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Dream Interpretation / Re: Dream character questions

« on: March 08, 2016, 11:12:08 AM »

Just a note. After writing this.. Like literally 30minutes, I was driving and saw a sign for an ancient site and decided to visit. While walking around this incredible place I wandered towards some trees. I had tried to deliberately 'connect' with other trees on the site..but it just felt forced, though they were really stunning old trees full of personality. But as I was walking in this other area I felt sudden love for a very ordinary looking tree 'hello grandfather' my mind said. ? don't kniw why. In that moment of love I was reminded of how I was as a child and for a brief moment all the trees were very definite beings with presence and feeling. It waned then, but that seemed to be a portal of communication. The one I used to know, through the heart. Not sure I can return to it. It's only when my life is happy I can feel this way. If only I could find a way to earn a living that didn't kill me.. and allowed me lots of time for nature, meditation, reflection..

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Dream character questions

« on: March 07, 2016, 02:18:00 PM »

Thanks so much Tony!

..a few questions on what you said so I can fully make use of it.
How can I 'investigate' this state of mind/soul connected to nature?

Does being in touch with the natural versus outside signs - mean to draw information and insight directly from intuition?

How can I develop the soul condition?

Re the women in black attire - I've just remembered - they have been present in several dreams over the past year.
Usually mocking me when I need help or am in a life/death situation. Generally just hating me for no reason I can see, guess or understand.

I will work more on the images and see what comes,

Thanks again Tony.

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Dream Interpretation / Dream character questions

« on: March 06, 2016, 10:44:14 AM »

A guy I feel really attracted to in real life appears in my dream:
First he is on the edge of a circle of people chatting and I think we'll never get to speak. Then he's suddenly sitting directly opposite me looking into my eyes and asks me 'when did you fall in love with nature?' 'Never' I say, 'I was always in love'

In a later part is of the dream a movie director I vaguely know appears:
He's standing in a muddy field on a grey wet day, surveying the scene probably for a shoot. He greets me as I approach and we are close to huge old trees. He asks 'Why do you do tarot and go to healers when the trees know everything?' I say that I know they do - 'I try to listen but I'm just not able to hear them' then I put my hand on the tree and feel it's energy and confirm I still can only feel energy and not get anything more. I say 'I use the tarot because at least it gets energy moving' then I walk through a spread that's lain out on the ground by the tree. (I don't really read tarot myself, though I have a fair understanding, I just watch some readers on YouTube)

Though we are outdoors, he has just lit two fires in fireplaces beside each other, on the left burning slabs of coal, on the right wood.

Then a vague sense of female characters arriving, dressed in black, not a friendly energy, self-absorbed and rather bitchy vibe from them. They go to a table to the left of the fires, chatting.  Shame as the fireplace imagery would have been a comforting point to end!

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Dream Interpretation / The writing desk

« on: March 05, 2016, 01:41:52 PM »

Police are encouraging me to trust them and talk, I feel a mix of hope, and fear that they are not trustworthy and fooling me..a man present among them I've met in real life and I suspect to be particularly untrustworthy (though in my dream last night he was also present and trying to help me) I go home, on the sheet of my bed I see an ant, I brush it off, then another and another, an infestation of flying ants..I feel panic and disgust, I wake.

I am in another house, also my bedroom, my bedroom has been filled with junk ('just for now'..no permission asked, by my sister). I feel invaded and powerless. Suddenly in the middle of the room a huge highly ornate carved (dark wood close to black in tone) antique writing desk appears, it's quite over-the-top but still pretty, with loads of tiny drawers and nooks. On the first level a small piano keyboard is embedded to the right, about 1-2 octaves, that lifts up to a large writing area.. There may be a connection to a little girl. There is a sense of magic at its appearance.

I hear noise and look out, an extension is being built on a house across the road, again I feel exasperated, invaded, at the mercy of others and I just long for peace and quite.

Now I am outside with others, someone is pushing a silver/steel metal chair on wheels. Then it turns out I've won Miss Universe, though I'm just dressed as normal me and in no way glamorous. Apparently the chair is for the winner. So I sit in it and then go flying at incredible speed downhill, but never out of control. I smile shyly, as others watch me pass, even though I know I'm not pretty I am happy to accept this and make the most of it.

