Rand

I have often experienced that I did not understand my own writing from the start and by making it into a quiet inner job, I managed to sort it out for myself.
I have also experienced that the fear for the pain is worse than the pain. I mainly used to hide my pain for that is what I had learned as a child in order to survive. It is a process to let go and it takes time and I have learned to be more patient with myself.
I do not only listen to language, I also listen to the energy beyond the words, which says often more than the words that are used.
It is not always easy to express yourself clearly and directly, especially not when what you write is still halfway between unconsciousness and becoming aware.
And I am always changing Rand. I am not the woman I was yesterday and tomorrow I will not be the woman anymore I was today. I can meet myself anew, over and over again and perhaps that is what you perceive as interesting?
I liked the song and I like Marty's voice; it is deep and warm. (the sound of this song was of higher quality than the first one you posted

) I did not get every word of the song and that is okay, for I am Dutch.
I love horses too and they are great teachers, for they mirror what goes on inside us. I used to ride horses for many years and when I was not convinced about what I asked the horse to do, it would not consider me as its leader and was more likely to refuse to do what I had asked.
Their sensing is perfectly developed.
A few weeks ago I saw a documentation about Buck Brannaman.
http://buckthefilm.com/content.htm“Your horse is a mirror to your soul, and sometimes you may not like what you see. Sometimes, you will.” So says Buck Brannaman, a true American cowboy and sage on horseback who travels the country for nine grueling months a year helping horses with people problems.
In my next life I want to be a horse whisperer; helping horses with people problems.

In this life I will continue to learn to help myself.
Anna :-)
PS You may not understand the words, but this voice I like too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0__81n6Fts0