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Healing Dreams / Re: Dream incubation
« on: April 29, 2020, 02:29:39 PM »
I think some of the answer lies here..

Connecting to Splendour ..  :)

Healing Dreams / Dream incubation
« on: April 08, 2020, 11:23:53 PM »
Hi Tony,
I have had been trying to incubate a dream for healing for a while  to heal a medical issue. With no change,  I went on antibiotics and continued to dream incubate . I worked with the dreams a lot, being, feeling.. but I felt non the wiser and just as ill as before. So I continued each night with dream healing requests and just ended up with a ton of dreams that are just rather overwhelming  in quantity, but I wrote them all out, worked them, then looked for patterns. It was a lot of work when ill ..  but I still feel none the wiser.

Any tips?

Many Thanks  :)

Edit: well one thing, The issue is related to the kidney bladder meridian, the main issue with this meridian is lack of confidence, fear and fear of intimacy - that fits well with the first dream.
The Worst Enemies of the Bladder meridian:
Emotional stress, Extended periods of fear, terror, or panic damage the autonomic nervous system.
Cycle of Fear and the Bladder meridian:
Few things disturb our spiritual well being more than feeling we have little or no energy at any level, accompanied with a sense of internal panic and raciness, and feel unable to meet life on its terms. We may freeze in fear or thrash about in fear, imagining ourselves alone, isolated, beyond help, and facing a terrifying future. Everything and everyone seems a threat. We  wish to hide, needing to rest, a longing for the hibernation that could restore our reserves. We become preoccupied with self-preservation and, as our resources diminish still further, our will to live diminishes as well.

Dream Interpretation / Re: Bossy woman and crystals
« on: April 08, 2020, 10:55:39 PM »

That is such an important piece of writing!!
I wish this was disseminated widely.

It's exactly the issue and also a good solution..articulation of an important conversation, that almost never takes place.

I am lucky in that I was always too poor, and had to work with minimal help because I could rarely afford it, when I had it, I spent it on healing. But were I well off, I would have wasted a great deal more money. I would feel very angry right now if as well as wasting my time, I'd also lost a lot of money. Still ones last pennies, are important pennies.

I read a lot about cult dynamics in recent years, I would say all the practitioners and organisations I sought help from in the early years, displayed strong cult-like traits and attitudes. The vulnerable are dependent on meeting healers with integrity, but by nature of being vulnerable, the opposite often happens, unfortunately. 

That's why dreamwork is the great escape from abuse and a vital safe arena for healing.

Dream Interpretation / Re: Bossy woman and crystals
« on: March 22, 2020, 10:43:06 AM »
Hi Tony,
Thank you for this reply. I hope you are well.
After a few years of incessant nightmares, they finally subsided, so I was able to just focus on physical health for a while. What a relief.  I'm returning to this post and reading the links again. As my dreamwork and your feedback here has been so helpful, I'm going to share a little of my healing arc.

Very true about the mother energy.  I was never able to address this, because in the early days of trying to find healing, any time I even mentioned her or anything to do with my past with a healer, I was told to 'stop being stuck in the past'  or ' to let the past go' this was nearly always said with a shaming inflection. It was also said, not after me going on for ages about my past, no I would be cut of at the mere mention of these areas. So I was as prevented from even looking at that energy dynamic and therefore could not increase my awareness around it.

  I will say, there are a lot of, people who I now understand are narcissistic, working as new age practitioners. Therapists too, it makes sense, why would any profession be immune.. There is way too much emphasis on 'not being a victim' - what is the resistance there? It's like these people have a major block, to even allowing the fact that victimisation occurs, to even let that enter the conversation.  In fact I've since realised that that's exactly how narcissists control, by invalidation.

 Some people have been severely victimised, if that isn't validated and explored, that person is being sentenced to never healing. The 3/4/5 year old self must be heard. Once that happens, sure it's ok then to take responsibility for your life. But it's not just, and not effective, to deny the child self, compassion, understanding and expression, when in many cases they have experienced nothing less than torture. That's disempowering.  In retrospect, it makes sense that I gravitated towards a stream of narcisstic healers, yoga teachers and therapists. That's the terrible catch 22 of the early stages of healing.

There are of course some people who get stuck in being a victim, as a way of avoiding the work needed to heal, I don't believe that's a significant issue and easily dealt with as a natural step on the healing journey. There are many more, who have who never really been a victim at all or victimised in any significant way, yet they play that card. The difference between the two, should be fairly clear to a healing professional.