 (The night before I dreamt I was holding my own face in my hands, but as if I was someone else. I was looking at this face, thinking how raw, fragile, utterly imperfect it was, its vulnerability struck me deeply, but that there was no choice..this was it..this raw red face was mine and I'd better get on with it. I don't know why it was red, maybe echoing a newborn baby..)

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Bulldog

« on: March 04, 2016, 01:11:44 PM »

Thankyou Cristine, that is helpful. Especially about the psyche protecting itself. That was something I was wondering about.

Of course today because of the outcome of the dream, I'm terrified something is going to happen him, so getting to talk about it at all is a relief. He is an incredibly loving, naturally sensitive boy (is normal for a kid).. He definitely is carrying a huge burden just by being that type of spirit in this world. I asked him about his dreams and he said he keeps having dreams of people with guns or bombs coming to attack him and his family.. He is terrified of death. I tried to give him a new way of understanding it by relating it to the dream world and the immensity of the universe. Kids are amazing, it's the smallness of possibilities adults present them that hurts them, infinity they can cope with.

I think Reiki is a great idea but don't think it will be easy to organise.

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Dream Interpretation / Bulldog

« on: March 04, 2016, 09:57:39 AM »

I know a little boy that gets ill and they can't find what's wrong. He has spells of fainting.  Last night I dreamt he was in a cot, like for a younger child with a bulldog. The bulldog would faint and come to and then he would faint and come to. Then I left him for one second and the bulldog lay on top of him and seemed to cause his death. I didn't even get as far as grief in the dream just shock and disbelief. The bulldog then seemed to be dead, tied with a leash on the bars of the cot.

The little boy has had many tests and nothing conclusive. He experienced trauma a few years ago when a friend of his was killed and this still worries and effects him. On a personal note I really hate Bulldogs as a breed and wish they weren't so popular. It's about the only animal I don't like. In the dream the bulldog was in no way aggressive however, it was even quite gentle, just heavy and not suitable for being in a cot with a young child.

Being the thing:
cot- I am childhood protection
Bulldog- I am invasion, clumsy, burden, dumb, insensitive.
Child- I am soft, beautiful, intelligent, sensitive.

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Disruption

« on: February 26, 2016, 12:08:32 PM »

Thankyou Tony.
I think they represent male energy, war, competition.

Now I know certain aspects of life are a competition, dammit I will compete too.
I've been knocked out of the running so so many times before, when people see me as a push over and when I've bowed out because I thoguht being competitive was not spiritual..therefore handing the winnings to others on a plate. I think the dream shows me a new development.

In the past just being attacked or never even getting to a point of self-expression.

Now at least this energy is having to resort to some very over-the-top methods to block me, no more a simple push, but a highly choreographed event! Also the male energy is resorting to tactics generally associated with females..fainting spells, behind the scenes manoeuvring - so I will take this as a sign I myself am finally embodying more of my own male energy.

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Dream Interpretation / Disruption

« on: February 25, 2016, 08:29:31 PM »

After giving a very successful presentation, much better than I'd hoped, with excellent feedback, I had this dream that night.

A group staged a fake illness during my presentation, one carried the other out in a melodramatic way. Totally disrupting me. Then a video came on, made by them, it began with a scene of one carrying the other out of a room being 'sick', this then led into their videod presentation  so it was clear then it was just a stunt and I was shocked they would be so low and so competitive. I turned off their video but could not get the audiences attention anymore as they were now chatting noisily.

I'm just curious as to why I would dream this, when everything went perfectly?
 I did notice another group, very similar to these dream characters, did not have particularly nice vibes, a lot of ego, unfriendly. It didn't bother me at the time, I was just conscious  I should to keep observant and neutral.  Could I have been picking up on that energy, even though it didn't directly effect me at the time?

Or, if I'm all the energies, was that self-sabotage..that was just finding release in the dream world, because for once I'd managed to control it in the outer world..

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Mud

« on: February 25, 2016, 08:22:17 PM »

Beautiful thanks so much Tony.
I've been writing poems myself, trying to understand my connection to these topics, but your poem really gives me a view I did not have. Thank you.

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Mud

« on: February 18, 2016, 04:00:18 PM »

Thank you Tony.

