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Dream Interpretation / Re: Blind love?

« on: October 13, 2017, 04:29:20 PM »

About this quakeing..i dont know much about it but i often have these kind of vibrations,even right now,when the base of my spine seems like it contracts itself and sends all kind of movements and vibrations into my body that make me,its alot to say, tremble. I especially feel them after or before falling asleep. And i guess thats the best word to describe what i felt when i first started to feel this way,and thats when i met my lover. My whole being quaked. And im not sure if there's anything uncommon about it,but i smoked weed once and i was really tired at that time and the vibrations i usually feel got 100 times stronger and my brain started generating all kind of memories i could never remember about on a daily basis. Memories about me at 1-2 years old, 5-6 and so on. Memories i can never acces if i want to.

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Blind love?

« on: October 12, 2017, 10:59:44 AM »

I really appreciate your work,Tony. Thanks alot for your wisdom. It helps me alot to slowly rediscover and (re)understand myself. Im not sure if i ever told you this,but i started looking within myself since i met my current lover. When i first met her it wasnt love wt first sight or anything physical,i simply felt a tremendous familiar energy flowing from her into me. I was literally shocked by the sensations. It felt like my chest disappeared and my head would explode. It was like a strong vibration that only i could feel.

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Dream Interpretation / Blind love?

« on: October 12, 2017, 08:35:57 AM »

Hello Tony!
There's this dream i had,which left me with a "lonely" feeling. I wont talk about all the parts,ill go straight to the interesting one. So i was in my hometown and lets say its so big you can reach "downtown" in 5 min. Well,in this dream it was 13 times longer. It was actually somehow divided in 13 districts of different worlds! The point is,at one point i reached 13th world because of some succesive events and things were blurry,like trying to remember something from early childhood. There i met this girl,i kinda new who she was but what surprised me is that she was blind and she'd cut her hair really short. We started talking and my fog started to lift. With her,i was able to see everything. I would hold her hand and guide her through the 13th world and describe her everything i see and i felt such a familiar feeling,like those moments when i lay my head down my lover's chest and i listen to the hearthbeats. It was so calming to be with her and i dont know why the fact that she was blind helped me see instead. I felt responsible for her and i fell in love with the blind girl. Suddenly my world startrd to shake. There was a tempest behind us. She panicked and didnt know what to do,and i took her in my arms and carried her back to my hometown. There,as we escaped the tempest,she gave me a very pasionate and warm kiss,and my hearth started to cry because i wouldnt understand why i feel such a huge love for this person while i already had a lover. I reached the conclusion that "i love you both" (i told the blind girl) and she said thats all right,but "make love with me,too". And so i did,and it was wonderful and full of deep feelings. I wouldnt feel anything physical,but more like an exchange of energies and feelings and memories. I dont know why she got pregnant in no time but from what i understand she would soon die and she had to leave me a memento. Thats when i woke up,because i was very sad she'd disappear from my world and leave me with our "moment".

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Dream Interpretation / Universe,discoveries and old civilizations

« on: September 30, 2017, 08:54:34 AM »

Hello Tony!
I had this very interesting dream just moments ago.
I was in some kind of cryogenic state and i was brought back to life,together with my partner (a girl). We were alone on a small ship and some voice started to explain us why we are here and what we have to do. It seems we had to visit some planet that was supposed to be Earth in the old times and we had to find remnants of the old civilizations. We would have some special powers like flying,lifting very heavy things,learning anything in 1 second,breathing in space,taking pictures with our minds(literally) and so on. First thing first we had to go deep down into the core of the old Earth trough a hole in a mountain,because the surface was just a crust of magma. That voice told us that we can stay inside how much time we consider is right and that all we have to do us follow the ball of light from the hole.  When we went in,everything was blurry at first,lots of mist everywhere,and we saw an interesting shape while flying,that looked like something familiar. We landed in someone's garaje that used to teach there little kids,and i suddenly started to remember i used to be one of "the old people" too. I felt so nostalgic and enthusiastic at the same time. We would make photos to all kind of pictures on the walls that we would recognise from our childhood,and when we went inside,thats when it hit us. We suddenly remembered that we used to be lovers and make love on the couch (thats because we enteted a living room at the same time) and all these memories from the old times would start to gather inside us,especially from touching objects. I chose myself to keep a gold ring that looked just like my mother's wedding ring and she chose some kind of tiarra,if i recall well. The thing is,at some point we heard noises outside. When i looked on the window,the mist started to lift and i was shocked by the view! A whole city,civilization before my eyes. Plus, the owners of the house we stood in so far knew we were there and we freaked out and started to run to the "white ball" of light. My lover went first and at some point we got separated while flying and i started to feel weaker and weaker. I had to find my partner,so i searched for her all around town. I couldnt use my powers properly and i knew that nor could she,and i got worried. When night came,i realized that "the light bulb" was actually the moon and the sun. At one point i found her tiara in a forest,and i started hearing wolves "laughing". I found her,she was already dead for a pretty long time and i started crying. My ring transformed into a crown and a voice told me "thats what you get for disturbing us". And i would end up fighting with the wolves myself,almost powerless and i somehow managed to slowly fly again but the owner of "the crown" shot me with a gun and that was it. While i was dieing,i realized that man was actually a scout just like us,and that he made a life for him on the old Earth. But i dont know why he killed us...i cried so much when my lover died teared apart by the wolves,and i couldnt understant why all those memories and nostalgic feelings would emerge inside me all at once. It was like going back to the place you grew in childhood,like visiting your grandparents or Something like that.

