Mikey - A strange and interesting dream. It seems to be a mixture of going forward and also holding back.
I will explain my impressions of it. Yes it is about the next phase of your life, and some of the difficulties you are meeting in the enormous inner changes you are going through. Your face, you self image is part of the major change. It seems to me to be a transition point between the smaller you, you used to know yourself as and the larger you, you are becoming. It sometimes includes and experience of death of the old self. Other people cannot see the changes you are going through.
I am not sure of the urinating part, but maybe a release of pressure and a temporary return to childhood feelings.
The part about your wife is probably old feelings you are meeting and clearing out. Most of us have them, it is part of our old human male self that needs upgrading.
The bridge is another symbol of leaving one way of life behind as you go through transition. As you said, “it would have been easier if I had stayed on the main path”. I wonder what you consider to be the main path. Maybe it was to remember the inner truths you have met and seen and carried on living them. We are all b*****s for not taking our own insights as wonderfully valuable.
The old man - wow - what a wonderful thing to meet. He is probably you that you will be as you gather more experience. He can offer you such insights because in dreams we can exist at the quantum level beyond time and space. And so he speaks from your future. And the wisdom he gives you is vital.
You are born I believe in the USA, and so without realising it you have the heritage of the whole land within you in your dreams. It is the memory of the land and all who lived in it, and from that you have the wisdom of the ancestral memories in you. And you have been offered so much in being given corn. You are offered life and the ability or opportunity to care for it. For corn is something that is like a child when a seed is planted in a woman's womb, it needs care in caring for it, and when it appears above the earth/birth it must be protected until it is strong. So you have been given so much – the contact with the ancestral memories. You have eaten of the corn, so you have taken its promise and fertility into you, care for it.
Then a fascinating exchange, "I have three nipples and there are three harvests for my horses". This so full of symbolism that it would be foolish or me to put it writing, because words or only shadows of meaning. But to give you a lead, the three harvests are a statement from the bible. They are the first it about harvesting, gathering in all your experience and taking the crop of it. So the first harvest is about resurrection - the knowing of the real you that has been dead for so long.
The second harvest is Pentecost when the spirit of Life is known in you.
The third harvest is rapture or love when you move into a permanent state of ease and growing love.
The first horse represents plenty, fatherhood and what has been good in your life.
The second horse is the gathering in of all you are and making it fertile.
The third horse if what is born from all you have been.
The third nipple is a statement of your femininity. You must claim it to become whole person. Claiming your feminine nature is not about becoming less of a man or dressing up in women’s clothes, it is about claiming your whole being. You obviously have some difficulty about this because if your sarcastic remark. This may have developed because of having been teased about it, so you make fun of it. The old man is you as your future, and so also has three nipples.
Something from my journal: “That realisation tore me open and I cried so much knowing the presence was and always had been with me. He said, “I am with you as a baby, as a youth, as a man, and even as an old man – who people call God.” And I saw him there in all ages, knowing as I felt all this that the wonderful being could meet me at any point.
I could help feeling enormous waves of emotion flowing through as I realised all this. God was not outside of us. We are it, living this strange, often difficult, but wonderful life. To have experienced that divine union in myself in the images of Radha and Krishna, still moves me deeply as I write this. To be shown once more that I am, as we all are, an incarnation of that very mystery of life, is a very great gift. So I want to shout to people - You are so wonderful. You are an expression of the most amazing and blissful thing you could ever imagine. What brought the universe into being lives in you. You are it.”
Tony