 I wasted years of my life trying 'not to be a victim' and it just added another layer, to all the other layers of denial. Fortunately I was lucky enough to be able to find my way through all the confusion and find healing. You can only move beyond your story, when you are conscious of what your story has been. That's what I believe now anyway. As I was invalidated by most healers I went to, my dream life became more and more intense and spoke the truth to me once I had the strength to hear it.

With  that important work done, and a major step in healing my shattered self complete, I am now free to explore empowerment..So I tried this exercise: 'So to break a habit we need to practice entering a dream in imagination. Here is something to do that can help you to learn. To understand what is being explained, one must sit without distraction and with closed eyes and imaginatively enter into driving a car...'

It was so interesting to see how the body reacted and heart raced, and that was with minimal effort into the visualisation. I had no problem making the car fly, which is good. I'd love to explore this method more, with all areas  of fear in my life. Especially fear of people and the public.

I did do a lot of 'being the thing' when working on my dreams, it helped a lot. I'm interested now in applying the method to the 'things' in my (waking dream) life. Let's see!

Thank you Tony for all your great work

Dream Interpretation / Bossy woman and crystals
« on: May 27, 2019, 10:09:25 AM »
The previous night I dreamt a woman died and left me loads of crystals from her crystal shop.  Initially I thought only other people were being given crystals, and I felt lonely and embarrassed, but then my turn came and I got more than everyone put together.  I was given a tray full of crystals of all sizes and colours and worth alot. I then put on a sort of ceremonial necklace I was given, this went around my head and down to my feet with crystals through  it. But I hung it back up, thinking I could never wear it anywhere.

Last night I am walking as part of a small group, we're in lowland and desert hills  in Egypt. A bossy woman, a man probably her husband, a young boy and me. Now we are crossing a hill with rich red soil. I ask the name of it. The woman gives it a name that doesn't belong to it. She names everything after herself and her husband. The whole landscape it seems she does the same. I trail behind as I keep finding large crystals lying on the ground. Quartz, rose quartz, citrine, a pale blue crystal. I pick some up,  but there are too many to carry. I observe the bright sunlight shining through and I'm just thrilled by their beauty.

Now we have arrived at a beach by the sea. Right next to the sea are five or six really large rectangular Egyptian tombs covered in brightly painted figures. We walk behind them. I feel the energy as dark and dense, not good. The sun disappears, its cold. I say I'm going round to the seafront leaving the group, it feels better there, energy is higher, sun is back. Then I look back and I see them opening one of the tombs. I decide to move away quickly. They seem like idiots and probably don't know what they are unleashing. I'm not sure if they are tourists or Egyptians themselves.
But the woman is arrogant anyway. If I was to describe the woman's energy I'd say merciless and competitive.

Now I'm on a small English type community hall stage, not far away. The little boy is there. He's bright red from embarrassment possibly to do with being on a stage/performance. I comfort him and I'm kind. I go out another exit, not planning to return to that group.

Dream Interpretation / Shopkeeper
« on: March 21, 2019, 09:31:38 AM »
An awful nightmare. I will preface this by saying I never watch horror movies and this is not a scene I've ever seen in a movie or heard about. I'm in a small corner shop with someone. The shopkeeper is behind the counter. He's tall, dark hair and beard. Suddenly I get a vision of what lies behind the shop walls. Women are hung upside down as if butchered, but they are all alive and have been carefully brought close to death, but kept alive. Many are mutilated and some have their eyes sewn shut, some their mouths. In my vision I'm standing next to them, their skin is almost blue, the light is dim. It's the most horrific scene I've ever seen. The agony, the pointless cruelty, the damage, their fate..it's beyond comprehension.

The shopkeeper is trying to delay us leaving, I immediately act on what I've seen and call 911 which really annoys him, but he doesn't know I know what he's doing. I'm purely ringing to get them to save me and my friend at this point. If we're dead, there's no hope for anyone.  He keeps interfering prevents me calling, but also leans back and enjoys the helplessness he sees playing out before him,  no matter what I do I can't dial the number correctly, I try multiple phones. I'm deeply scared for both my friend and myself. I run onto the street to try find a passerby but it's raining. Im standing on the pavement in the rain on my own, I lean down and seem to have  new white converse trainers I take tissue paper out of them and put them on, I run to a local pub but someone is using the phone.  I run around frantically looking for another one. I hear the word 'island' I don't know what it's referring to. It makes me think of 'no man is an island'. I think well that's a pointless phrase - because you're an island whether you like it or not, when no one will help you, even when you beg, and that's a very common situation. On leaving the pub I think I meet my favourite singer, that I've met in some previous nice dreams. Here though the dream ends. He's shaking off the rain I'm running out to try find help, I don't recognise him. Nor he me.

