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Dream Interpretation / Planes
« on: September 26, 2016, 03:51:17 PM »
I had a dream a few nights ago that I've been meaning to share. In my dream was a series of plane crashes. The planes would come apart midair, actually very high in the atmosphere, and in one of the crashes, another planes wing shreds the fuselage. I was an observer in this dream. I wasn't in the planes.
Life's generally pretty good right now. My fiance seems to be happy with me for the first time in a long time. I've been doing more around the house lately. I'm also looking in to going ahead and getting my CPA. I just worry, because my heart's not in it. It sounds good and I'm in a position where I have the time and resources to accomplish it. Maybe I just need to do it, but I think I'm afraid I'll get lost in it or it will lead to bigger problems down the road. Right now, life is simple for me and I kinda like it that way. Maybe, it's also the idea of change that scares me. I just now feel like we're getting in to a groove. Then again, maybe getting back into Accounting is exactly what I need to do to keep the groove going.
But I'm also motivated to do it as a way of revenge. I worked for 6 months with a local accounting firm and it didn't end well. I was fired. I didn't mesh well with the office manager. She ran the day-to-day operations and was very authoritative, even with the partners. I honestly believe she was intimidated by me. In the same breathe she was firing me she was also telling me how stupid I am. In the moment I was too worked up to think about what that meant. To me that just shows that I make her feel insecure. It's one thing to fire someone, but another to insult them in the process. And, on top of that, she said they would give me a recommendation, but not as an accountant. I took cuts on pay and hours for the opportunity to work there. It was suppose to be a career builder. And they sent me out the door in a worse position than when I started. So yeah, a large part of me wants to obtain my CPA strictly to smear it in their faces.
Life's generally pretty good right now. My fiance seems to be happy with me for the first time in a long time. I've been doing more around the house lately. I'm also looking in to going ahead and getting my CPA. I just worry, because my heart's not in it. It sounds good and I'm in a position where I have the time and resources to accomplish it. Maybe I just need to do it, but I think I'm afraid I'll get lost in it or it will lead to bigger problems down the road. Right now, life is simple for me and I kinda like it that way. Maybe, it's also the idea of change that scares me. I just now feel like we're getting in to a groove. Then again, maybe getting back into Accounting is exactly what I need to do to keep the groove going.
But I'm also motivated to do it as a way of revenge. I worked for 6 months with a local accounting firm and it didn't end well. I was fired. I didn't mesh well with the office manager. She ran the day-to-day operations and was very authoritative, even with the partners. I honestly believe she was intimidated by me. In the same breathe she was firing me she was also telling me how stupid I am. In the moment I was too worked up to think about what that meant. To me that just shows that I make her feel insecure. It's one thing to fire someone, but another to insult them in the process. And, on top of that, she said they would give me a recommendation, but not as an accountant. I took cuts on pay and hours for the opportunity to work there. It was suppose to be a career builder. And they sent me out the door in a worse position than when I started. So yeah, a large part of me wants to obtain my CPA strictly to smear it in their faces.