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« on: August 30, 2016, 03:35:15 AM »
I had a dream last night and am feeling that it is somewhat connected to one I had last week.
I have also been thinking that what I wanted was not in or duplicating my parent's house.
Last week, one of my dreams told me that a source of conflict for me is the way men see themselves as compared to the way I see them. The dream told me that generally men see themselves as being above women and I see myself self as being equal to male authority figures and above most men.
I was getting on an elevator and a group of men, also getting on, told me they were going to a floor above mine. I got into an elevator alone and a man passed me without looking at me. I went to the basement, focusing on the desktop and not paying attention to other men or the environment. I am pretty empathic/intuitive and sometimes telepathic, picking up and hearing what others are really thinking.
I do understand that the dream was also about the level of attention that men do not give to each other or me, possibly. Am I looking for a level of attention that men do not even give to each other, nevermind someone "below" them?
One on one relating has always been the most satisfying for me as well as the most painful.
It was a helpful dream and I am still processing it. I will pause for now and add the second dream in a bit.
Ok. In the latest dream I am working in an office with all these grey men...but do not see myself as part of their group. In one scene or picture I am sitting on the edge of the group and in another I am sitting at the end of a long narrow office...no windows. There are men working around me, yet we all do financial analysis and write reports and do not interact with each other very much. At one point, I overhear a conversation and volunteer that I have a copy of the SIC code (standard industrial classification) codes in my desk if they need them.
In looking at myself in relation to the dream I realize that I like to have information that no one else has and that providing needed information was a way for me to get attention from men. That did not mean they valued me, however. Disappointing.
In last nights dream I am walking toward a row of 3 or 4 desks lined up against a bank of windows. Everything is white. It is for women who are working together and my desk is in the middle. As I walk towards my desk...I see than someone has put several flowering plants on my desk. They are between dead and hardy. A Christmas Cactus that is dried up and needs some water if it is to bloom, an orchid...both are particularly tricky
plants to care for. There are others...I think I see a lady slipper...I pick it up and say "there are too many." I look around and notice that the other desks each have one plant and there are also a few scattered on the ledge next to the windows. The plants are colored...everything else is white.
A woman comes up to me and hands me an old squared off table leg or post...the finish has been worn off. I am holding it and another woman hands me a handwritten note in pencil...it says something like FA 377 or FU 377. It is where I am to go to deliver it.
Next I enter a large hall and there are items on display for sale. Everything is grey or dark...there is jewelry...beauty products....candles...incense...nothing appeals to me...there is nothing I need or want. I go further into the room and there is a table with what looks like a Thanksgiving buffet on it.
I see a meatloaf and a turkey. They are made of chocolate and are colored like the real meats. A woman comes up next to me and starts pulling off some of the turkey and eating it saying "this tastes like collard greens." I think this is ridiculous and unappetizing. I move further down the table and turn left following the l shaped table.
There is a white chocolate sculpture made into a woven looking basket. It is gorgeous!
That is what I want I think. It is what it appears to be. It is also my favorite kind of chocolate!
Lots of good information...a lot to process. No rush for a response.