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Dream Interpretation / Forest

« on: September 21, 2017, 12:04:52 PM »

I had a dream last night,with very random events. Im not going to speak of everyone,because only one of them keeps appearing in my mind.
I was in a forest,alone and confused. I didnt know what i was doing there,but i knew i had to survive somehow,gather food,supplies,find shelter. I had all these plans in my mind and somehow i knew how to do it and sudenly i felt at ease. Few minutes later,after some exploring,i found a campsite with 4-4 tents of different shapes ans colors,circleing a huge hole in the ground covered with stigs and leaves. I knew it was a trap ment to protect those inhabitanta. The thing is,no one was around when i noticed all those,but when i got closer to investigate,2 fierce monkeys appeared and all the ppl poped out of their tents and started to panic. I somehow lured the monkeys into the trap really quiclky,but then 2 huge gorillas appeared and o knew the hole was too small for them,so i screamed at everyone to run downhill to the ruin i noticed while exploring. What kept me wondering is why,once we reached the ruins and lost the gorriilas,there was an imense invizibile wall beyond those ruins. Everybody said they tried to break through,because beyond that wall we could find salvation,but no1 could. Me neither. But i realized that the wall can be climbed and i somehow managed to understand its "paralel" structure and tried to escaladate it and i felt an enegy from within my dream and i woke up. An energy that told me "dont do it"

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Dream Interpretation / Well,demons again. Im not surprised anymore

« on: September 06, 2017, 05:06:32 AM »

Hello Tony!
There's this dream i just had moments ago. Very deep but it left me with no ulterior feelings,but somehow i feel at ease. The dream starts with me on a tennis field. I was playing for the first time and somehow i was so good at it. My opponent was no match so i asked for 2 at the same time. The atmosphere kind of remembered me of fragments of my childhood. It was a very welcoming,suntouched,happy atmosphere. I was surrounded by "friends" or thats how i saw them and everyone was laughing and having fun. There was also this girl i could clearly aknowledge who she was from my real life. She's a good friend of mine and sometimes i have the feeling i "click" with her inside dreams (its not the first time i dream her around) and i feel a bit ashamed because i have a gf i really care about. I know my unconscious mind sometimes let me feel i need something else in my life,like the attraction i feel for this girl,but i always ignore it because im too loyal to play games with the ones that i love. Thats not the point of this dream anyway. The point is,i was somehow in a "crossroads" deal with the Devil,and i slowly started to look like one but i was not alone nor anyone could see "us" for who we were. Some of them chose to keep the powers they got for themselvesm,i chose to help others get out of the deal,because i felt it was a burden on them,and i felt like i was the only one with a "sold" soul. Honestly,it didnt feel like something bad at all! I could protect others in way people couldnt do without special powers. At some point,while i was still playing tennis,i felt the presence of a sniper who was aiming for me. I was looking straight into his eyes,miles away,and he realized he could not hit me. So he chose to trigger me by shooting persons i care about,especially aiming for that girl in a full crowd. I panicked and i ran in front of them and created a spiritual shield that would protect them easely. Few moments later,the sniper changed the bullets into some explosives that could melt my shield. That was the moment i realized i had to go for him in order to protect others. I started to run like the wind and jump over all kinds of obstacles and buildings and the sniper kept shooting at my friends and i could "stop time" for each abd every bullet and either change their course or explode them in mid air. Finally i got him and saved my friends.
In the second part of the dream i was in a new country,visiting, with the girl i mentioned earlier. We would have fun around town, buying all sorts of food and stuff and at some point i "blanked out" and woke up inside some 30 years old woman apartment,asking myself "should i trust her? Is it ok what im doing?" ( She was ubdressing before my eyes and then got into the shower) i went downstairs and had a really fun chat with her 7-10 years old son that had the exact same height as me and i would make fun about it because we were 2 "midgets" and "mommy has 2 kids now" only that i was perverted about that joke ). It turned out the lady was a really nice woman and i got along very well with her and her son. The girl i mentioned before showed up again by my side,once i went out with that lady for a walk. There was some kind of carnival downtown with all sort of games,boutiques and attractions. This is where it gets interesting again. For seconds,everything stopped,everything was quiet,and i could only hear and old man's voice talking to me through a radio. I went to him and he was a mute and blind oldman that was actually adressing to me trough a radio. And the radio would tell my story in such a beautiful and scenographic way,like the begining of the movie Anonymous,with Shakespeare (if you saw it). But it talked too many truths and people around me started to show their demon face,me also but i was not mad. I was pleased with the words i'd hear. He also mentioned that there's many like me, servants of "The Butler"and i suddenly noticed that i was surrounded by a "demons carnival" and they all tried to kill the oldman because their secrets were revealed,and i somehow managed to save him too and the dream ended with a crowd of angry demons staring at me with hate (but i also felt i was the highest demon in ranking) and i would feel no fear. I actually literally saw my demonic face in the mirror,so clearly and detailed and kind of amused me i had such a little nose and i would so desperately try to stretch out a black dot it was like some funny sequel from a good movie.
Ps. I recently started doing guided meditation again and i would always feel the tingling feeling of detaching from the body but i cant reach the astral projection. Maybe that has to do with all my dreams as well?