I will just add two thoughts for my own reference when reading back in this, which I always do.

I just found a note I made earlier in the year from your Dream Yoga.. ' take all these fears and obstacles into you - claim them as your disowned power working against you and set it to work for you'
So that would be one perspective on a murder victim someone who is completely separated from their connection to their own power, their life force, for whatever reason.

 'surrender' - many people have a long history of that not being a safe process. For instance as a young romantic I would 'surrender to love' but put myself in really dangerous situations with men or just friendships - that were not even close to sharing my noble sentiments. Just as in the chinese art of war you mention - surrender requires a lot of discrimination even if it is happening on the inner plane.

So it's a step by step process - a relationship of trust with the universe, with life flow that is built by taking tiny steps and seeing the results. Then as the relationship grows it becomes safer, but at the beginning it's not reliable, it's a rocky road of yielding what you should probably keep control of and controlling what you should let go of. People are scared too because it's a territory we are practically banished from through the intensive insane education system.

As I said this is just for me to tie this all in to my current understanding, but feel free to add thoughts if you like.
Things are gradually dropping away, but it's a very intense, very emotional journey! Horrible and wonderful.
Thanks so much for your feedback Tony, much appreciated.

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Mud

« on: February 16, 2016, 11:03:26 AM »

Thank you for this Tony.

reading 'life stream/open' that is what I am working on right now..that dance and being open to it..

I am trying to understand this...  - Is this being locked into a physical self-image?
As a child I had no way of protecting myself and those who had that responsibility did not protect me.  I'm in the journey of finding empowerment.  I am however at least shouting and defending myself in the dreamworld - even if I don't win - I am living to fight another day. I'm also engaging with this really angry force. I would say it's not quite fear I feel in the dream but exasperation that nothing I do works and a sense of realism, that my 'powers' are insufficient to this battle. I expect to find those powers in future dreams. I will let you know!


Yes some women have men quaking in their boots, but put a woman or child in a physical fight with a man and usually the man will win, no matter how determined the woman is. Sometimes it's not about attitude. Ive long understood the psychology of the bully, they get so much attention. I less understand the psychology and path, of those who are overpowered, murdered etc  The complete loss of power. Complete vulnerability and inability to protect oneself, despite all efforts.

 I have engaged a lot with the idea of the world being created by our beliefs, however those beliefs are not just thoughts, they are profound, often life or death experiences and are difficult to reorder, especially on the extreme end of the spectrum that I'm curious about, mentioned above.

Am I locked in physical self-image or just processing unprocessed childhood experience?
Now as an adult developing the power of consciousness, bringing those experiences out of the unconscious so they stop influencing me. While they may just be passing sensations on my blank screen on one level, on another level they are an ancestral story I'm part of and need to play my part in, or resolve my lack of consciousness therein.


Thankyou for your feedback Tony, it's great to benefit from your thoughts and experience. Most interested to hear your thoughts on the other half of the bully dynamic, murder victims, the powerlessness etc

Thankyou!

(On a note of progress, last night I dreamt it began to rain and I was going to take shelter in an old damp boarded up house, but an old man passing advised me against it, so I went back out on the road and I looked over the countryside and all along the horizon and along the hill tops was a kind of rainbow, predominantly deep pink/red in colour and though it wasn't crystal clear, its energy was very strong and in the dream I just thought, 'that's a strange place for a rainbow' but also was impressed by it and it was such a contrast to the cold dark house I'd been seeking out to shelter in moments before)

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Mud

« on: February 15, 2016, 01:56:38 PM »

Thank you so much Tony. Re the bathroom I guess I need to add more information.
In the dream I first tried moving away, he came closer, I divided the paper and gave him 90% of it, but he insisted he wanted to read the bit still in my hands leaning closer, I shouted 'leave me alone leave me alone' and he turned a really powerful anger on me and started saying there's something wrong with me, I must have issues as he's not doing anything. I only ran to the bathroom as I simply could not win against him and it was my only hope to stay safe.
I am little and he is bigger and physically stronger. So how would you see the bathroom in this context? I'm just thinking..in many homes the bathroom is the only room that has a lock..