 I wake. I felt so so sick by the images I'd seen, even some time after waking I was still very nauseous, I had to throw out my breakfast.

Dream Interpretation / Re: Integration
« on: March 12, 2019, 12:06:37 PM »
Thankyou Tony.
I think our dreams are similar. A locked away part of ourselves.
In my case it was unwelcome, even dangerous, to be beautiful or self loving, so that had to be split off from in a similar way to anger. Untrue allegations of smelling was one way that was used, very effective to shame a little girl.  I'm showing the little girl I'm now stronger than the surrounding hate, so for the first time it's safe to let herself be seen. I've avoided many relationships, due to feeling ugly, it makes no difference that it's clearly not true in the physical sense, it comes from childhood experiences, where believing that story, somehow was necessary to survive. I certainly don't see the image as all of me, just a repressed part.  For years I've witnessed my anger, fear etc, so it's a really significant to witness beauty for a change.

Dream Interpretation / Integration
« on: March 07, 2019, 02:05:45 PM »
I am walking on the street, someone is on my left, talking, he leans against me, then leans his arm and hand against mine, then tries to grab my hand, smiling.. He is trying to make out we are a couple. We are not. I look up and see it's an ex-boyfriend.  I push his hand away and say  No! No! Stop it! Leave me alone! But he acts like I've said nothing. (A highly manipulative person, with a finely developed sneaky style of control..always joking, smiling..but absolute in getting what he wanted, over-riding all refusals with calm persistence. A stalker and quite a dangerous narcisstic person.)

Now we are in a wine shop, he must have brought me in as I say 'but I don't want to buy anything' a seriously evil looking woman with black hair and a white face glares at me, the shops and her fashion and hair is in a very old fashioned style, 1800s. I don't feel afraid, though I can feel every ounce of her evilness. I'm not sure if I've gotten rid of the guy yet. I turn to leave and I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror on my way out and I do a double take -  I look really beautiful, natural, it's definitely me but younger, glowing with beauty and health and pure goodness. I gasp and am really happy, I feel love for myself. I look back at the shop and her assistant a younger woman maybe a daughter, also black haired, is sweeping the rug/carpet as if I was dirty and had brought dirt into their shop. I think to myself, they are doing that for effect, because they can't get at me any other way and ha! to them cause I don't care anyway!

Being the thing with the evil woman,  brings me to a hate energy  She says I hate beauty, I hate love, I hate anyone else getting anything they want. I want to be the boss of everything. It brings back to key childhood relationships and that woman is my mother; her jealousy, hate and control, but also it's every relationship where the other person used my youth or innocence to exert negative control over me. To humiliate or inflict pain on me, so they could feel powerful.

I think that an important part of the path of integrating what is ours, we must also figure our what is not ours..
Which end of the energy dynamic is active in us..
Doing being the thing with the evil woman, it's a very very dark energy and she just wants me dead.

So if we are to say she is my energy then she is the ultimate self-hate. But I was not born with that self hate.
So I will take ownership of it in the sense of an invading energy. I feel the dream is showing me the truth of that young girl who wished harm on no one and had a very loving nature but was surrounded by powerful opposing forces.

Questions about dreams / Re: Autonomy
« on: March 07, 2019, 01:31:09 PM »
Very interesting!
..ideas of ownership over a child.
..over our own bodies..

So it IS all a paradox. Now I can leave it there to rest in its inconclusiveness, and not try find the 'answer'..

Thanks Tony..

Questions about dreams / Re: Autonomy
« on: March 05, 2019, 11:51:52 AM »
Thanks so much Tony. I'm starting to appreciate the reality of these other dimensions. I love the description of border and another country.

It's a question that's bothered me a lot.

I have certainly developed an ability to more quickly see events and experiences as emanating from my own energy.  But I do feel we are not purely in an experience entirely of our own making, isn't that the adventure? Our energy is a powerful influence, but not the only influence?  First the process of integration and then..

 My feeling is that I'm experiencing communication from people who want to connect with me, my response to that is then dictated by my energies. I want to connect, which is allowing me to pick up on the energies, but I don't feel trust, which keeps them out of my lived experience.

