to me says what is that smell?  Your clothes smell like lavender.  She says "You have to tell them."  I know I am expected to sing...the woman on my right is singing...I think I am her understudy possibly.  I take out a mouth guard I am wearing and I cab feel that I have all my teeth and I start singing "Renuzit" which is the name of an air freshener brand.

2)  I am in a seminar like room full of women...a woman asks the group what self - esteem has to do with myth...I tell her that I was raised to play a role...be a caretaker...I had a large extended blood related family...and now I am by myself and all I want to be is a lucky star.  The point I was trying to make is that, for me, being a caretaker did nothing for my self-esteem.  It was actually detrimental to it. I bought into it, played the role and now refuse to play it anymore.

Next I am in my parents backyard sitting at the picnic table...I am repeating what I told the women to my father...on the table there is a Sunday New York Times and the magazine section's cover is back and mostly gold.  On the cover it says Self - Esteem and Myth.

3)  I am in a Gynecologists office.  I lay on the table and have my knees bent but closed together.  The female nurse or doctor puts an ultrasound device on my stomach.  Instead of two ovaries I see my hypothalamus.  It is a beautiful light to medium blue to dark blue color.  I know the hypothalamus is considered by some to be the third eye. I ask about my ovaries and the nurse says let me test them...she goes to some small device and an oval indicator lights up yellow and then turns the same blue color.  And the second one I ask?  Same thing.  I get up from the table and a woman who looks like a younger version of myself...thin, long blond hair, a gold nurses outfit...turns and says "follow me."  She gestures with her hand and finger to come closer and follow her.

She points me to some spilled liquid on a counter next to a faucet.  It looks like water and coffee.



Dream Interpretation / Stuck on an Image
« on: May 07, 2017, 03:24:02 PM »
I look down at my right leg and it looks skinnier than it really is.  I am possibly wearing a support stocking or my skin is folded around my knee.  Instead of a knee I see a big black eye looking up at me...it looks round like a cow's eye...so I think the leg might be a cows leg.  Lately though I have had a few dreams with the eye of a black horse.

Before the image came up I heard "The baby is collapsing into the lap."

Dream Interpretation / Drive
« on: April 27, 2017, 07:25:19 AM »
I am driving on a highway in the fast lane on the right, but not too fast.  On my left, I see a gold car with a woman driving ahead of me.  As I speed up and am parallel to her, I look at her and see myself.  Up ahead I see the road curving to the left and on the right another highway with cars going in the opposite direction.

Next I walk towards a long buffet table of food.  It looks like Indian food and I take a little of the different foods I like.  I walk past a two person booth.  On the right a dark boy and on the left a dark older male.  The latter does not have a lot on his plate and I ask "did you not get enough to eat?" and I give him some of my food and he starts to eat it.  The boy on the right says "my father did not want me to drive."

On my way out I stop at the hostess or host table as I see a small container of shiny silver jewelry.  I touch the jewelry and look at the pieces and walk away leaving it there.

Next I am walking out of the buffet room, I can feel the boy behind me.  We walk outdoors and then I am driving.  On my left a large wooden building with stained glass windows.  The boy asks "what is that?".  I say "that is the BaHai....we will have to go there someday."

(I know of the Bahai faith and that it might also mean brother).

I am not sure but I feel like the dream is about my father not wanting me to control my own direction/life...that some men are also treated like that by their fathers...I lost myself letting others drive me...their will to power over others...yet I have also been guilty of that.  Power struggle.  I like being alone now...not in that struggle.  Anything you might be able to add would be appreciated Tony.

Dream Interpretation / The Vast Ocean Before Me
« on: March 19, 2017, 06:21:45 PM »
At the beginning of last nights dream my own voice said to me "And who is choosing this?."  I answered out loud in my dream  "I am choosing this for myself."

I find myself in an isolation room.  The windows are glass.  There are light colored male and female figures trying to get my attention and trying to get in my room.  One large male beats his head against the glass above me...the glass shatters in that one spot.  The figures turn black and I reach my hands up through the broken glass and I am choking him.

Next I am in what first looks like a public ring...like a gladiator arena...there are black figures physically attacking me...much taller and larger than me...but shapeless...I deliberately fight each one...one by one...I do not see if I have killed each one...but each disappears from my view.  After they have been defeated...I take a breath and look around.  I seem to be inside The Wall surrounding the northern border of the Seven Kingdoms, as in The Game of Thrones.  The gate opens and I do not feel afraid.

