As a child, at school and at work...I very much doing activities with boys and men...being outdoors, some sports, fishing, skiing, camping. Growing up I enjoyed being treated as if I had no gender, but at some point I started to be treated by the males like a female. As a child I always played ice hockey with the boys, but at some point they started not passing me the puck and laughing at me when I showed my feelings about that...I might have cried, looked disappointed, my face turning red...humiliated.
When I was 10 or so I started having problems with overeating and gained weight...another reason for my father, brother and boys to humiliate me. At 15 I dieted and exercised and lost a lot of weight. Then the boys wanted to talk to me again, which made me angry as they have previously rejected me. I was raped when I was 15. I told my father about it, which took a lot of courage, expecting that he/we would be calling the police and he blamed me! it was my own fault for not protecting myself he said.
The above relates to the dream in that I spent many years in the financial services industry being very good at what I did and expecting to be rewarded for that, but was actually held down and/or back by males in authority. I was visibly angry at men about it...I did not even consider trying to hide those feelings...I could not control not showing them. Outside of work, I sometimes expressed my anger at men by being aggressive...verbally and in shadow ways.