Of course then there's the other angle mentioned here, what if we are not ANYTHING https://dreamhawk.com/forums/index.php?topic=4856.msg11929#msg11929. Yet we must function as a something in order to interact and build relationships?

Still life matters to us, we want to have a joyful time. How to get out of pain and achieve that I guess is all that matters!  So for me these visitations are all very positive and at least I can enjoy that.

Questions about dreams / Autonomy
« on: March 04, 2019, 10:55:36 PM »
Hi Tony!

I'm not sure how to formulate the question but I'm just wondering about 'intent' in dreams?

My intent, versus the independent intent of others..maybe you could direct me to some links to your work? I couldn't think what terms to use to search this.

For several years the same guy has been popping up in my dreams, usually flirtatious and funny, sometimes present in the background as I confront something. Recently he appeared yet again and was most direct this time by asking me for my number and he wanted it now.. like he's getting impatient chasing me through my dreams. Could this all be me and my desire (one I don't consciously have) towards this public figure?

Example 2: I send a message to someone saying how much I loved their show, I don't get a reply, but in my dream I'm walking along a beach and they call my name and come and give me a huge huge hug. For the next few days I feel their presence around me. So I experiment and I look towards the presence and it's like we actually make eye contact and share a smile, I tried this at least twice more at different times and I have the same experience. The only other time I had this, was at a Buddhist monastery in the woods, I felt suddenly that I was being watched and I could 'see'/'sense' the presence of the head monk near me, it was definitely him and I never doubted the certainty of what I felt that day.

Example 3: A guy I have not been thinking about, but who approached me and I made an escape from, now appears quite regularly. Waving, saying hi. Recently I'm holding a baby belonged to him and maybe me.

If I am the creator of my dreams, does any of the content have any autonomy, or am I for some reason creating all these scenarios?

Healing Dreams / Re: Healing
« on: March 04, 2019, 11:36:19 AM »
Thanks so much Tony, I've been reading and I just wrote a long reply.. but it disappeared!!!  :-\

Ah well, you know the path already!! What I'd write would be nothing new to you :)

Healing Dreams / Re: Healing
« on: February 22, 2019, 12:29:55 AM »
Wow thankyou for this Tony!

How to open, release, be receptive..  seems like the most pathless of paths.. though with the links you gave, there are actually methods, but they are not instant as with Shaktipat 'The total process takes a very long time but this should not dissuade us as each stage has its own rewards.'

I was on the search for healing for a very long time, I have to say I think there are an awful lot of people who have no idea what they are doing in many areas of yoga and healing and in my opinion, should not be in business. Unfortunately it's difficult to know which is which for quite a while.

One thing which really annoys me, is the amount of teachers/healers that speak about 'letting go'
'Oh you just need to let go' they'll say (end of available wisdom) ..as if it's an act of willpower, or a decision the person seeking healing is just procrastinating about.

I went to endless yoga classes where they spoke about letting go, but never elaborated on the subject and also pushed their students hard, to 'breathing on the edge' etc which really with the level of awareness they brought to it, was more a very western 'no pain no gain' approach, rather than anything that brought anyone closer to their core.  I'm very sure that every one of those classes functioned to bring people away from their core, rather than closer.

In my experience the term 'letting go' is an overused cliché and most who use the term, have no real understanding behind it.

Here in your work I find wisdom, it's so great to read your work. Thankyou!!  :)

Healing Dreams / Healing
« on: February 19, 2019, 12:56:17 PM »
Dream: Someone gives me a grey blue cluster crystal for my left hand and a white for my right. As I hold them..
suddenly the left side of my body begins to spasm violently in different areas but mostly my left hand and arm. It's really really scary. But I don't let go of the crystals, I think well this is coming from inside not outside, if it's deep inside me, it needs to come out.. and it continues.

Dream Interpretation / Re: Thief
« on: December 30, 2018, 11:38:15 AM »
I am anger and bitterness, I am rage, I will not allow love take root, I am invisible, I want destruction
F***ing flowers! Nice nice niceness.. I want the truth of death. I want to burn like fire. I want the energy of storms and cosmic explosions where stars are born.

Hey I think I like this thief!
 In fact part of me agrees with uprooting those flowers, what a waste of time, all that focus doing good for others, creating 'beauty' but neglecting my angry angry thief..

I've been here before. But let's see.. maybe eventually the energy will integrate

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