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Dream Interpretation / Re: Demon,windmills

« on: August 29, 2017, 11:54:36 AM »

So what i actually experienced was me seeing another "more balanced" dimension of myself and got freaked out because of its depth? Thats how i felt,i felt like so many things were revealing to me,and all the people i saw were just mere combinations of black and white. I unserstand the ying yang,but what i dont understand is what those windmills represent.

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Dream Interpretation / Demon,windmills

« on: August 28, 2017, 09:25:36 PM »

Hello Tony!
Here i am again with another deep dream.
I cant remeber the begining of the dream,it happened last night,but i start from this point:
I was in a city i know with my girlfriend,on the streets,and i looked in a shop winow and there i saw my reflection(i have to add i didnt see myself,i was a shadow like entity again) and suddenly i started to feel strange,like my "screen" was shaking and the next second my dream became PURE black and shiny white,a white that i can descrbie as a platinum aura. The thing is,once i turned around,there was another shadow like creature,human silouette,but with big,red,devlish eyes looking at me with fear and anger. I ignored him because i started to see some kind of virtual divization between white and black. How can i explain. I could sense memories! In objects,buildigs,clothes,people! I couldnt see those memories but i could feel the deep energy of everything,like i could see their roots! It was amazing. I even looked at my lover and i saw her pants white and dark blouse,but she was white. Im not talking about racial skin here,just to mention . I was mesmerized by the views,the people and how much balance there was between black and white. It was like something i call "void vs light". But i felt kinda lonely after a while,and i was walking with my girl around town to see more. At one point,she disappeared and i saw 3 huge pure white windmills near a river that crosses the town and i felt burdened,somehow. I felt a burning energy and i woke myself up! I knew i was dreaming and i said to myself "get out,now!". I woke up next to my lover,nervous,with a feeling of suffocation and i hugged her tightly and instanlty calmed down and i fell back asleep and the dream was over. Ofc it was over but i have to mention that many times it happened to me,when i was a kid,that the dream continued from where i left it everytime i woke up "suffocated".

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Dream Interpretation / Demon,labyrinth

« on: August 09, 2017, 11:35:19 PM »

