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Dream Interpretation / One Image

« on: May 21, 2015, 11:59:43 PM »

Just the ball part of a medieval flail.

(After writing the above I was reminded of a quote I like "Comedy is a concealed weapon.")

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Dream Interpretation / On the Table

« on: May 13, 2015, 03:03:56 PM »

A medium/large sized human penis on a table in front of me...the head at the right...no testicles.  It looks hard but soft.  It looks brown as does the table.

Next I am huddling with some golden clad (hair and clothing) women.  One says "there is a naked boy laying on the sidewalk, do you want him?"  Another says "He left."

Next I approach a tall dark man sitting at a table.  I give him my drivers license.  He says "Your name is Christine and yet you give me your brother's (identification card) identity."  He is furious.

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Greetings / Happy Birthday Tony!

« on: May 11, 2015, 04:10:35 AM »

I hope you had a great day!  I continue to be appreciative and grateful for the heart and soul you put into your work.

Much Love,

Christine 

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Dream Interpretation / Three Images

« on: May 11, 2015, 04:05:27 AM »

A tall black and glass office building.

A white person and dressed in white leaning over and looking at a black circle marked on a white floor or ground.

A small wiggling dark grey worm or elongated seed.

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Dream Interpretation / Man at Table

« on: May 05, 2015, 03:32:03 AM »

Tall grey man with a grey plaid button down collar shirt sitting at a table.  On his left is a dark loaf of bread...on the right large, dark pile of walnut? meat...or it could be a big pile of feces or worms from what it looks like.

I hear "In Framingham, 3 or 4 out of 100 people have this."

I wake up from my dream saying "walnuts."

I know this is particular to me...just wanted to get it down to revisit it later.

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Dream Interpretation / HRT

« on: April 24, 2015, 06:32:36 PM »

I get out of my car and meet my brother.  He is arriving and getting out of his car .  A tall dark man standing in front of a dark house is watching us.  I want to hug my brother but am afraid the dark man will think it is sexual. I hug my brother anyway and ask "are you ok?"

Next I am working at a bank I used to work at.  Sitting in my office.  I walk out and there is some sort of a party.  All of the decorations are white...there is a lot of white fringe...for some reason it makes me think of a stripper's costume...white fringe...red glitter handwriting and lines of red glitter decorations on top of the red fringe.  I can not read the writing though.  I walk through the party area and go back to my desk.

At my desk...there are a lot of the same legal sized brown files we used to use...piles...a messy desk.  My old boss comes in and says "You are still not doing the work."  (He has said this to me many times during my dreams and I have always been unsure as to what he means).  He leaves and I start to worry.

I clean up my desk a little and keep working.  I wonder if I can get a job in a non - profit...I think of contacts I know there...I asked my assistant and one or two of the female office clerks if so and so and so and so still works here and there.  I write down the names of my contacts.  I go back into my office, look up from my desk and everyone is gone.  I look at my watch and it says 10 of 10...it is late at night.  Even though I am working and could work late EVERY night they could still fire me at any time for any reason...it does not even have to be true...and I worry about that.  I dial my parents phone number and my brother answers...in the background I hear someone yelling at my son..."BUDDY...BUDDY"  I say firmly "why is he yelling at him.  "He..." and my brother's voice trails off.

Leaving my office for the day/night...I see a green post it note with the letters "HRT" on it.

I have some ideas about the above buy wanted to post it so I do not forget it.  Will write more later.

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Dream Interpretation / One Dream/One Message

« on: April 22, 2015, 01:03:02 PM »

A man sitting in a chair, facing to the right.  he has some sort of a khaki colored uniform? on, pants and matching shirt.  It might have been my fathers air force uniform...not dress clue but casual khaki.  Behind him a grey man who loudly and insistently says , "I want you to put him forth (or front?) as an example of the left hand washing the right."

In the next room I am walking and pacing around a table at which a few grey people are sitting.  I am not screaming, but sort of bellowing..." "you want me to dishonor the individual"  in front of the group or for the benefit of the group."  I am not sure about the words I said outside the quotes.  I am not happy about what I am being asked to do.  One of the people at the table says "If not, then you sue."

I woke up...the back to sleep..."someone took you upstairs, there is no light there."

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Dream Interpretation / Physical and Verbal Submission?

« on: April 18, 2015, 10:47:51 AM »

I am in a dark house or building.  I have an urgency to leave and before I do I look through some papers on a table.  I see a picture of a human child, like in a religious painting, rising to the heavens or falling from it, among grey clouds.  The child has darker skin than those in the religious paintings though.  I take the picture. fold it in half and hide it among some notebooks and sketchbooks which are blank.  I put them in my left arm to carry them.

Next I am on my knees, eyes closed, my mouth is open and someone pierces my tongue.  I see an image of my tongue with a large nail in it.  There is a knot at the bottom of the nail underneath my tongue.  A tall grey being, laughing, is holding a long grey metal jeweler's file and is filing the bottom and between my two top front teeth.

