Well Dreamdrea – There is a lot going on in your dream life isn’t there.
As far as not being able to land a punch it seems as if you might be slightly awake – semi sleep state – and in that state you are unable too move well. So everything you do isn’t as effective. But it might be also that you are divided in yourself about your anger, not wanting to hurt and wanting to hurt.
The terrifying dreams are easier to pinpoint. I had such a dream I which two men came into my bedroom, and they looked like they had just arisen from the grave, with rotten flesh dropping off them. They came at me and grasped my throat trying to strangle me. I awake screaming and needed the lights on from there on. But later, when I had learned how to enter my dreams without fear, I found that they were things in me that had been killed in my childhood and had died and were rotten.
I know that sounds strange, but many comic books constantly depict real human situations. So I feel sure your demons and awful feelings are from childhood. And from mid thirties onwards your usual optimism has been shattered or worn thin, and so these things can surface.
I wonder if something happened in a bathroom and is still haunting you. If you can believe that they are parts of your past that need you to see what an awful condition some of your memories are in, and talk to them asking for courage to meet and understand them, it can make a big difference.
I have had a lot of nightmares, and helped others to meet and heal them, and I know this works if you have the courage.
Tony