Hello again,Tony!
I was deeply satisfied with your explanation about my previous post. I humbly thank you! I always feel like there's more to it,to my life,and i know we are essence,we are everything,but i just dwell on what i have in front of my eyes for the time being. As soon aas i get to the point i can earn a living,i promise ill look more into it,this energy flowing through me.
I'd also like to reveal to you my most...i dont know,fearful dream.
I had it more than a year ago,a year and few months mmaybe. At that time i was doing very well with my stress level and i had mind pace.
The dream was hiper-realistic,black and white and i could somehow "hear" colors. I was having a midday walk with some entities i felt them as friends,and suddenly some new "guy" tagged along. I sensed a vwry powerful energy from him and i,honestly,didnt care he came with us. He look like a young man about my age. "Few minutes later" we got lost in some sort of neighbourhood with post-apocaliptic sceneries. My friends panic,me and the new guy did not. We would search for hours for a way out and i realized we went in circles all this time. At that point i saw an ordinary metalic fence and i said "if we jump that,we are out of this chaos". I saw so many horrible things there! Mutilated devil-like people holding cryig children,lots of ruins,ugly ppl from balconies would scream at me and call me names,but i couldt care less,i was not afraid od anything. I felt "lucky" because that new guy somehow filled me with energy and braveness. Anyway,we saw that fence and my friend tried to jumpit but they couldnt! The moment they got above it,they would be cought in some invisible nest and they would got stuck in some kind of levitation. I had to take them back. But then i felt like i could do it,and i really did! I was out and my friends would cry to help them. I laughed and i said "don't worry,i got this". And i helped them cross the fence,except the new guy. He didnt want. After i helped all my friend (they were 4) i went back to talk to that new guy,his energy became even more powerful. I said to him "i dont know who you are,but i thank you. I feel like,without you,we couldnt make it" Now here's the interesting part. The next second,he got hella pissed off,he changed his look into a demon and i was so enthusiastic about it! I even laughed. Boy he was ugly and mad at me. He said "you were lucky! I was here to put and end to you,i was sent by Azazel,but somehow you managed to escape" -creepy voice and wrinks on his face- and he vanished. My friends were waiting for me,so i went back to them and the dream was over. I woke up so fresh and delighted,i never felt that way! My body was light and i couldnt feel my lungs. It took me half a day to "really wake up". I got cought up in that sensation for hours!

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Dream Interpretation / Dreaming of spiritual entities

« on: August 09, 2017, 09:10:29 AM »

Hello Tony,

This is the first time im writing to you and i really hope you could help me with a brief explanation (tho i really appreciate the details  ).  Im gonna write about my 2 dreams that left me with a mark,very briefly,but they surely left me with with lots of questions and weird feelings.

In the first dream i can't really remember the context (it was 3-4 days ago) but i was a pure,dark,shadow-like entity. ME?! I didnt feel bad at all,i actually felt immortal and i was fighting some bad protagonists to defend some female entity ( im saying entity because i could see only a silouette,never the faces,nor materials,not textures). Me being a dark entity didnt bother me so much,but it bothered that i woke up when i reached the half of a suspended rope and wood bridge and i couldnt help that lady cross it ( ididnt care less about me,thats how i felt. a little hollow and empy and i felt like that act was just part of my nature,helping others)


The second dream happened last night. It was sooo real and deep and touching. You know The Hunger Games? Well,i dreamt something similar for the 4th time in my life,exactely the same context at first,but this time we wouldnt kill eachother (yes,i was not alone). The dream took place in nature,a world hidden under our feet (literally) and this time it was alot more than the previous times. The dream evolved and it got me into another context,"above",in the city. There i met a fellow female student,i could clearly see her face,her every shape,color,cloth but i could only perceive her as "the water element". And she was so joyful and filled me with happyness! She even gave me a pair of soft,purple cotton socks to keep my feet from shoes rubbing! The second character is an old man,same as the water lady,i could see everything about him,but he was "the element of earth" engraved into my soul and mind. He was such a funny and calming guy! He was my MENTOR,thats how i felt, and everytime i busted into him,i would take a break,shake hands,chit-chat and laugh for few minutes,then leave. Another character is another female student,same thing,all details,but she was "fire and wrath"! She would run after me with the intention of killing me just because i found out a secret of her(but i did so for the sake of her friends). And the last element,wind,it was me. I was fast and untouchable. Always on the running and i could cross a whole huge city in just 5 minutes. I felt great! But i also felt a burden. I felt like everybody was searching for me and i was hiding in every corner of my mind (remeber the hunger games i talked at start). I felt like i was prey,but nobody could ever lay a finger on me. After all,i was "wind".

PS. Im Gemini. I don't know if it has anything to do with the "wind" part,but i have a feeling it does.

As a background,im an architecture student finishing year 3 of college. My life's been very FULL of work and stress since 3 years ago but at the end of every difficult task,i could relax and breathe freely. I only had 2-3 moments of panic in 3 years,so i dont think its really that bad. But this year is the top of my stress. I failed an important project because of my coworker and i feel nervous every day. Even today im working on that project and i feel like im not doing enoguh for it,even tho i work everyday for at least 5 hours. I tend to believe that all my dreams are somehow bound to my stress but the ones i talked about earlier are profound and i feel there are symbols i dont know about.