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Dream Interpretation / I Am

« on: April 08, 2015, 02:50:36 AM »

Last night I heard the words "I Am" in my sleep.

I have been struggling lately.  To be or not to be?

So I will focus on the self expression exercise under Tony's "I Am."

I am realizing that maybe all my dreams about my son are about my own lack of self expression

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Dream Interpretation / One Dream/Two Images

« on: April 02, 2015, 05:45:28 AM »

1.  Someone says "this is what her parents gave her." A small dark child walks up to me.  She shows me her right palm.  There is a half white/half purple capsule perpendicular between the palm.  What is that?  I ask.  Someone says "Adderall" (a drug for attention deficit disorder).

Then the child sits on my lap.  She looks at me...she is the picture I use on my Facebook page.  The face is a black stone sculpture and with a tear running down her right cheek.

The child says "And now you will hold me" which almost sounds like a question.  The image also reminds me of an audiotape "Warming the Stone Child" by Clarissa Pinkola Estes.

2.  Image of a ball or sphere on the floor.  There is white light breaking through grey clouds above.  The light from above lights up the top half of the sphere while the bottom half is shadow, and the light also casts a shadow of the ball on the dark floor.

This might be about my own polarities or having been hit "below the belt," i.e. sexually.

3.  Image of my father, he is sitting reading the newspaper...facing left...his face is mostly hidden and he is not looking at me.  On the right, facing the same direction, my son is sitting on the floor facing left.  My son is not looking at me...he is looking at the floor.

(My son has autism...he is non - verbal...17 years old...does not like face to face or eye to eye}.  This dream brings up a lot of rage and grief.  Feeling abandoned by my father in many different ways, men in very different ways and also by my son.  I have acted out the rage I feel, and also abandoned them in different ways, not really dealing with the grief and guilt.  The shame/guilt I felt when I thought their behavior was "something about me"...my father was an alcoholic, had ptsd from WW II, had a volatile relationship with his family and my mother, grew up in an extremely competitive family and raised us that way, but probably had learning disabilities himself.  If we felt hurt, disappointed, embarrassed and expressed any feelings we were beaten with a belt.  I grew up with black and white thinking about myself.  If I feel bad...I must be a bad person.  I do not talk about my "negative" feelings...I bury them. 

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Dream Interpretation / Frog and Tree

« on: March 03, 2015, 05:42:30 AM »

Falling asleep I hear the question "How much do you love me?"

In my dream I see myself walking at night.  I come across a black frog sitting prince like, but without a crown, in front of a tall black tree trunk.  Either I was very tiny or the frog was very big as the frog and I are both the same height.  The frog seems like he is guarding the tree.

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Dream Interpretation / Vitruvian Woman

« on: February 13, 2015, 07:59:27 AM »

I am in a place of white light and see a large three dimensional capsule (like a pill) in front of me.  It's surface  is grayish with white outline and form. I can also see through it.  In the middle of it are two round flat discs, as tall as the capsule itself, maybe 8 or 10 feet tall.  In the center of each disc is a tall grey human figure as tall as the disc itself.  The circle and the figure feel female.  What I see reminds me of Leonardo Da Vinci's sketch Virtruvian Man.  Each disk is spinning...sometimes in the same direction...sometimes in the opposite direction.  Each time the discs stop, the two standing figures lean forward out of their respective discs to kiss each other on the lips.

Immediately before the above dream, I was standing on the shore of a beach close to or in the waves of low tide.   In the dream I must have been a tiny person or a spec of sand as I was insanely low to the ground and the waves looked so low and slow.  On my right a large hand points a roll of tightly would paper in front of me.  The paper has black printing on it and is unwinding into a spiral.

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Dream Interpretation / Saber Tooth Cartoon Cat

« on: January 10, 2015, 03:03:03 PM »

I am holding my right arm up in the air.  The arm in muscular and strong and white. A cartoon like, not funny, but metal machine like angular dark grey cat has it's mouth and saber tooth teeth clamped around my fist.  It's body and tail are wrapped around my arm.  The cat is very tight on me but it does not hurt although the teeth are sharp.  I try to push the cat up in the ceiling where all these other similar looking but brown cats are stuck.  I finally punch my fist up in the air and shake off the grey cat.

Thanks for the other responses.  I will write more on those soon.

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Dream Interpretation / Words Said to Me

« on: December 29, 2014, 05:32:44 AM »

Words said to me in my sleep were "We are in dystrophy."  And then I saw an image of a large "6" in a block type.

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Dream Interpretation / Playing Alone?

« on: December 23, 2014, 02:32:19 AM »

In my dream I see a little girl.  She is shuffled into a room by herself.  On a table in front of her is a solid black block (like an alphabet block), gold jax and a red ball.  I feel really sad when I think about this image.