Cutting off my own head!

[Dannycandle]

The dream starts out that I am in a familiar place alone. I take out a knife and stab myself in the neck and cut my throat. For some reason I keep Going, and I fall to the linoleum floor with my head nearly taken off. I lay there bleeding out profusely blood gargling out of my deeply cut neck. I tried to get up and reach for the counter, but I was too weak and I couldn't get off of the floor- the feeling of death blanketed me as I was getting sleepy and I was sure I was going to die. But I kept trying for the counter grunting and reaching. I finally had the strength to make it to the counter although I was sure I was going to fall to my death. I hold my neck and head in place because I remember thinking if it falls off I'm dead. I reach for the phone and dial 911 and although it takes me a few attempts,  I finally get connected. The emergency operator answer the phone professionally and states that the 911 I called was located in a town about 30 minutes away. She asked for the address and although I knew the place that I was I couldn't think of the address. Frantic but still trying to remain calm,  the operator trying to save me was trying to ask for landmarks or something in which the ambulance driver could find me but all I could remember was the town name and telling her that I was going to die if they don't hurry. Apparently I gave up and hung up and called my sister. She said she would be on her way and I hung up the phone. At this time the bleeding has completely stopped and I remember thinking "Am i dead and I just don't know it?" But regardless my head was all the way off now and I was holding it in place with both hands. There were some small glass turtles decorations that the show comes off like you could put a few small pieces of candy or something inside. There were three of them. So I reached over with one hand and started kind of playing with the turtle shells taking them on and off to occupy myself. After my sister arrived I walked down the stairs outside and got into the car. But for some reason we didn't go to the hospital right away we stop at some kind of restaurant.. I think it was a Denny's or something. And I'm sitting there now with both of my older sisters still very worried but ordering food none the less. As I sit there scared I noticed people staring at me and my oldest sister making the comment that my head was on upside downor something. So I stuck my tongue out slowly to feel for my nose and it wasn't there but as I put my tongue in the opposite direction I could feel the underside of my nose thus making sense in my head that I had my head on upside down.  hair to my neck and my neck sticking up. I don't know how it got that way, but I left it in fear that if I took off my head I would die. And as far as I know that was the end of my dream. Any interpretation that accurately depicts this dream would be greatly appreciated please no guesses I would really like to know what this means. Thank you so much.

[- anna -]

Dannycandle 

Welcome to the Forum. 

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« on: October 17, 2011, 04:18:35 PM »
Also, any interpretation given is the best we can do and should not be taken as authoritative. They are suggestions given hopefully to help you find a greater insight into yourself. And even that is only a faltering step toward a full understanding of your dream. A dream, even a simple one, is a thing of wonder. The images in it are simply covers of massive books of information - or like a photograph of a living person. In other words the dream does not become alive until you yourself enter it. So some people will want to find that wonder, and can do so through using http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/practical-techniques-for-understanding-your-dreams/ also the best  is http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/peer-dream-group/

With that in mind I will take a somewhat educated guess at your dream 

Since you are your own expert, it will be helpful to read this first and enter your dream again with some more understanding of what a dream is:
http://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/questions-2/#NoHurt

As you see, you cannot die in your dreams, however, you can die to old habits, beliefs and inner programs running which limit you in your (inner) life.
Please read
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/habits/

I believe the dream reflects an awareness you have that it is a good idea to change some things.
You start of with cutting your own throat (bring about your own ruin?) and you do not seem to be able to stop it:

For some reason I keep Going

Please read
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/throat/

Then you become aware that you need help and you are not aware enough (yet) where exactly you are in your (inner) life.
Two helpful inner parts of you - your sisters- did know where to find you and they took you to a restaurant.
Please read
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/restaurant/
and please use this link to make your own associations with a place like this.
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/association-of-ideas-with-dreams/#Working

I wonder because of what you wrote if this is the stage where you are now with your inner life:

And I'm sitting there now with both of my older sisters still very worried but ordering food none the less.

I reckon - since it is part of the restaurant symbol as well -  "Search for sustenance or strength, or ways of directing your life" - that your head is upside down, because you have not found the right direction yet with your (inner) life and thoughts.
Thinking in "the wrong direction" can be harmful to us.
Please read
http://dreamhawk.com/news/avoiding-being-my-own-victim/
and
the way out of this is to enter the process of daring to die to "the old you":
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/death/#Yourself

Anna :-)

 

[Tony Crisp]

Thanks Anna - The only comment I would like to add Dannycandle, is your words, "the feeling of death blanketed me as I was getting sleepy and I was sure I was going to die."

This is a sure sign that you have lost any real reason or motivation to live. You do not feel suicidal, but neither do you rejoice in living. I have lived in that place for a long time, carrying on with work, tasks and relationships, but without any joy or feelings that life is worthwhile.

It comes from losing touch with who you are and living a life that you feel is the right way to be and live, but it is all wrong for you, so the real you is not involves and is dead inside.

The way to move from the dead to the quick is not easy to describe, although I have tried in several places, and I say what I do without anything to sell. But you could try reading - http://dreamhawk.com/body-and-mind/methods-of-awakening/  and http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/integration-meeting-oneself/

Tony