Mikey - You are welcome
I am glad I was able to give you a hand. It helped me look at some parts in myself for a purpose I do not understand yet.
I am aware that Tony looks at dreams from a point where he has dealt with it all already and still I like to give it a go with your first dream.
I see you and the aspects of your inner female trying to dissociate from parts of your self, parts which you have not integrated yet.
The dream shows that you rather get rid of parts of yourself – selling your house - than integrate them by working your way through what you have buried in the backyard.
Although you believe that burying it is enough to get rid of those unwanted parts in you, you are also aware that it keeps haunting you.
I see haunting as a symbol for the autonomous complex which can haunt us when we do not learn to manage it:
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/autonomous-complex/Apart from the infant there are many beings we touch in our dreams. Everything from the deeply animal such as the dog in our dreams, or the wolf, to the sadist, the lover, the monk and the business tycoon. If we do not meet these characters and manage them in our life, they will certainly manage us, and lead us into relationship tangles, emotional responses and actions that are not what we ourselves choose to be or feel. See: examples under compensation; sub-personalities; Integrating a Parent or an ex; Unconscious; Alien
I found a small graveyard, with an open casket and clear evidence someone or something had escaped. At that moment I seem to have separated from myself. It was as if the man standing in the graveyard was no longer me.
I see this part in the dream as a symbol for the autonomous complex in full action. The moment your autonomous complex takes over AND you are aware of it - which I see as a wonderful step you took - you were able to become an observer – you had a bird’s eye view of the situation, which is like rising above it and not identifying with any part of your self - repressed or not repressed - because in Reality you are awareness only.
The zombie:
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/zombie-zombies/Zombie
This is about something you sense in yourself or others that is moved by other than human and conscious motives. It is like being asleep and sleep walking, there is no sense of any response there. Or at least they are moved by urges that control them and they are not controlled by. This is something like we meet when we see people moved by habits, by propaganda, by religious bigotry or political brain-washing.
In a sense we are all zombies, or have a part of us that is a zombie. It is because we are all programmed and what we do is not from our real selves. If you find it difficult to believe read Programmed and childhood.
I wonder what you associate with Jesus on the cross and what you felt when “Jesus looked up slightly to see the situation”. I saw that you wrote Christ in the dream subject and perhaps it is useful to ask yourself if you see Jesus on the cross – which symbol was part of your dream - and Christ as expressing the same meaning for you?
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/jesus/I trust it will be helpful to look and to question this part of the dream, for I trust it will help you to understand where those violent jolts arose from, especially because you wrote that the image of the statue is burned into your memory.
I see fear merely as a form of resistance. I trust it is about being on the razor’s edge with that too. Sometimes we push through the resistance a bit and so through the fear and sometimes we wait for the fear to dissolve.
I do not feel confident – I have no experience with integrating the anima
- to look at the second part of your dream, so I will leave that part to Tony.
Since I am very much a work in progress myself, I trust that Tony will help both of us by looking at your first dream too, to help me see where I was blind still.
Anna