Next I am high above the sparkling dark blue ocean...the waves folding towards me.  It is magnificent.  Then an unseen or invisible hand shows me that the picture is like the inside of an open book with its spine flat...the two pages open from the inside, near the spine, and start to peel back (which will eventually open to 4 pages)...revealing the hint of black underneath.

I just think this is a marvelous dream and thought I would share!

In my real life, I have been fighting the lower self of others...so I do not succumb along with them.  The Wall is guarding my (real) or highest Self.

"Night gathers, and now my watch begins. It shall not end until my death. I shall take no wife, hold no lands, father no children. I shall wear no crowns and win no glory. I shall live and die at my post. I am the sword in the darkness. I am the watcher on the walls. I am the shield that guards the realms of men. I pledge my life and honor to the Night's Watch, for this night and all the nights to come."

―The Night's Watch Oath

Dream Interpretation / I Am Married to a Heart
« on: November 08, 2016, 11:45:33 AM »
The only image in the dream was a Polaroid photograph.  In it the picture is of a large person...a grey or dark head and a glowing white body.  In the person's right hand, they are holding a polaroid picture...it is all black.

In the dream I hear "you are married to a heart."

Dream Interpretation / Skull
« on: October 04, 2016, 12:52:07 PM »
A bright, light blue (almost neon), three dimensional skull.

I did not see anything about a skull in particular in the dictionary.

Dream Interpretation / Dead or Sleeping Black Something
« on: September 23, 2016, 08:48:23 AM »
A black fluffy or feathery animal lying on a black table.  I see either a shiny black beak or claw poking out of it.

(The day prior to the dream, I had given someone some advice on a health related Facebook page.  Immediately after writing it I wondering if I was rude, if the recipient would be offended or upset. I felt anxiety and panic.  I decided I should apologize to him. The next day, the day of the dream, before I had a chance to follow up with him, he had sent a message to thank me.  I realized this is a pattern with me, probably the result of passive aggressive parents.)

Dream Interpretation / Male Domination and Working with Women
« on: August 30, 2016, 03:35:15 AM »
I had a dream last night and am feeling that it is somewhat connected to one I had last week.

I have also been thinking that what I wanted was not in or duplicating my parent's house.

Last week, one of my dreams told me that a source of conflict for me is the way men see themselves as compared to the way I see them.  The dream told me that generally men see themselves as being above women and I see myself self as being equal to male authority figures and above most men.

I was getting on an elevator and a group of men, also getting on, told me they were going to a floor above mine.  I got into an elevator alone and a man passed me without looking at me.  I went to the basement, focusing on the desktop and not paying attention to other men or the environment.  I am pretty empathic/intuitive and sometimes telepathic, picking up and hearing what others are really thinking.

I do understand that the dream was also about the level of attention that men do not give to each other or me, possibly.  Am I looking for a level of attention that men do not even give to each other, nevermind someone "below" them?

One on one relating has always been the most satisfying for me as well as the most painful.

It was a helpful dream and I am still processing it.  I will pause for now and add the second dream in a bit.

Ok.  In the latest dream I am working in an office with all these grey men...but do not see myself as part of their group.  In one scene or picture I am sitting on the edge of the group and in another I am sitting at the end of a long narrow office...no windows.  There are men working around me, yet we all do financial analysis and write reports and do not interact with each other very much.  At one point, I overhear a conversation and volunteer that I have a copy of the SIC code (standard industrial classification) codes in my desk if they need them. 

In looking at myself in relation to the dream I realize that I like to have information that no one else has and that providing needed information was a way for me to get attention from men.  That did not mean they valued me, however.  Disappointing.

In last nights dream I am walking toward a row of 3 or 4 desks lined up against a bank of windows.  Everything is white.  It is for women who are working together and my desk is in the middle.  As I walk towards my desk...I see than someone has put several flowering plants on my desk.  They are between dead and hardy.  A Christmas Cactus that is dried up and needs some water if it is to bloom, an orchid...both are particularly tricky
plants to care for.  There are others...I think I see a lady slipper...I pick it up and say "there are too many."  I look around and notice that the other desks each have one plant and there are also a few scattered on the ledge next to the windows.  The plants are colored...everything else is white.

A woman comes up to me and hands me an old squared off table leg or post...the finish has been worn off.  I am holding it and another woman hands me a handwritten note in pencil...it says something like FA 377 or FU 377.  It is where I am to go to deliver it.

Next I enter a large hall and there are items on display for sale.  Everything is grey or dark...there is jewelry...beauty products....candles...incense...nothing appeals to me...there is nothing I need or want.  I go further into the room and there is a table with what looks like a Thanksgiving buffet on it.