I think the mud is a cold messy expanse that I can't walk through, I can't understand it. The woman my mother angry at peeling endless potatoes to feed endless kids. As an aspect of me - my frustration at the toil of life taking me nowhere. The film shoot makes me turn my attention on this cold muddy aspect of myself. What is it? Mud: I am winter, I am disturbed trodden ground, over-used no rest, no protection, exposed to the rain and wind. What is the fear? Of being worked to the bone by bullying authority figures, never getting to experience gentleness, growth, spring, love

Run away from human love? Sure. It's very difficult to recognise real love.
Emm in fact that singer is connected to someone I know and like who tried to connect with me recently - but I felt such panic I ran. He seemed like a genuinely kind and loving person. So you may have hit that right on the head.

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Dream Interpretation / Mud

« on: February 15, 2016, 09:32:17 AM »

I get away from an abuser. He keeps pushing himself on me, pretending to read my newspaper. I run to a bathroom and lock the door.
Then I'm looking at a 'film location' it's a very big field on high ground. I go to climb a very long gate to enter it, but the gate swings open. The field is completely mud, the gate swings right into the centre of the field, making the gate incredibly long, and my feet skate along the mud as I hold on, then the gate swings back to the entrance and I let go. A woman passes, very unhappy looking, pushing a barrel of potatoes. I'm walking away on a lane, suddenly lots of cars and a beautiful sheepdog who loves me.

Then Im in a building and discover I'm naked I run to the bathroom to hide. The bathroom is red.
Then I'm with a famous singer, his wife is dead, he's looking out at sea, probably thinking of her. I think how lucky he is to have had love and a normal life, unlike me.

I have plenty of thoughts, but if it suits, I always find your input very illuminating. Thanks Tony.
I guess I am most curious about this huge muddy field on the crest of the hill.

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Potted plants

« on: February 05, 2016, 12:49:20 PM »

Thanks so much!! Once again I forget to see the dream images and characters as my own energies and aspects of myself within me...
Now I will think over the dream again.. I guess integrating the energies of the self is not all abiut acceptance, but about discrimination between what is life-giving and life-taking..

I think that is what I'm trying to sort out for myself in these dreams..
Now I will go look at it again. Thankyou for your feedback Tony, always appreciated..

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Dream Interpretation / Potted plants

« on: February 02, 2016, 03:05:34 PM »

I am walking on a path on the crest of a tall hill, but there is a slightly urban feel.. Then up the path come three giant plant pots, red plastic, with small plants in them.. One is really big, bigger than me, the others less so, they seem to have their own movement.. One nearly tips over as It rounds the bend I instinctively go to rescue it, but then stop, reminding myself I must not get involved with what does not belong to me.. Then rubbish bins start climbing the path just as the plants did, somehow with the power of movement, I let them pass..rather surreal, no strong emotions to this part of the dream..

later on its stress dreaming, trying to find toilet with privacy, finding a shower with a deep pool of blood in the base, finally finding kids toilets and barely able to fit in the cubicle... being late, missing planes..but finding a lost musical instrument and consoling myself that that is much more valuable than the money lost on he ticket. My young nephew, so loving, saying he doesn't mind missing our trip. But I'm worried about myself for being so disorganised.

The previous night I dreamt of a man declaring his love for me. I was happy about it. I got up to make tea, a stray cat came in and I started petting it, it was very undernourished and dirty, but in the dream I reminded myself that I must stop always getting involved and helping anyone who asks me, so I stopped petting the cat and went to make tea for me and my new love. Then a huge dog appeared, like a brown Doberman, he looked very powerful, healthy and happy. I reminded myself, he could be dangerous and to treat him with a respectful distance.

In both dreams I am sort of counselling myself, knowing my tendencies and trying to change them.


Next day

 (I heard the next day my nephew is unwell & in hospital & therefore may miss a family trip he was really looking forward to.. )

Another dream - a kitten with a cold, sore eyes, is in my bed and is sneezing. The kitten wants a 'commitment' from me and I decide to give it. That I will be there for it... This seems to be me back-tracking on my decision in the previous night's dream..   Next night: I am standing outside a window looking in when a cat comes, the cat has been waiting especially for me, it approaches and is very loving.

Insight on any aspect of this most appreciated. Thank you Tony.