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Questions about dreams / Re: Golden Class Ring
« on: November 02, 2017, 01:28:03 AM »
I just now figured it out. It has to do with my mother.  I need to go see her or I will regret it.

I hope I can manage to get there.  plane, train, automobiles.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=An2a1_Do_fc

Dad knows me better than anyone and the things I might regret for a life time.

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Questions about dreams / Re: Golden Class Ring
« on: November 02, 2017, 01:21:25 AM »
I apologize Tony for taking up so much space. Sometimes I think about that song, the cat is in the cradle and the silver spoon.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSwL9deXNW8

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Questions about dreams / Re: Golden Class Ring
« on: November 02, 2017, 01:09:12 AM »
Tony , you reminded me of something. Our lives did take a turn at one point when I was young that changed our whole life. At the time, Dad had enough friends and was well liked that he had been offered a land deal by some successful men who had the means.

We had a tragedy at the time which couldn't be helped with my mother. She developed a complication with her life and went into a total break down of sorts.

That set families apart, and also caused dad to back out of the deal. He told them he couldn't do it without telling the truth about what was going on. So, they backed out and closed the deal.

If they had made the deal, Dad and I would have spent all our time together raising cattle, horses, and farming.  Instead, we sold the farm and divided it with the lawyers getting part of it.

I joined the service and our relationship was only a phone call on Sunday. After many years, I was able to spend his last couple of years with him.

It wasn't because we didn't have the best of intentions but I left when I was 19 to find some occupation but kept a close relationship when i could make it home or talk on the phone. Absence makes the heart grow fonder I guess of the way life led both of us.

but I guess the hard reality of life was always to be self independent and take care of your own things.

what you said reminded me of some things I had forgotten.

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Questions about dreams / Re: Golden Class Ring
« on: November 01, 2017, 02:49:47 AM »
We also enjoyed a lot of music together and that song didn't add up either.

The class of 57 had its dreams.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RLr_C8QqPWg

My dad actually taught me music.

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Questions about dreams / Re: Golden Class Ring
« on: November 01, 2017, 02:26:51 AM »
I never had a class ring. I never saw something so brilliant and perfect. I couldn't help but admire its brilliance and beauty . It was brilliant gold with almost some sort of brilliant gold stone that shines so much it was something I had never seen or possessed in my life. I think the class ring represents dad and I never worried about class status or anything like that to gain our self importance. We didn't need material things to know that.

I do have a copy of the birth certificate and Dad told me I was born in a Catholic hospital and delivered by nuns. He said they were so strict that they wouldn't let him in to see me, but he politely disregarded their rules based on the over riding rule, that he had a right to be there.

What happened when I was 5. That is a good one. We were living on the ole Clemens place and I was in kindergarten. We lived in the rural part of the country. I had walked out to the school bus, the driver opened those doors and I stepped up a couple of the steps and was facing him in the driver seat. He asked me, where are you going. I said I am going to school. He responded, how old are you. I said 5 and held up my hand with 5 fingers.

He said you need to wait another year until you are 6.

but actually I now remember I was not old enough to be on school bus, so my parents must have been driving me to the kindergarten building. It was an old odd building that used to be used for a feed store for livestock or something back in the pioneer days. It was an ancient building.

I was a country kid and something happened there. I had peed my pants and was hiding behind a door. I think everyone else was having some event or drinking kool aid or cookies. I could hear all of them searching for me. When they finally found me it was like an entire crowd was laughing hysterically at me. There he is, we found him, and he has peed his pants. vivid memory for 5.

I think that may have been my last day of kindergarten.

At 5 also a lot of other things happened.

The weird thing is..when I was watching the news yesterday it said, Gold raised by 5.90 an ounce. 

So, I am still wondering about all of it, if I will die at 59, if I will hit the lottery, if it was a kind way of saying why I always had certain fears as I grew older. 

Also, I remember my parents were married on Halloween almost 59 years ago. I don't believe it was 59 though. I am 54, my sister is 56. I don't know when they started dating or what year they were married.

The class of 59 gets a gold ring. I remember in the dream, do you understand what I am saying. but as usual, I was too busy talking or saying what is it. He actually said something that was too deep for me to discern. i feel like I either block it out or I am not able to understand very in depth concepts sometimes and just pass them by.

We had a very deep and close relationship. It has to be based on me not understanding something he tried to share.


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Questions about dreams / Golden Class Ring
« on: October 30, 2017, 03:24:50 AM »
My dad is passed away but in the dream he gave me a beautiful gold class ring with a shiny glass stone. It said 59. I asked him what it means and he was trying to communicate but I wasn't understanding what he was saying.

It was like he was telling me something about when I was born that I didn't know about. Then I thought it meant I was actually 5 years older than I really was. He said that he was poor and couldn't afford to keep me when I was young so he lied about my age to draw some sort of money benefits.

I don't think that is true, but it was odd and I think this dream will all of a sudden mean something to me once I understand it.

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Dream Interpretation / Re: the brain and other things
« on: July 26, 2017, 06:01:40 AM »
She has her secret hiding places, and I have mine I guess. but after this incident I revealed all mine, and it wasn't there.

is there secret hiding places we can even hide from ourselves?

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Dream Interpretation / the brain and other things
« on: July 26, 2017, 05:58:28 AM »
My wife and I lost our keys within a 2 hour time frame.

She came back from the store and asked me to help her carry some items.

She dumped her purse in the car on accident.

She claims that after I helped her carry in everything , that she handed them to me.

I don't remember it.