I see a meatloaf and a turkey.  They are made of chocolate and are colored like the real meats.  A woman comes up next to me and starts pulling off some of the turkey and eating it saying "this tastes like collard greens."  I think this is ridiculous and unappetizing.  I move further down the table and turn left following the l shaped table.

There is a white chocolate sculpture made into a woven looking basket.  It is gorgeous!

That is what I want I think.  It is what it appears to be.  It is also my favorite kind of chocolate!

Lots of good information...a lot to process.  No rush for a response.

Dream Interpretation / Last Night's Dream
« on: August 19, 2016, 12:35:01 AM »
Not really a dream.  In my own voice "Die while you live creating yourself, my dear."

Dream Interpretation / Sternum
« on: August 08, 2016, 10:18:06 AM »
I woke up in the middle of the night and for some reason thought about how some people target others for feeling good, wanting to feel good, do good and/or be successful.

A voice said to me "You just removed four or five wounds from your sternum."

Dream Interpretation / Grey Color In Dreams
« on: August 04, 2016, 12:25:51 AM »
I think I figured this out in terms of my own dreams.  Grey can also be interpreted as not positive or negative, not white or black, not yes or no, but unclear and even convoluted, to an extreme.  Trying to separate light from dark might be impossible.  Easier to create my own light.

Since I figured this out I have had more color in my dreams!

Dream Interpretation / Seeing a child get killed.
« on: July 23, 2016, 11:05:11 PM »
The night before last I dreamt that I was a bride.  I was very tall and was looking down at my gown, a long satin white dress. I remember caressing the fabric with my hands and smoothing it below my waist with my palms.  On my right next to me and walking slightly in front of me a small grey child.  We were walking together somewhere.

(I was surprised by the dream as I am usually not the bride).

Last night...I was in a store...I was cleaning the display cases...organizing the displays...there were also round racks of colorful clothes...but everything else was grey.  Someone put some, what looked like gorgeous gemstone earrings into one of the cases.  They had stopped to show them to me.  I cleaned the case and once I did that I looked into it and the earrings were grey ugly clay.  They were not how they were originally presented to me.

I leave the display case and walk off the sales floor into what looks like an apartment behind the store.  Again everything is black, grey, old furniture, old grey sink.  There is a huge hole in a wall, torn wallpaper around it and an old curtain and rod dangling from above it.  I move a old fireplace in front of the hole to try and make the place look a bit better.  It does not do much good and I feel incredibly sad.

All of a sudden I have this child with me.  The back of his or her head hurts at the base of his neck.  I am feeling his or her overwhelming grief.  Sometimes I am the adult and sometimes I feel I am him or his feelings.  He is telling me that he saw a child get killed by a pitch fork in a field that was being sown.  The child who was killed was grey and the adult man who killed the child was grey.   He/I stopped speaking.  Everyone, the other adults, were worried that he would tell, that he might say something.

Next I am looking in an orphanage or a place where children were abandoned....it was a huge room with cots and children in the cots spread out in an orderly fashion...everything was grey...the children the cots the floors the walls the ceiling...everything.  I wake one of the children up.  I am the adult and on a feeling level I am also the child.  We walk out of the building.

I turn around and I see this huge white house.  A door in the middle of the flat front, four windows on each side two up and two down.  There are a small childs clothes, colorful, on hangers outside a few of the windows.
I realize that I was in the house.  I slowly back up from the house and it is getting smaller and smaller.

Dream Interpretation / Stairs
« on: July 04, 2016, 06:57:45 AM »
A set of gold stairs and on each step a levitating translucent light orange orb.

Dream Interpretation / Vagina?
« on: June 30, 2016, 12:35:52 PM »
Heard in the dream "Doctor, Big Decision"

I am looking sort of sideways and down toward this woman who is stuck in some sort of a white pod.  She has shorter white hair and I can not see below her waist.  Above her waist she is thrashing forward and back as if she is having an orgasm or she is trying to get unstuck...I can not tell which. When she is done thrashing she collapses forward.

I climb in the pod closest to me as if it is now my turn for something.  I lie down and spread my legs open.  Someone comes and leans over my genitals.  I can not see them or feel what they are doing.  I feel afraid they have a knife and am sure they are cutting an upside down v over my clitoris.

Then I am looking at a clitoris and vagina.  Normal colored.  Last week I had a dream that the vagina was black and my skin blue.

Maybe the dream is addressing me as if I am my own doctor?

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