It was our anniversary and I had taken off work. I was due to go in to work in a few hours.

Did she lose them? She gets busy and forgets? or did I subconscionsly lose them on purpose and put them where even I could not find?

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Anger or Temper
« on: March 06, 2016, 01:39:04 AM »
Tony, do people have stuffed anger? My wife loses her temper quite often and I often tell myself to try and understand why rather than react. It is part manipulation and sometimes she really is angry. She knows this herself and she won't say but she knows she lost her temper. Well, I have that too, but I stuff it because I know it is not acceptable. Maybe by seeing it as a beast that is freaky, i could view it that way and it helps me to put it into perspective.

I am not making this up. That was what I woke up with this morning.

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Dream Interpretation / Anger or Temper
« on: March 06, 2016, 01:18:52 AM »
I had a difficult dream and I don't want to say the part right before the last part because i think it is related anyway.

I was at a big event. There were a lot of people there I knew. None of them could talk to me though. I went up to tell them what was bothering me but none of them could answer me. I remember being upset about something but then I got mixed up and went and told someone about it.

There were a lot of people and so I kept on walking but when I went around the corner of the building a long beast that looked like a lama sort of, only it was 3 times longer, it was lower to the ground, it had a bent back, a big head, two big horns, and cloven hoof. It seemed to have a casual disposition although it was certainly something I had never seen before. It was casually strolling around with all these people and only I and two people noticed it. There was a white haired old man who was frightened of it. The animal was unaffected, but I looked at it and noticed that, the old guys worry was that he knew what this was and that everyone should not be so casual about it. I grew up with animals so I looked at it. In my mind, I saw what he feared was that he knew its nature and that it was temperamental and maybe would not be good for this crowd. But then, the young fellow walking along side him was not worried at all. He smiled and talked to that animal or beast and said, Temper, calm  down.

anyway, it was sort of like a nightmare and I sort of felt to myself about how damaging it is when people lose their temper. They don't know it is an ugly beast , even amongst their friends and loved ones. So weird.

totally freaked me out in  a way, but then I had some coffee. I was worried about myself and tempers an all those things.

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General Discussion / Re: Taking the time to read and think and focus
« on: February 01, 2015, 12:22:55 AM »
I was trying to articulate something and i didn't quite do it. You are fine Anna though. I am not sure I understand it myself.

"What I was thinking is a lot of people simply don't try to understand more than just what they see on the surface. So, the more you gain understandings yourself, it seems you become more isolated or not understanding of others. I don't think it is bad or unsolveable because ultimately your goal is to relate to others and help them. If you have not advanced to that stage though, you could find yourselves with various shallow peoples."

maybe it is quiet efforts we take sometimes

I think I was thinking about the difficulty of taking on the difficult task of deeper understandings. Of course, this fits with my personality because I am capable of doing it but I don't want to because it seems painful to me for some reason. Maybe it all fits that way. You are interesting and I enjoy it. Of course, don't let me change anything about you.

Tony says language is hard to understand. That is true. I love horses. I understood every word they said in this song, but it is odd some of the words they use. When I was young, our father had a horse who was a wild bronco. He was thrown and broke his arm. He ended up selling him to a fellow, Jim Shoulders. He became a world famous cowboy. The horse name , we called him ole Tarzan.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gu51oBUuJl0

a regular outlaw

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General Discussion / Re: Taking the time to read and think and focus
« on: January 31, 2015, 10:11:16 AM »
Thank you Irina. Of course I like a compliment. I enjoyed your music video.   ;)

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General Discussion / Re: Taking the time to read and think and focus
« on: January 29, 2015, 05:14:00 AM »
I wanted to add something. It might be relevant or not. What I was thinking is a lot of people simply don't try to understand more than just what they see on the surface. So, the more you gain understandings yourself, it seems you become more isolated or not understanding of others. I don't think it is bad or unsolveable because ultimately your goal is to relate to others and help them. If you have not advanced to that stage though, you could find yourselves with various shallow peoples. Now. What I want to tell you is I am always the peacemaker. I learned this by accident a few times when I was young. There was a large football game during recess with over a 100 kids playing. Something happened and it turned into a large dispute. Before I realized what was going on, I was standing with the football in my hand listening to both sides present their various grievances and arguments. They were angry. I never thought about it at the time, but it scared me later. How come I was out there, I had no special qualification. It happened many other times in life too. So, now. Anna, Irina you will be fine. It is fun talking to people isn't it and Tony is wonderful.

I am country boy and like music. Don't worry bout me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_lQuRQ8YU8


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General Discussion / Re: Taking the time to read and think and focus
« on: January 27, 2015, 11:45:55 PM »
I forgot to tell you, I am not reading that stuff because I want to. My wife is sick with anxiety. She just now read a plaque on our wall which was the prayer of St Francis of Assisi. Make me an instrument of your peace, Where there is hatred, let me show love, Where there is injury, pardon. Where there is doubt, faith, Where there is despair, hope. Where there is darkness, light. Where there is sadness, joy. Divine , grant that i may not so much seek to be consoled, but to console others. Not so much to be understood, but to understand others. It is giving we receive, when we pardon, we are pardoned, it is in dying we learn to truly live.

Now she is back saying, how do I do it by myself, how do I cure myself.

Tough one.

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General Discussion / Re: Taking the time to read and think and focus
« on: January 27, 2015, 11:29:37 PM »
I forgot to say, I appreciate Tony and will admit I have not taken the time to read and digest some of the material. Thanks Tony though, I will try and can only handle things as I am able to discern them.

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